Have you ever met somebody, and you hit it off, and you two get along? The good conversations, then boom it freaking ends. Ugh I hate that. That is why I try not to get too attached and get my feelings involved, because people will switch up and change on you. Like do not introduce me to that if you cannot keep it up. I do not like the “oh I will talk to you only on my time” which is when or who knows when can you say irritated? I like consistency is that hard to ask for? I also do not like my time wasted that is so annoying or do not like my damn feelings hurt. These days it is so hard to find a nice genuine person like myself. Maybe I will take a seat and focus on me. Time to myself and not worrying about pleasing the next person. I really liked the person but oh well what can you do? I will move on and let it go. Whatever. Wasted my damn time, SMH
I try my best to keep a clear head and positive thoughts but right now I just feel so low and alone. I feel like somethings will never change, and I have to really accept that, and it is hard. Especially when you work your hardest to make things work out for the better. I just feel so lost right now and do not know what to do. This is so annoying the feeling of hopelessness. And at the moment I have to walk away from the BS it is not worth my peace. Sometimes people just drain you, ugh irritating and painful.
Guess I will try to do some writing and hopefully that will get my mind off things for a while. It is kind of hectic at the moment.
What do you do when you feel this way? Lost? Hopeless? What do you do to relieve stress? How do you get over the pain of someone you love doing you wrong? How do you walk away without feeling bad about it? Why? How? Help!!!
I will continue to pray for strength and guidance because I really need it right not. I will continue to love me through what is going on. Please pray for me. And forgive me for the rambling just sitting here thinking and wanted to share.
This will pass I know just getting the thought out my mind like always. Hope you all are having a good day. Hope you have a good night.
When you hear the word failure what does it mean to you? To me failure is letting yourself down over and over, not doing what is necessary to succeed, or having things happen in the process of doing what you need or want, and not following your goals or dreams. Yeah, sometimes life steps in and stuff happens that you can not control, it is all about how you recover.
From time to time, I feel like I am failing in life and feel like a loser or failure. When I don’t complete some goals, I feel that I am letting myself down and being lazy even when I’m sick or just feeling down or lazy that day, and when I am not in the mood to write. Feeling like a failure is not okay to me maybe because I tend to be a perfectionist in everything I do. I want everything to be perfect and get pissed when it is not to my standards. Not good. I question myself when failing happens and think about the situation all the time. And of course, I get angry, sad, feel lost, feel like nothing. Always been this way yes even as a child. My parents use to say that I am my own enemy and I hold my own self back. My dad says it constantly and it something that I am very aware of. I know that in life their will be times you will fail, you must keep it moving
I just do not like it, losing, failing, none of it. Is it just me? Failure is not an option is a saying that constantly replays in my mind. Failure is not an option, you get knocked down, brush it off and keep your head up (I tell myself) Simple right?
What do you think? Have a good one! Please feel free to like, comment, and share your thoughts about failure. Love peace, happiness, and blessings all.
Walking away, this ish, man why is it hard to do. Even when you know you should, you know it is for the best. You know that you have tried your best. You took them back over and over no matter what. You constantly forgave them, even though you were hurting. You disregarded your feelings to make or keep them happy and for what? To get hurt, to be always crying. You see with your own damn eyes that nothing is getting better, it is a damn cycle that you are going through and yet it is still hard to walk away. When those around you also fee like the two of you should not be together, you do not hear them you still try. Even when that person shows you the real them, that they are all about self, they do not care at all. They do not want to change. Walking away is hard, and then you start to think about the few good times the two of you had, and you think maybe there is hope. In the back of your mind, you know you need to end it. Walking away can be a struggle people love hard and do not like to let go. Also feeling like you would never find a person to love you the right way, you stay and continue to deal with the drama it brings. That damn walking away takes time, it can be easy sometimes not texting or calling, and then there are times when you want that person near you. You want their touch, smell, their voice ugh its annoying. Walking away is necessary sometimes though there is no use in dragging on a relationship or situation, and that goes for anybody family relationship, romantic relationships, and friendships. Walking away from anybody or anything that you love or loved will always be a challenge. Man it is so hard.
Can you deal with it? How? Thank you for reading, please feel free to leave feedback.
Happy Monday! How is everyone’s day going? Mine is going okay! Had work earlier but only had to work a few hours this morning and it went by fast. No school for my kids today so we are relaxing watching a new spongebob show called Kamp Koral, they are really enjoying it. I’m not really paying attention lol. I’m sitting here with my notebook and pen writing out goals, ideas, my plans, and thinking about more content for my book.
We might go walking depending on if my kids feel up to it. Just enjoying this day so far hopefully I can get more done in my book, it is taking me some time but m going to make it happen. Well back to this writing I go and let this pen flow and chilling with my 2 loves. Enjoy the rest of your day everyone.
Hello everyone, how is everyone doing tonight? My night is going okay had a kind of hard day but that is behind me now. Hope all is okay.
Well, it is the last day of the month of March. And for me it has been challenging and filled with lost and sadness. My days has been hard to get through and been emotional. Even on the bad days I try to be strong and keep it pushing. The month been a rollercoaster for me, yet I am still writing this with a smile on my face.
With all that is going on this month I have remained grateful and thankful. Praying works for me and still grateful for life waking up and trying my best every day. I am thankful that I am still working, taking care of my family, writing, becoming more positive. Even though I am still mad and hurting about my mom I continue to pray for strength and healing, and I have faith.
How has the month of March been for you? Are you excited for a new month?
Hoping the month of April brings better things for me and my family. I hope that I can do more for my family, write more, try to get one of my books done, and be a better me overall. Working on my monthly goals for April also. Do you have any goals for April?
I am still healing and hopefully remain on the right path next month and months to come.