Hello, my blog peeps!
Tonight is a write and edit night. Been at it for hours, and I am still on it. I am making progress and love it. That is tonight’s blog post. Writing, Music, and I. In an okay mood
Hope all is good with you all, and you got some goals completed today. Love yourself and those close to you. Have a good one. That’s all I got for you at the moment. Focused.
Blessings and Love.
Thank you for reading.
Want it, Can’t Have it…..
Have you been in a situation where you have to walk away from someone love because you knew in your heart that the two you would not have worked out? I am just sitting here thinking of that person and I miss him. Been feeling so lonely lately and thinking and missing him is making me feel worse because that is who I want. Badly. I miss the way he used to look at me, our conversations, our silliness, our vibe, the compliments, and him always being real with me. We had to walk away from each other, and it still hurts. I want him in my life, and I still feel that it would not work out for me due to me knowing this person well the way they think, and their personality. Sometimes it annoys me wondering about what if. What would happen if we did have a relationship? What if we try now? Wondering if I made a mistake when I had to walkway from him. Hate feeling this way and again feel lonely and want him next to me even if not in a relationship with me just to talk to each other would be good. I need to find something to do because he is too much on my mind. SMH, I do not like it. He probably does not still feel the same way. Should I reach out or just leave it alone? Maybe too much time has passed.
Or
Have you ever had a person in your life that could not let go? Did all the wrong things in the relationship and you endured a lot and decided to leave but they just will not let you go. Dealing with that currently. Yeah, today I am dealing with a lot got someone who wants me but I don’t want them I feel I tried so hard for years and got hurt and I am over it. Haven’t been with this person for years and they won’t let up. Yeah, fucking annoying. And then I want someone who probably does not want me or thinking about me at all, the difference is I am not bugging the other person or begging them to want me. Constantly calling or texting them. It is the want what I cannot have syndrome we both got I guess lol. Emotions are everywhere though
Damn, can I catch a break…. LOL a little too much at the moment.
That damn feeling of wanting what you cannot have……
Blessings and Love!
Thank you for reading.
Companionship!
Needing
Longing
Wanting for those eyes
That stares back with soul,
Eyes that soothe you
Stares with love
Wanting for that touch
That
Brings comfort
Warmth
That hug
That
Brings calmness
Needing
Longing
Wanting for that heart
Pure
Believable
Heart
That brings
Trust
Security
Wanting to be someone
Who is
Wanted
Needed
Loved
Seen
Heard
Wanting for love
Same
I can give
Wanting for someone
Who brings
Light
Peace
Happiness
Wanting stability
Freedom
Loyalty
Respect
Family
Wanting
That
Good love
Passion
Dedication
Powerful
Needing
Longing for
Wanting
That
Desirable
Companionship!
Blessings and Love!
Thank you for reading.
In this life, it is important that you embrace yourself to the fullest. It is good to take the time to celebrate you. Embrace all that you have and love yourself to the fullest. Embrace the good times as well as the hard times, that is what makes you wiser and stronger. Embrace your healing process and be gentle with your mind, body, and spirit. Embrace your inner happiness and peace. Yes, life happens but always be true to yourself. Embrace yourself, embrace life….
All of it! Just Saying!!
Blessings and Love!
Thank you for reading.
***This post was inspired by my daughter, also a writer. She thought that I should write about embracing yourself. Big shout out to her, got to love her***
I am a force, self-sufficient and strong
Independent in my choices all day long
Love is my fuel, my passion, and drive
I thrive on it, and it keeps me alive.
My heart beats with a rhythm of its own
Guiding me as I walk life’s unknowns
I am tough, resilient, and unbreakable
My spirit unwavering and unshakable.
I love myself most, but I love others too
For love is the bond that makes us all new
I stand tall, proud, and free
My independence is a testament to me.
-I, Self-Aware-
Blessings and Love! 🖤🤎💙💛💗💚🧡❤🤍💜
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Battle with myself!
I look in the mirror and there are times where I do not like who is starring back
Telling myself to face my fears, be strong
I am battling myself it is tough battle trying to keep control of what is going on around me
I feel like I am losing. The doubting myself, feeling ashamed, I am feeling unworthy
I am battling myself through it all the good, the bad, and most definitely the ugly and the worst
I am my own worst enemy hard on me
Sometimes I like who and what I see and times I do not
I say to myself to suck it up it is life
Battling myself trying to keep from crying
Trying hard to fix my crown
Daily struggles sometimes hold me back
Battling myself this woman is hard to deal with
Tough and strong I say back to the mirror you got this, keep going, stop being in your own way
Battling myself I say take a breather and get back to it
Battling myself it is me versus me
A battle I will come out on top of
Me battling myself through it all enough is enough
Me battling myself it is time I choose I as I stare back in the mirror with a smile
I chose I in this battle with myself!
I just love this here and it is very understandable. You think you know me??????
Truth!!!
Healing the hurt
If you don’t heal what hurt, you
Heal what lost you
Heal your mind
Body
Soul
You will bleed on people
Who did not cut you
Who tries to be there
For you
Who loves you
That is why healing and becoming one
With self is important.
Heal and let all the hurt go
Can be easier said than done
Can be a long process
You should still try!
Just Heal!
Thinking out loud.
Blessings and Love!
Thank you for reading.
I made a blog about unhealthy habits 3 years ago. Sadly, not so many changes were made. Here I am again in 2025, still needing to change these unhealthy habits. I want and need to start with stopping the smoking of cigarettes. This very unhealthy habit is one I really need to change. Damn unhealthy habits.
It has been on my mind heavily lately, so I know for sure that it is something I need to do. I am turning 38 in a month, and I’m in need of a few changes. I can keep doing the stuff I have been doing. I am proud of myself for getting my diabetes under control, but now I have hypertension, and smoking is bad for both conditions. Bad for my overall health. Ugh, unhealthy habits.
I will be starting the process of quitting cigarettes soon, and I know it will not be easy (though I wish it were). I am willing to put in the work to make this change and this awful unhealthy habit. These unhealthy habits need to be gone. I am thinking about keeping a journal during this process. I want to document both the positive and negative aspects throughout this process. I got this. I need to find new hobbies and need to stay busy. I also need a new way of thinking. Damn unhealthy habits.
Have you tried to stop something you were use to? How did you cope? Any advice for me?
-Unhealthy Habits II-
Blessings and Love!
Thank you for reading.
Forget
Want to let it all go
Forget the past, forget the humiliation
Forget the hurt, forget it all
Forget the people who played a part in my hurt
Forget those who knew but did not help, looked away
Forget those who said they care, but really do not
Forget the feelings I had, forget my tears
Forget being a child, forget all of my childhood
Damn
Forget having too much weight on my shoulders
Forget getting over shit alone and afraid
Damn yall
I just want to forget
Forget it all…
Thank you for reading.
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