Always Something

Wow, man this day has been crazy. Today has been a long and stressful day just freaking scariness and craziness. I got calls that were unexpected and full of bad news. I feel like it is too much to deal with, feel suffocated and nowhere to go. I woke up happy in a good mood, very cheerful and then Boom it all goes to shit. I am shaking and can not stop crying and thinking too much. Just feel so out of control and hopeless. I do not like feeling this way at all, not being able to be there and help those who I love. It is too much going on in my life right now it is like I try to be happy and life pulls me back. I know that all I can do for now is pray about the situation and wish for the best. My head hurts, my heart hurts, and nobody to talk to about it, it has been a hard day I am just tired I will continue to pray. What to do? Just venting tonight. Too much on my mind.

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