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Shocked….

Shock.....

Been three days and I am still in shock. I feel like I am coming and going. I am lost and hurting right now and I know it will take some time to heal. Such a beautiful person gone so soon. I love you mom and you will be missed. Again I am still shocked and haven't been in the mood to do anything. I just really want to be alone I am taking this hard and wish I could stop thinking so much. Feelings at the moment: Shocked, Lost, Hurt, Sad, Raged, Alone, Depressed, and more. Got to take this one day at a time and I know it will not be easy.

Praying for strength, guidance, understanding, patience wisdom, and healing for me and my family. Praying that things will get better with time. Venting and getting out how I feel right now and writing this took time. My thoughts, My Feelings. Just Write!

I thank you for reading.

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Damn Tears…

Damn Tears…

Sometimes these tears come when I am happy, content

But mostly when I am hurt and sad

Damn that’s often, damn tears

I often wonder why, why I shed so many tears, not the only one. Damn

Tears at night when I sleep

Tears of the past, just thinking about it, why can’t I get over it?

Tears when I am alone, pain too much to deal with

Damn tears

These tears I try not to have…. hold it in

But damn they keep coming

Tears to make it all go away

Tears to make it clear

Damn. Why these tears?

Tears in the night when nobody is there

Because, in this world, this reality, who really cares about my damn tears?

Damn, Damn, Damn Tears….

Thank you for reading!

#Tears #Cries #JustWrite

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Battle with myself

Battle with myself!

I look in the mirror and there are times where I do not like who is starring back

Telling myself to face my fears, be strong

I am battling myself it is tough battle trying to keep control of what is going on around me

I feel like I am losing. The doubting myself, feeling ashamed, I am feeling unworthy

I am battling myself through it all the good, the bad, and most definitely the ugly and the worst

I am my own worst enemy hard on me

Sometimes I like who and what I see and times I do not

I say to myself to suck it up it is life

Battling myself trying to keep from crying

Trying hard to fix my crown

Daily struggles sometimes hold me back

Battling myself this woman is hard to deal with

Tough and strong I say back to the mirror you got this, keep going, stop being in your own way

Battling myself I say take a breather and get back to it

Battling myself it is me versus me

A battle I will come out on top of

Me battling myself through it all enough is enough

Me battling myself it is time I choose I as I stare back in the mirror with a smile

I chose I in this battle with myself!

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FLOW

FLOW!

F- Following my own lead, following my visions, my dreams, feeling powerful, facing myself

L- Learning and growing, letting go of the past, listen to my voice more often, loving myself

O- Observe everything around me, open my mind, my heart, open to new and better ideas

W- Willing to do what it takes to achieve my dream, I have wisdom, wishful, working on a better life for my kids and myself, work hard, a woman that is worthy

That is me. I go with the flow of things and wish for the best. Learning as I go!

Just go with the FLOW!!

Hope you enjoy this.

Thank you for reading.

W.N.P

Thoughts tonight is -Everyone needs prayers

🙏 I am praying

🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏

Be safe people, Be kind to each other, Have Faith, Love each other

Love, Peace, Happiness, and Blessings

Thank You

Alone

Alone!

Just sitting here thinking like always lol and I am thinking about being alone lol. Yeah seriously. Lately it had been rough, and I think I need to get away and be by myself, maybe a week or two. It has been stressful at work and I have been getting terribly upset by it. Personal life as well is stressful now just need a little break. I know I am not the only one. You just want to tell people to leave you alone and let you be. I know that will not happen soon just wishful thinking. Sometimes I want to turn my phone off and just sleep, but I have stuff to do and I have a family to take care of, I am always busy busy busy, and my mind and body feels it. A spa day, some wine, a vacation somewhere nice would be great. A place that is quiet and relaxing and I can breathe easy and ease my mind will also be great.

Alone with me is what I want. Okay I am just venting here for a while sorry. I know we all have those days and if you are I am praying for you . I am about to write, get some chapters finished and relax I thank you for reading and enjoy your evening.

Thank you!

Numb… — Just Write

At this point I feel helpless, hopeless, soul less. Feel numb to it all my days and nights are a blur. I am constantly pacing and can not focus. Music helps a little. Heart is steadily racing and thinking the worst. It is really bad cause I don’t have anyone to talk to and I […]

Numb… — Just Write

Man, man, man going through a lot right now it is too much. REPOSTING because I am feeling this way right now ugh can’t focus and very very scared. I don’t know what to do. Please Pray for me.

Thank You

Morning!!!

Wednesday Morning!!!!!

Every morning no matter how I feel I tell myself that I am loved, I am strong, I am beautiful and I am worth it.

Even if someone else does not see my worth I do. I teach this to my daughter and my nieces I tell them to always love their selves. Loving yourself and believing in your self comes from within.

Good Morning People this is how I get ready in the morning happy face or sad face I have to remind myself how far I have come and I am still going. Remember to always love yourself through it all. Hope you all have a great day and do not let the troubles of the day get you down and yes I know it can be hard, but do your best and think positive. I wish you all a good day, love, peace, happiness, and blessings.

Thank you for reading.

Happy Hump Day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Love I Want!!

Love I want!!!

Feeling that special touch from that person you want, you need.

Feeling the love from their actions. Knowing that you are in good hands.

No worries love and trust have our backs.

The look of love in our eyes the way we stare at each other, see that the love is there.

Having faith that our love will be forever.

Everlasting.

Our souls touch, speak, hear, and see each other’s.

A love like this is ordinary.

A love like this I want to keep.

Dedication, trust, love, communication is what it takes and more.

This is a love I want to work towards

A love I look forward to.

Real pure love, this is the love I want. Real real real genuine love.

I want it!!!!

Thank you for reading.

Music!

Music!!

Hi there today I am relaxing and listening to music and thinking. I am thinking about music. Music is everything to me, it does not matter what mood I am in music helps. I feel like music in a way is my therapy, I get lost in the songs. Anybody else feel this way? Or just me? I listen to music before I write, while cleaning up, while I am sad and crying, when I am up and happy, while having fun and more. I like to put music on and let it take me away for a while. I like to listen to old school R&B and Rap. I love songs that the lyrics speaks to me and makes me feel good. Mary J. Blige and Usher are artists that I can listen in any mood. Music helps sometimes just clearing your head jamming to the beat and/or lyrics. Of course, when with family and friends it is fun dancing and partying and connecting through music. Music can bring people together, well that is what I think.

How do you feel about music? What is your favorite genre? Who is your favorite artist?

Feel free to like, comment, and share. Thank you for reading.

#Music #JustWrite

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Imperfect

Imperfect!

She is perfect in her imperfections

She is happy in her pain

Strong in her weakness

She smiles through the cries

She put on her happy face, ready to help others

Knows her weakness, and strengths

Keeps her head up no matter what

She learns from her mistakes

She is beautiful in her own way because she is herself

Yes she is perfect in her imperfections!

Thank You For Reading!