Its funny or crazy how I am feeling about this situation I got myself into. On one hand it is what I want, what I being wanting. But on the other hand, I feel that shit is off, and something just do not seem right. Sometimes I think I am getting in my own way or thinking way too much. Maybe I am scared to take that leap. I do not know right now I am over analyzing the situation. Now I have talked about this man a lot and thought that maybe it was or who I wanted but like I said shit do not seem right. I have extraordinarily strong feelings for him, and I keep telling myself to go for it. What Is stopping me? A question I ask myself all the time. He has been checking on me lately to see if I am okay and I love that he seems like he really cares but of course I think that it is too good to be true something else I wrote about. I have to really make my mind up plan and stick with it; I do not want to get hurt and I do not want to hurt anybody feelings. I just do not know what to do, I like him and we vibe well, I like our conversations and we can talk about anything, I also feel like I and be myself around him even with this there is still some doubt. And I am not the type who worry about what others think about me or my life. When I think of me and him in a relationship, I always think about what my family will think it is weird because I usual do not care what people say or think.
Maybe it is me I got some things to decide. What will you do in this situation? Should I just say forget it all? Should I quit over thinking/analyzing?
Well, I am just venting on this Monday of course got to let it out. My feelings, My thoughts. Have a great night people and I thank you for reading. Love and Blessings
Tonight I am watching a live stream on Facebook for Black Entrepreneurs Day. Daymond John put on the event streaming live. I am so inspired by all the businesses and there is great information being shared. I love when people come together and help others. In the stream they had people who have received grants on their business, also those who came on to share what their business is all about and gave advice on how to get started. So many great people also some celebrities came on giving back to others. I love it. Get focused and stop the self doubt. You can do it, start your business, or whatever project you want and make it happen.
Watching this again has inspired me to really get things going. So many ideas I have and it’s time to just do and get started. Happy Black Entrepreneurs Day!!!!
Do you have a business? How did you get started? Any advice to newbies?
It has been some days without me writing or actually doing anything. I have been in a bad mood and trying to shake these feelings. This grieving shit is annoying it’s understandable but so annoying. One minute I am okay, able to get things done and I am content, than the next I am a emotional wreck ugh. Wanna just SCREAM. Yes I know it is a process and healing and getting over things take some time. I just hate being emotional and having these feelings. I’m a person who don’t like to show my emotions or feel them uhh. Some days it takes a lot out of me, feel so drained and sad. I know I have to be strong for myself and my family, but it is so hard grieving and being on top of everything. I guess I have to continue to pray and take it one day at a time and trust that it will all get better.
Today I am going to try and stay busy and not think too much on negative things or sad things. Just breathe, relax, and pray. I hope you all have a good day I know I will try too. It’s almost Friday!!!
Just writing today and relaxing. I have some good ideas flowing. Just some questions, if you want to answer. What are some topics you like to read about? What do you like to write about? What drives you to write? and How do you overcome writers block?
Just want to ask questions to better my content, give people what they want, and get to know new people. I love to write and share my thoughts. Thanks for your time. #JustWrite
Tonight, Halloween is on my mind. Are you into Halloween? My kids have been talking about it a lot lately and it is getting me in the Halloween sprit. I am not actually into this holiday, but I do not know this year I want to do different things. I want to dress up and go to haunted houses. Also want to start some fun and spooky craft projects. Been looking up some ideas on what the project this weekend will be. Any spooky ideas? I am thinking pranks too, scare my kids a little lol. As far as dressing up there is so many costume ideas floating in my head, mainly want to do a 90’s superstar, or maybe a character from Mortal Kombat yes I am everywhere with this. Hopefully, I figure it out soon. My kids want to be characters from the movie Adams Family cannot wait!!! Oh, and YES Thanksgiving on my mind too, this early lol
Besides thinking Halloween for some minutes, I am also doing some writing and editing, and details with character development. Writing and making changes that I must make. It is a process. WHEW! Letting this pen do the work. Happy Writing!
Are you excited about Halloween? Any Craft Projects in the works? Are you dressing up?