Tag Archives: Honest

Prompt!

06/01/2023Prompts, thoughtsAuthor, Blog, dailyprompt, dailyprompt-2155, Faith, Feelings, Honest, JustWrite, life, Ray'Elaine, thoughts, writerRay'Elaine

Is your life today what you pictured a year ago?

The answer to this question would be a definitely no. This past year have been a long ride and some lost loves. Doing a lot of grieving. I can say honestly, I am working on my healing and trying to pick up the pieces. I did not think in a year that I would actually publish my books, so that is the good thing that happened over this last year. I am also working on other projects and thankful that I have the strength to focus on my dreams. I am hanging in there though. I have learned a lot and learning to be calmer. Fix my emotions from time to time and get on with the day.

Been a journey this past year. Nothing that I would have even imagined happened in my life. It’s life though.

What about you? Is your life today what you pictured a year ago? Are you in the healing stage. Are you happier than you were last year?

Just a daily prompt! Something to think about.

Blessings and Love!

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I Admit!

05/05/2023Poems, thoughtsAdmit, Author, Blog, Decisions, Feelings, Honest, JustWrite, life, Love, poetry, Ray'Elaine, Struggle, thoughts, Trust, Truth, writerRay'Elaine

I Admit that I am a person who is so stuck in my ways

I Admit that my attitude is not the best, I rage from time to time (SIGH)

I Admit that I can be a little hard to deal with and sometimes need reassurance that I’m still wanted and loved

I Admit that I have a tough time letting go

I Admit that it is hard to let my guard down and for me to fully be open

I Admit that I am afraid to love, to be vulnerable with someone

I Admit that it will be hard to not be in control all the time, when I feel the need to want to control everything

I Admit that I can be toxic in a way when I shut down and shut off from the world. I do not want to be bothered with anything or anybody. I really would not talk to anyone for days. I feel its toxic because I should just address shit instead of running a away and shutting down my emotions (BIG TRUTH)

I Admit that I have major trust issues and sometimes I just don’t believe what a person says sometimes

I Admit that it would be hard to let a man come into my life and take lead, also ADMIT this is something I will definitely work on

I Admit that when I do love someone, I LOVE HARD and care way too much

I Admit that when I find REAL LOVE I would be willing to make changes that I need to make for that right one

I Admit that I do not have all my shit together

I Admit that I feel like grief has taking over my life

I Admit that I get lost in my head, replaying a lot from the past

I Admit I am trying and a work in progress, I am healing and indeed working on me

I Admit that I am willing to change things that serve no good in my life

I Admit guilt to things I cannot change

I Admit I am always me

I Admit my truths here and now, BARE it ALL

My truths are here, LAID OUT

How about you???? What do you ADMIT?

-I ADMIT-

Blessings and Love

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Move On..

04/13/2023Short Stories, thoughtsAlone, Blogging, Change, Honest, JustWrite, life, Lost, Love, Move on, MyThoughts, Ray'Elaine, WritingRay'Elaine

When it’s time to move on, that’s just the thing to do. Do not try to force things. Sometimes it’s better to move on and focus on yourself. Everything happens for a reason and you can’t stay stuck wondering why. It can hurt if you have to let a person go but always put yourself and feelings first. Do what is right for you. Move on, heal, and become a better version of you.

Yes it will take time if hurt and pain is there, just take it one day at a time. Trust I know it’s hard. Even if it’s moving on from an old job, or leaving a state or town, changing school, anything. Change can be hard.

Moving on from anything in life can be challenging, have faith and pray that everything will be alright.

Just thinking tonight want to make some changes and move on from the past. Letting out my thoughts and feelings. Just Write and get it out!

Blessings and Love!

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Honest-Feels Tonight

03/16/2023thoughtsBlog, Blogging, Faith, Feelings, Hard, Honest, JustWrite, life, Love, MyThoughts, Ray'Elaine, Strength, thoughts, Truth, Venting, WritingRay'Elaine

Hello All,

Man, tonight is not a good night. I have been trying to have a positive outlook, and thoughts about life and have been encouraging others to do the same. But me being honest lately it has been hard to do. Especially today. Tonight, my thoughts are dark, and I have been drinking for hours, which I am not supposed to be doing. Without a damn care in the world. Honestly right now my feelings are numb. I do not care about shit right now, and yeah maybe it is the liquor or maybe my wicked thought’s, how I feel about myself at the moment. I want to unleash. Fight mode. Hurting. All day I have being giving myself pep talks and trying to rise above this dark feeling.

But I am tired. Tired of being there for people who can’t help me with shit. It is only so much a person can take. People who I cannot call on to even talk to. Tired of it all. All I do is give to others, while I am suffering through a lot. Help them always in their time of need. But who is there for me. And yes, I know you should not help others and look for something in return, but damn people I help sometimes I wish I can call them and need them.

Often, I feel like my feelings do not matter at all. It is all about what a person can get out of me. SAD but it is a truth in my life. You’ll think I be use to it by now. Same shit different day…

So here I am writing in my notebook and my blog and about to tune everything out. Phone is off, tv is off. Just drinking and thinking (SMH) hopefully this would pass, been here before and it is not good.

Venting and letting it out as always, no matter what it is. If you think this is too dark or not for you. MOVE ON. VENT SESSION

Just rambling on and venting. Just wish I had a person for me to talk to about anything. Yes I am guarded but still haven’t met a person who I trust enough to let them in and be vulnerable with them. Sill working on it,

Anyways back to my fucked-up night. Writing and music take me away.

Hope you all night is better!

My misery does not like company! Even though I go through a lot I do not wish it on others.

She just being HONEST. Tired of it ALL

Have a good one.