When shit gets tough, you have to Figure it out It don’t matter if you can do it or not Figure it out Feeling like everyone, the world is against you Figure it out Feeling weak, unable, unstable, lost Still Figure it out Weather it’s the highs or the lows Figure it out Smile on your face Or Tears in your eyes Figure it out No mater what Figure it out No matter what direction you take Figure it out What life is about Making a way we have No choice but too Figure it out Right?
You ever had those moments when you just sit back and think about your life? You think of everything and wonder how you got to where you are in life right now. You think about the good and tough times, and you think of if it went a different way how would your life be. If this did not happen or that did not happen. You ever stop for a moment and question yourself. You question the sacrifices you have made; you question your thought process and everything you have done. Sometimes we can not help but to take those trips down memory lane sometimes just to see how far we have come, or to think of happy times. Maybe to keep yourself in check.
That is me today I do not know why just was thinking about my past and where I am at today. I am blessed honestly did not think I will make it this far. It has been a journey and I feel like within the last couple of years I have become a better version of myself, and it was a freaking process, and it was hard. Some days it still is hard. I used to question why I was still here in this world, why I was put here. I questioned so much in my life from childhood, education, lifestyles, and life in general. I do not miss the bad, horrible, and all the ugly shit at all, though it made me stronger seriously can do without it and hate thinking about that stuff. It pops up though. Whatever still healing here. Anyways thinking of how far I have come, and I must say I am satisfied. I have become content with life and happy with my writing when years ago I was afraid to do so. had so many ideas and was scared to put my work out there, so I am happy that I decided to do so. It is time I really make it happen for my family and myself. Continue to work my hardest, get this book done and continue to be the better version of myself. I really need to stop doing so much of questioning myself or maybe reflecting. I do not know just thinking tonight and thinking about my whole life, sometimes I do not know why shit just pops up in my head, and I get frustrated with everything. And then I try to keep myself busy and sometimes that do not work. Life is a process I tell you. I know I am not the only one of course it is this thing we call life. Life happens and there are obstacles. The process of life. Me being me and overthinking…… Of course
Life, Life Life……
Have you ever taken that trip? Down memory lane. Have you just thought about the unknown? Thought what if? Or asked yourself why something happened? Are you an overthinker as well?
Blessings and Love.
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