Tag Archives: Lost

Abandonment

How it started and when it started

This feeling on being unwanted

Abandoned

As a child, as a teen

As an adult

Being told at a young age

I’m not special enough

Cute enough

Smart enough

That I am nothing at all

Left alone

Abandoned

By those who said they love me

Would always be there

But you see they are

Gone, nowhere to be found

Abandoned

Searching for answers

Feeling of being alone

Closed in, nowhere to turn, fearful

Can’t speak, Afraid

My voice does not matter

Abandonment

Got me feeling no one cares

Abandonment

Screaming out for help

Being left, being unheard

Being let down constantly

Abandoned

Even by myself

I let me down too

Abandoned

Feeling of being ashamed

Of my pain, my scars

The fucked up past

Lifeless

Why though?

Being abandoned so young

Made me grow into darkness

Abandonment

Something I still try to get over

Abandoned

Feeling lost

Unwanted

Unloved

It is too much of a feeling

This sad, and fucked up feeling of

A nobody

Lost soul

Feelings of and truth of..

Abandoned

Thank you for reading.

Broken Promises

Broken hearts in a

Broken life

So empty, yet filled with

Broken Promises

The things they tell us to

Keep us near

Sometimes with or in fear

Broken Promises

What we rely on

No matter the hurt

Sweet lies

Mostly tries

Broken Promises

Hurt spirit

Soul lost

Looking for their help

Broken Promises

At times

We try to fix

Costing a piece of ourselves

Broken Promises

With a broken heart

In a broken life

People all around, sometimes

Will give you

Broken Promises

Fighting to heal

To get away

Sometimes you have to

Watch out for

Broken Promises..

Blessings and Love.

Thank you for reading.

Secrets….

Secrets

Hold it in

Walk around with the hurt

Pain, and More Pain

Keep it inside

Secrets

Hold it in

Sometimes wearing that

Fake smile

Keep it inside

Secrets

Hold it in

Let it destroy you

Bury it

In your soul

In your heart

In your mind

Bury it deep

Under

Keep it inside

Damn secrets

Hold it in

Be brave

Be quiet

Be scared

It is what they want

Keep it inside

Secrets

Hold it in

Or

Let it out

Scream it out

Keep it inside

Or

Take your life back

Stand up

Hold it in

No LONGER

Keep it inside

I Will NOT

Secrets

They will sometimes hold you back

Holding it in

Keeping it inside

But

Sometimes

Secrets become known

Damn secrets.

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***Just A POEM!***

Please feel free to comment and share your thoughts!

Ray’Elaine Just Write and Be YOU!!! 🖤🖤

Never

Never

Never lower yourself for a person who shows and or tell you that they do not care for or love you

Never stay stuck in an unpleasant situation if it’s bad leave (Easier said than done)

I know, try to get out of it no matter what

Never say yes when deep down inside and in your mind, you want and need to say no

Never lower yourself/expectations based on what others think or what other want

Never pretend to be someone else.

Never change yourself for someone. You are enough the way you are

Never worry about what they say worry about you

Never give up on yourself know that you are loved

Know that you are worthy, you got it

Never give them the satisfaction of seeing you down and out

Chin up move forward

Chin up be STRONG

Never be Un-YOU

I say never to many things. I have been there before a dark place. Loving and giving my all to a person who showed me they didn’t give a damn about me and what I was going through and at that time in my life it was too much going on. A person showed me their true self and it took a while to realize and understand it all. Was just giving and giving and I was only receiving heartache from family and friends smh. It was not good. I say never again

Never

Have a good one. Love, Peace, Happiness, and Blessings all

Thank you for reading.

COLD

Cold

Cold like the wind

Heart chilled, cool, cold

Shut off from me, you, the world

Standing still, stiff body, damn cold

Pitch black, where am I, nothing around

Iciness, trembling body, I’m cold

What is going on? Damn, freezing

Am I coming or going?

Maybe So.......

Damn I am cold

Thank You For Reading!!

****Just a poem!****

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My Lonely Why…

My lonely Why

Lonely days with nothing but these thoughts, bad ones, negative ones oh man. Sitting in the dark trying to block out everything wondering why. That is what is mostly on my mind all the time, all the bad that has gone on again I ask why? Why me? Lonely nights sitting in the dark with a bottle of liquor in my hands drowning in the liquor trying to drink all the pain away, yes still in the dark its better this way. No reflection of myself and nobody looking this way, good do not want any to see me, just drowning. The past is what brings me here always like why? Why this? Why that? Lonely days and nights turn into darkness, depression, anxiety, pain, despair, and sadness. Lonely with tears in my eyes as I ask myself why. A question to my past. Always lonely and in the dark trying to climb out my own head away from the negative thoughts, climb out my depression, away from my past, away from the madness, and from my lonely why.

Thanks for reading.

**Poetry**