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My Lonely Why…

My lonely Why

Lonely days with nothing but these thoughts, bad ones, negative ones oh man. Sitting in the dark trying to block out everything wondering why. That is what is mostly on my mind all the time, all the bad that has gone on again I ask why? Why me? Lonely nights sitting in the dark with a bottle of liquor in my hands drowning in the liquor trying to drink all the pain away, yes still in the dark its better this way. No reflection of myself and nobody looking this way, good do not want any to see me, just drowning. The past is what brings me here always like why? Why this? Why that? Lonely days and nights turn into darkness, depression, anxiety, pain, despair, and sadness. Lonely with tears in my eyes as I ask my self why. A question to my past. Always lonely and in the dark trying to climb out my own head away from the negative thoughts, climb out my depression, away from my past, away from the madness, and from my lonely why.

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**updated:12/15/2021**

Lonely

Lonely Tonight

Times when I am down and I am not feeling myself, I hate being lonely. Sometimes I wish there were someone here to love me, talk to me, to hold me and tell me everything will be okay. Yes, I am strong on my own, I get lonely sometimes. These last couple of weeks I have been feeling very lonely and been sad about it. Honestly, I wish the guy I talked about in a previous post was here with me, like damn I really want that man bad. And of course, as I stated before he is probably not thinking about me at all. I am just lonely and thinking. There has been so much going on in my life lately and I just want real love, real friendships, just realness in my life. Anyways, I am going to get over it hopefully soon, me thinking this way, I sometimes irritate myself like seriously lol, but it is what it is. Miss lonely speaking tonight. Hope you all are doing okay and having a good night. Remember to love yourself and those around you. Love, peace, happiness, and Blessings!

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Trust None

Thinking tonight and trusting is on my mind

Is it bad that I trust no man with my heart, feelings, thoughts and everything else I keep my guard up at all times not even my dad or brothers. Like I really got a problem. I trust none.

Honestly don’t trust anyone with my life or anything seriously I trust None. Horrible…

My thoughts tonight I write about trust issues a lot because it’s constantly on my mind and I know it’s not healthy to be this way. Still trying to work on it.

Blessings All

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Alone

Alone!

Just sitting here thinking like always lol and I am thinking about being alone lol. Yeah seriously. Lately it had been rough, and I think I need to get away and be by myself, maybe a week or two. It has been stressful at work and I have been getting terribly upset by it. Personal life as well is stressful now just need a little break. I know I am not the only one. You just want to tell people to leave you alone and let you be. I know that will not happen soon just wishful thinking. Sometimes I want to turn my phone off and just sleep, but I have stuff to do and I have a family to take care of, I am always busy busy busy, and my mind and body feels it. A spa day, some wine, a vacation somewhere nice would be great. A place that is quiet and relaxing and I can breathe easy and ease my mind will also be great.

Alone with me is what I want. Okay I am just venting here for a while sorry. I know we all have those days and if you are I am praying for you . I am about to write, get some chapters finished and relax I thank you for reading and enjoy your evening.

Love, Peace, Happiness, and Blessings to all!!!

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***This is a repost.. Hope you like it!!!***

Wanted to share again because today this is my feeling… Alone

Drunken Me

Drunken me

Shot after shot, I feel the numbness take over my body, I want more, need to feel empty inside.

Feel free, free from those who lied, used, and abused me, free from pain, free from the world

Take another shot, it is all good

Feel the sensation, feel the burn

They all do not matter, drink the damn pain away

Take another shot, damn I feel it, I am slipping

But I do not give a damn

Give me more, few more shots taken, mind gone

Laid back not feeling shit, I feel numb, empty it is what I want

Free from it all or is it just a drunken daze

Do I want to stop? Do I need more?

Whispers…Whispers…. Drink it all away

Its okay be gone for the night

And another one…….

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#JustWrite *Just A Poem*

**Updated: 8/19/2021**

Trapped

Trapped

I feel like I am trapped inside a nightmare

My heart is racing like crazy, thoughts swirling in my head

I am trapped

I feel like I can not move something is

Keeping me still, blank stare, tuning everything out

I am trapped

Pleading that someone wake me up

I am feeling trapped I cannot speak

Again, blank stare, wanting to say something

But cannot mouth will not move, shut closed tight

I am trapped

Feeling dizzy, full of anxiety

What the hell is going on?

I am trapped looking for a way to escape

Trapped all the way around in my mind life

I am trapped

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Move On…

When it’s time to move on, that’s just the thing to do. Do not try to force things. Sometimes it’s better to move on and focus on yourself. Everything happens for a reason and you can’t stay stuck wondering why. It can hurt if you have to let a person go but always put yourself and feelings first. Do what is right for you. Move on, heal, and become a better version of you.

Yes it will take time if hurt and pain is there, just take it one day at a time. Trust I know it’s hard. Even if it’s moving on from an old job, or leaving a state or town, changing school, anything. Change can be hard.

Moving on from anything in life can be challenging, have faith and pray that everything will be alright.

Just thinking tonight want to make some changes and move on from the past. Letting out my thoughts and feelings. Just Write and get it out!

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