Rage II

Posted on 07/10/2021 by Ray'Elaine

Rage II

This fire, this hurt, this pain, sadness built up

I just want to let it out

My body, my mind wants bloody revenge

Rage inside and I do not care who I hurt, do not care of the outcome

Rage roaring if you are in my view, tears will be cried, blood will be shed

Rage causing me to lose focus, I cannot see, its darkness

Rage want me to react

Rage got me drowning, drinking constantly

Rage inside of me ready to burst

Flames everywhere

Hurt, pain everywhere

Rage rage rage as it continues to build

Damn rage inside of me

Thank you reading.

#JustWrite #Poetry #Rage

Drunken Me

Posted on 07/01/2021 by Ray'Elaine

Drunken me

Shot after shot, I feel the numbness take over my body, I want more, need to feel empty inside.

Feel free, free from those who lied, used, and abused me, free from pain, free from the world

Take another shot, it is all good

Feel the sensation, feel the burn

They all do not matter, drink the damn pain away

Take another shot, damn I feel it, I am slipping

But I do not give a damn

Give me more, few more shots taken, mind gone

Laid back not feeling shit, I feel numb, empty it is what I want

Free from it all or is it just a drunken daze

Do I want to stop? Do I need more?

Whispers…Whispers…. Drink it all away

Its okay be gone for the night

And another one…….

Thank you for reading

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My Lonely Why…

Posted on 06/27/2021 by Ray'Elaine

My lonely Why

Lonely days with nothing but these thoughts, bad ones, negative ones oh man. Sitting in the dark trying to block out everything wondering why. That is what is mostly on my mind all the time, all the bad that has gone on again I ask why? Why me? Lonely nights sitting in the dark with a bottle of liquor in my hands drowning in the liquor trying to drink all the pain away, yes still in the dark its better this way. No reflection of myself and nobody looking this way, good do not want any to see me, just drowning. The past is what brings me here always like why? Why this? Why that? Lonely days and nights turn into darkness, depression, anxiety, pain, despair, and sadness. Lonely with tears in my eyes as I ask my self why. A question to my past. Always lonely and in the dark trying to climb out my own head away from the negative thoughts, climb out my depression, away from my past, away from the madness, and from my lonely why.

Thanks for reading.

**updated:06/27/2021**

Can We

Posted on 06/04/2021 by Ray'Elaine

Can We????

Can we share our worlds

Can we share our secrets

Can we be together in darkness

Can we survive the battles

Can we take a loving oath

Can we face our enemies as one

Can we face our demons

Can we love each other throughout the madness

Can we have passion

Can we last

Can we love till the end of time? Have it all, Forever

My future husband

Can we?

Thank you for reading.

#CanWE #JustWrite #Poetry

I Surrender!

Posted on 06/04/2021 by Ray'Elaine

I Surrender!

I give myself to you

I surrender

Yours to love, to cherish

I surrender.

Your life, your love, your heart

I surrender

Our bond, our time, the beauty

I surrender

Pains and sorrow

Sadness and grief, all the bad

I surrender it all to you

Thank you for reading.

#Love #Surrender #Just write

Wasted Time

Posted on 05/23/2021 by Ray'Elaine

Wasted time

Have you ever met somebody, and you hit it off, and you two get along? The good conversations, then boom it freaking ends. Ugh I hate that. That is why I try not to get too attached and get my feelings involved, because people will switch up and change on you. Like do not introduce me to that if you cannot keep it up. I do not like the “oh I will talk to you only on my time” which is when or who knows when can you say irritated? I like consistency is that hard to ask for? I also do not like my time wasted that is so annoying or do not like my damn feelings hurt. These days it is so hard to find a nice genuine person like myself. Maybe I will take a seat and focus on me. Time to myself and not worrying about pleasing the next person. I really liked the person but oh well what can you do? I will move on and let it go. Whatever. Wasted my damn time, SMH

Thank you for reading.

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My Thoughts I

Posted on 05/15/2021 by Ray'Elaine

Lonely at all times…..My Thoughts!

Being around so many people, but still feel so lonely, still feel invisible

Sometimes when lonely by yourself silence seem so loud, loudness in the dark

Oh my, what is it?

Thank you!

Storms!

Posted on 05/14/2021 by Ray'Elaine

Storms…

There will be bad days, there will be good days there will be days where its up and down. I know it will be a process and I will not feel better overnight. This process, this storm I am in will not last long. Strong winds, heavy rain, hail, lighting, and thundering will not keep me down.

Storm is strong raging on, and I am thankful I am not at the moment. storms continue, I will continue to be strong. Stronger than the winds, stronger than my battles. I will survive this storm it is the only way.

I will be calm; I will not rage with the storm. Yes, I am better than that. One day at a time I tell myself I got this. And I do strength and guidance and with God.

This storm again will not me down. Strong Black Woman. I Got This!

I survive storms!

Thank you for reading.