Love Cycle!

Posted on 07/19/2021 by Ray'Elaine

Meet each other
Get to know each other- Months to years- depend on the people!
Dates- How many? Who knows? People sometimes skip this
The talks- First couple of months all sweet talk on both ends. The I miss you, cannot wait to talk or see you. Shit everything is all fine and dandy at the beginning. the sweet nothings hell everything even intimacy if that is the case
- The lying, the half-truths. The I am not telling them this or that. the battle with each other. Can get crazy at times……. Oh well you live and learn……. NEXT
Strong- Whatever Phase, I going to do me no matter what…… (It is this way sometimes)
Both of us will not back down……Fighting and more fighting just damn drama
Is it love? should I give up? Is he playing me? Is she playing me? Is this real…. Nah I am tripping it cannot be…. Why I feel this way? Should I express my true self? Question to ask!
The DOUBTING yourself and each other……..Damn, the struggle to not call, to not text, why? At this point you question everything the good, the bad. How he feels, how she feels, sometimes outside influences like damn sometimes it is too damn much……OKAY
Time to self…… Self-reflect, constantly thinking what if, thinking for the future. is it this person or no should I try again or NO…..Damn think about self-right now. and at this time there might still be doubt but then you like hell why NOT….OKAY Let us try……see where it goes, we let it flow!
THE COMEBACK-IF its love!
Talking again- more often, more topics in depth, talking about goals, what each other want, how you can make it work with each other
Dating again-More communication, No lies, Trust, Commitment, NO Games- AGAIN IF ITS LOVE
Caution- Girl back up, Man Back up- He is mine/Or she is mine very territorial making plans with each other. No one can get the way. NO ONE! LOVE IS STRONG! It is all about us. POSWER of LOVE
MOVING IN- THIS IS THE BIG TEST—–WHEW- We go through the motions as we really get to know each other. What we like, what we dislike, how we like this, how we like that, Privacy, Cleaning, Cooking, Eating, Intimacy, damn all of it- AGAIN if true love is in the picture you will work things out. Fighting and oh believe me you will have the dumbest fights, control. This is a tough battle. are you throwing in the towel? Are you up to it….?
More Communication. More Bonding, More love. We love Strong!
What’s Next? Marriage or more trying? What you think?

#JustWrite

Relationships!!!

Posted on 07/07/2021 by Ray'Elaine

Relationship Talk! #JustWrite

I am Not an expert. Just my feelings

Hay people I want to talk about two of the biggest things in a relationship that I have to have. Number one is communication; this is a big deal for me especially going foreword with my life. I want a person I can be able to talk to and after talking have a clear understanding on whatever that was discussed. Communication is big in a relationship, it is good if you and your partner can communicate very well, when I say this I mean about any and everything. You and your partner can sit and talk and express how you feel. Communication was one of the reasons my last relationship of 11 years did not work out. I got tired of repeating myself and trying to express what was on my mind the other person never wanted to talk or want to hear me and it was so stressful and irritating. You should be able to talk to the one you love and hope that they understand you. Listen to each other and have each other’s back.

Number two is trust which is a must. I know some will understand me on this. In a relationship you must trust your partner and believe in them. I do not see how you can have a relationship without trust and that is for any relationship type. You must trust a person with your heart, with your feelings, judgement, skills, and financial situations, and wat they tell you. You must trust that between the two it will work out putting your all into someone that you feel have your best interest at heart and that is a big thing to trust. It is not easy. Not talking about just cheating everything above and trusting that they can do the basic responsibilities in life. Can that person keep they word? Can they be who they say they are?. So much to consider and again it is hard especially when meeting a new person. If you have relationships based on lies it will not work, you must have foundation built on love, trust, communication, understanding, strength, faith and patience. Yes, it can be hard finding this but have faith. You have to work at it, relationships are hard work. I pray everyone find love, have faith and love with your all. What do you need in a relationship? What is a deal breaker for you? #JustWrite.

Thanks for reading. Please share your thoughts.

updated 7*7*2021

Can We

Posted on 06/04/2021 by Ray'Elaine

Can We????

Can we share our worlds

Can we share our secrets

Can we be together in darkness

Can we survive the battles

Can we take a loving oath

Can we face our enemies as one

Can we face our demons

Can we love each other throughout the madness

Can we have passion

Can we last

Can we love till the end of time? Have it all, Forever

My future husband

Can we?

Thank you for reading.

#CanWE #JustWrite #Poetry

Wasted Time

Posted on 05/23/2021 by Ray'Elaine

Wasted time

Have you ever met somebody, and you hit it off, and you two get along? The good conversations, then boom it freaking ends. Ugh I hate that. That is why I try not to get too attached and get my feelings involved, because people will switch up and change on you. Like do not introduce me to that if you cannot keep it up. I do not like the “oh I will talk to you only on my time” which is when or who knows when can you say irritated? I like consistency is that hard to ask for? I also do not like my time wasted that is so annoying or do not like my damn feelings hurt. These days it is so hard to find a nice genuine person like myself. Maybe I will take a seat and focus on me. Time to myself and not worrying about pleasing the next person. I really liked the person but oh well what can you do? I will move on and let it go. Whatever. Wasted my damn time, SMH

Thank you for reading.

#MyThoghts #JustWrite

My Relationship, the END

Posted on 03/30/2021 by Ray'Elaine

*Repost*

My relationship, the END

I walked away, I said I am done, I can not do this no more. I was in a relationship off and on for eight years, and there were only two years it was good, and I was happy in the relationship. I feel like I wasted my time, wasted my life, wasted my love, all while trying to help the other person build them up and give them chance after chance. During those years I forgot about myself. I stayed to try and work it out for our kids, again forgetting about myself forgetting about my feelings in the process. I felt alone and hopeless for years. He did not want to help me do anything or help with anything; he was just there. Talking was pointless because when I would speak my mind on how things were, I would get called names or he would say I was nagging and all I asked for was help with our kids and help with bills. I could never get that. I felt weak, lost, lonely, defeated, and depressed handling everything on my own including my own battles while in a relationship and taking care of everything. The relationship drained me, it was bad it was abuse on both of our sides and I am not happy about that, I was a different person, I became very mean and never wanted to be bother with. Deep depression and looking at my children face I knew we needed a change and that I needed to do better for them and focus only on them. Damn I honestly felt like I was shit, like I was no good. He always worked and had jobs and would get paid and go hang out with his family and friends his priorities were always off, that’s part of the reason I felt like I was no good because I could not get the man, I gave children to, gave my love to, and slept with every night could not help me with the simplest shit. Wow I cannot believe I went through that and stayed with him if I did. I went through so much hurt and pain and sadness alone. I could not talk to him, too many arguments, so I just shut down. Happy to say for the last two years I been single, but he stills begs to have his family back, and it gets annoying. Seriously how many chances should you give a person. Eight years and nothing had changed, and it seemed to be getting worse, so I had to end it for my peace, happiness, and sanity. Then he will tell me that nobody will ever want me and if they did it will only be for sex; he stills says that I am his forever. Just had to walk away. I made a post some days ago about how I felt about him, the hate is strong and the fact that he keeps wanting to get back together makes it worst. I do not understand why he wants to be together when I tried time after time to talk to him and figure things out and make it work but he never wanted to hear it. Now he mad because he messed up. Honestly feel like he was using me for a place to stay. Man, tired of it, all I want is peace. I do not like arguing with him and losing my cool. Wish he would understand, and we could co parent without the drama. Been trying to move on for two years and it has been a long ride.

Just had to let that out I do not want to be bitter about the past, I want to live happy and have no drama. Want this hatred out my heart, we do have to be around each other for our kids. Still lost and do not know what to do. I am just venting and getting my feelings out it was heavy on my mind, feel a little better. Praying for a better year.

Thank you for reading.

*Repost- wrote this 12/31/2020*
Wanted to share again, something I am happy I did.

This feeling again, UGH

Posted on 12/20/2020 by Ray'Elaine

This feeling again, damn maybe I just need to talk to this man and let my feeling be known. another damn night I am spending with him on my mind. It has been like this for days and do not know why. This man probably does not even think about me or care about me but here my stupid self is just in my feelings about him. Sometimes I think I should pickup the phone and call him to hear his voice, I really want him beside me, but oh well. Wish I can get him off my mind, like seriously. Thinking out loud and very emotional, man getting attached and getting your feelings involved sucks. Yes, I hate that I feel this way I feel like I cannot focus I just see him, I can not help it. I just wanted to let this out and I need to learn to keep my feelings in check. Damn, damn, damn this man, I think I am in love (OH MY). I am rambling, need help. What should I do?

Ugh this damn feeling again. Thank you for reading

#JustWrite #Love