My Lonely Why…

My lonely Why

Lonely days with nothing but these thoughts, bad ones, negative ones oh man. Sitting in the dark trying to block out everything wondering why. That is what is mostly on my mind all the time, all the bad that has gone on again I ask why? Why me? Lonely nights sitting in the dark with a bottle of liquor in my hands drowning in the liquor trying to drink all the pain away, yes still in the dark its better this way. No reflection of myself and nobody looking this way, good do not want any to see me, just drowning. The past is what brings me here always like why? Why this? Why that? Lonely days and nights turn into darkness, depression, anxiety, pain, despair, and sadness. Lonely with tears in my eyes as I ask my self why. A question to my past. Always lonely and in the dark trying to climb out my own head away from the negative thoughts, climb out my depression, away from my past, away from the madness, and from my lonely why.

Thanks for reading.

**updated:06/27/2021**

6 thoughts on “My Lonely Why…

  1. The mind tends to focus on the imperfections, on the things that don’t make sense.

    Why can’t life be perfect? I have some answers. It seems it all started one day when a certain being became bored and decided to invent a problem to amuse himself. Then he began to take the problem too seriously, and before long he had become engulfed by it.

    You can understand these things if you want to. There are a few goodhearted people left willing to assist you. Find them!

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  2. It’s the dark thoughts that often take over, especially at night, when it’s quiet. The silence makes room for the noise in your head and that’s when the real show begins. Don’t keep it in. Don’t shut it out. Just be. Believe. Tomorrow is another chance.. to breathe.

    Your writing is raw and dark and real. 💕
    I hope you had a lovely weekend and are doing well!

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