Monthly Archives: August 2021

Intimacy!

Intimacy

Want to talk about intimacy and different types of intimacy. Also, my thoughts on it and what I want out of intimacy. Of course, the word intimacy in most people mind is just dealing with sex, but there is more to it and other ways to be intimate, and I want to discuss it. Not a professional just my thoughts on it!

First, I want to talk about having a partner in a relationship that you can go to and talk about anything, and I mean anything even on a subject you both do not agree on, you both can have a good discussion about the subject without arguing and fighting about it. This can be in a friendship also with family this is called intellectual intimacy. I would want this in any relationship I am in. Want to be able to talk to a person with complete honesty and not get judgement like I will do for others. A person who can hear what I am saying. Another type is spiritual intimacy a couple who are on the same page and believe the same thing when it comes to spiritually. That can be a good type of way to bond with your partner and a way to talk and heal each other when problems come up. Both having faith and willing to pray together. Praying for each other, building a strong connection through faith. Emotional intimacy is important too, being they’re for a person and having compassion is good. Listening and understanding, a shoulder to cry on. A person who cares if they hurt you or not, a person who protects your heart and you protect theirs. Physical intimacy is a type of intimacy with looking in each other eyes, touching, hugging, kissing, holding hands. Connection through physical touch and letting your partner know how much you love them. I would like all of these in relationship being grounded and strong with each other. Intimacy is not all about sex through these different types is how you can build in a relationship. Take the time to get to know each other on different levels, grow together. And have good communication just want to say that. Again, not a professional

What does intimacy mean to you? How do get to know a person? Do you agree with the types I listed above? Feel free to like, comment, and share.

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Mirror

Mirror

Looking in the mirror

Sometimes loving what I see, who I am

At times hating what I see, hating who I am

Mirror

Sometimes gives me strength

Talking to me words of wisdom

At times words are harsh, mean

Mirror

Sometimes I feel so beautiful

And yet times ugly

Mirror

Its sometimes easy to lie to me

The mirror shows truth, pain, past

Mirror

Who am I fooling?

While facing me

In

The mirror I see

Yeah, sometimes I do not want to face

The ugliness, darkness, sometimes truth

In the

Mirror

That’s how we face everything

Staring at ourselves, looking deep within, our soul

And I, We

Can’t lie, can’t deny

The

Truth is

In

The

Mirror

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Mask!

Mask/Different Face

 Have you ever met a person or met people who act different depending on who they are around? Or you feel they are holding back? Not really all there. Some tend to do it to hide themselves and please others, some do it and hide to protect themselves, and those who do it to hide bad intentions. I don’t think that every person to who do is a bad person. Some. Some people like to be what others want them to be, so a mask is on pretending. When you really don’t want to but don’t feel you have a voice, so you keep that mask on. There are people who do it that do not want people to notice what they go through or what they face. I can say that I have been a person who wear a mask, I put on a smile and act like everything is okay but deep down inside there is a lot of hurt, sadness and pain. I have a wall up and do not want people to know how I am really feeling so I put a smile and I am cool, then I get away trying to avoid everybody. I do not easily connect with people again my wall is up, and I am guarded. Not saying that is a good thing because it still a mask on.

I know that there are some who have that mask on to hide their bad intentions they act and talk like they are perfect, very manipulative, they are monsters deep inside and like it or not there are some people in this world like that. Yes, there are different mask people wear, you must trust your judgement that they are a good person and in your life for a good reason. The world is filled with people who wear mask. Try to be your true self and trust that things will workout for the better. Trust I know, I am slowly letting my guard down and trying to trust. Finding the real me. Do you all know where I am coming from? Have you been there? Are you a people pleaser?

Just my thoughts tonight. Wearing a mask weather good or bad. What do you do????

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Curious

Curious!!

Big world, so many things to learn. Always have been the type of person who is curious. Wanted to know why and how things were made and how they work. Curious me. I also love to learn about new stuff no matter the topic I get excited. Curious me. Big world, so much to explore, to research. Such as other countries, other cultures, different states, animals, so much. Is it just me? Curious me. How stuff was made, wrote, thought process I sometimes want to know it all. Is that weird? I do not think so, I think that it is great to knowledge on varies of topics. Keep your mind open be willing to learn new things, new behaviors. Curious me. History, weather, space, cars, sports, mathematics, science, arts. What makes the world what it is. Exploring different islands, lands, seas, oceans, rivers, food, music, life lessons. Curious me. Buildings, houses, museums, dinosaurs, different holidays. Yeah, I know I can’t know everything but like to keep up on things past and new. People might think whoa too much information to take in, but it is knowledge having a good education and learning more each day is a plus for me. Curious me. What do you think? Just me being curious about the world. Are you curious?

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Doubting

Doubting

Somethings I know about myself that I feel is not a good thing would be overthinking, non-trusting, and being in my head too much. I feel sometimes these things hold me back and seem to not have it all together. Oh, and self-doubting I tend to second guess myself all the time in anything that I do. It annoys me sometimes that is why I want to change it. I must figure out all the craziness inside my mind and try my best to move forward, make better changes. Be more relaxed, stress free. Try to do something without over thinking it or have self-doubt. Self-doubting is one of the reasons my book is not done yet, again craziness it has been 2 years. Yeah, I definitely need to get it together. No, I don’t know how I can overcome these things, but I will do some research and try.

Just thinking of the things that I feel is holding me back and thinking of ways to change that about myself. Want to be able to put good work out there and feel happy with the decisions I have made. Try something new surrounding my daily life. I don’t know. Anybody else having problems with self-doubt? Are you an overthinker? Are you too much in your head? Is anything holding you back? Thinking and more thinking!

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Rainy Days

Rainy Day

Just sitting here watching the rain fall and thinking

This rainy day has got me in my feelings

Watching the rain and trying to figure out why

Looking and hearing the rain trying to hide and hold back the tears

This rainy day gloomy and dark out matching the mood I am in plus I am mad and raged

Rainy day makes me want to stay in bed, I feel lazy

Trap myself inside and hide from it all

Rainy days sometimes I need a glass of wine or five

Rainy days it is hard but, on these days, I try to see the sunshine, keep calm

Rainy days has me down but not for long, this will past

Rainy days full of teary moments and sadness

Maybe I should keep a smile on my face no matter what on these

Rainy Days!!

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