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My Heart Guarded II

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This heart is guarded,

Afraid to give and receive love

Scared to open up

To expose these vulnerabilities.

The fear of being hurt

Of being left broken and shattered

Dismissed, unwanted

It holds me back from taking risks

From letting someone in.

Yet deep down

There is a longing for connection

For a love that is pure and true

A love that can heal and mend.

So, this heart is guarded

Continues to search and yearn

Hoping one day I will find

The courage to take the leap

And give and receive love fearlessly

But, Damn

My heart is still guarded……

Blessings and Love! 🖤🤎💙💛💗💚🧡💜🤍❤️

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My Heart Guarded

Forgetting/Forgiving

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Forgetting/Forgiving

I know you are supposed to forgive people and move on with life. Yeah, that is hard to do, well for me it is. Why? Because all I think about is how a person did me wrong or harmed me, and then I do not know why they did it. I am left feeling lost and confused. I have a hard time forgetting the past and forgiving those in my past, I mean all of it, all the bad, and that is probably my biggest problem. I feel like I still live in the past, and that is not cool. I try to forget about it, but pain and anger will not let me, I do not know why I am still this way. I try to not think about stuff. This is something I am working on I need to let it all go and really move on with my life. Try not to seek revenge and be happy with my life. Try to forgive those who have brought harm my way.

I heard that forgiving a person helps. Holding on to hurt can release the emotions it can bring and help with built-up anger. You are not doing any good by holding on to the hurt. I pray that I can forgive people because this feeling of holding on or wanting to hurt back is not good. I am learning how to forgive day by day.

Have you felt like you could not forgive someone? Was it hard to forgive? What do you think?

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Facade

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In the shadows where none can see

I wear a mask, not truly me

A facade of smiles, a facade of cheer

Hiding the truth I hold dear

Behind the laughter, behind the lies

A part of me slowly dies

I play my part, I play my role

But deep inside, I lose control

So here I stand, with the facade in place

Hiding the tears on my face

But deep within, a spark remains

Yearning to break free from these chains

-Facade-

Blessings and Love!

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Straight Up!

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If you have to keep questioning my feelings and everything thing I say or do. You should leave me alone. Obviously, you don’t trust my words or me. Like damn, why bother. Just leave me the fuck alone if that’s the case. I don’t just put my feelings out there and when I do a person dismiss them or don’t believe them. This is why I like to stay guarded. Seriously why would I waste my time putting my feelings out there just because…. Make it make sense. Straight Up.


Wasted time……


If you don’t trust me, let me be. If your insecurities and Jealousy is in the way, fix it or keep it to yourself and away from me. That doesn’t seem like love to me, questioning what I do or how I do it all the time. So annoying and I can do without it. Straight Up.


Ugh Damned if I do, Damned if I don’t.


Story of my life and annoying.

Just my thoughts and venting a little…… Straight Up


Blessings and Love!
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Mistakes and I

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In her mistakes she finds her strength

Lust and power drive her to great lengths

Her deep soul yearns for something more

Love’s sweet embrace she can’t ignore.

Though flawed, she stands tall and bold

Her story yet to be fully told

With each step, she learns and grows

Her heart full of passion that overflows.

Oh, how she stumbles, but never falls

Her spirit unbreakable through it all

For in her mistakes, she finds her way

Towards a brighter, more beautiful, blissful day

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Mistakes

Lessons

https://writeblg.com/2023/03/07/lessons-ii/

Drained….

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In my quiet glooms, I find my place

Where echoes of dreams fade without a trace

Once vibrant hues are now muted and grey

A weary heart seeks the end of the day

The weight of the world, heavy on my chest

Whispers of fatigue, denying me rest

Eyes that once sparkled with boundless light

Now dimmed by the endless, tiring night

Each breath a whisper, faint and thin

The echoes of the strength within

Fading like a distant hymn

As shadows close and light grows dim.

-Drained-

Blessings and Love!

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Lies and more LIES

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Lies and more lies, Liar

Hello all

Liars on Blast lol

Want to blog about liars and lying. Why is it that people lie so much? Like why especially when they lie over stuff so small or lie just because. People go around putting on fronts or I like to call it their mask. They lie about who they are and their identity. Or lie about any and everything. Yes, I know that it happens a lot, and I just think and wonder why they do it. It is something that I truly do not understand at all. Maybe because I am an honest person no matter the situation, I will always be honest with people. Why? Because I do not like to be lied to that shit hurts. So, I wouldn’t lie to others just because I can and get away with it smh. I have heard that some people do it to avoid hurting someone but lies make everything worse. Well, that is what I think. It is such a big deal in any type of relationship you or in, whether it is family or friends. A lie is a freaking lie and can be wrong like seriously. I think some people do not realize it maybe because they are all about themselves and don’t care. How hard is it to be upfront and honest about who you are and what you are about? Again, something I don’t understand and probably never will. Thought about writing about lying because I am currently dealing with it, so many people around me who do it a lot, and it is super annoying. Something I explain to my kids about honesty and integrity. Your presents and words can concern others. It is okay to be honest and be yourself. Do you agree? Have you dealt with a person who constantly lies? How did you deal with it? Again, people why lie? Annoyed seriously

Thinking, venting, of course, too much shady shit going on, and I do not like it. Time for changes, change the untrustworthy people around me. Please feel free to like, comment, and share.

Love, Peace, Happiness, and Blessings all

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Worry….ME

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Are you a person who can easily walk away from challenging situations? Are you a person who can easily forgive? Easily forget the negative.

I am not that person. I worry too much and think about the past way too much. Something I do not like about myself. I am always on edge, and thinking about my past makes it worse, and then anxiety kicks in. Wish it were easy for me to forget stuff, to forgive, and to trust more. Want to easily walk away with no wounds. Wishful thinking huh? Yeah, it is annoying at times, and wish I could just leave the negative shit in the past. I worry too much it is crazy. Again, wish I can easily walk away from all the bad. Worrying a lot is stressful.

Ugh, too much on my mind right now, and I want to get away. Head spinning and mind racing fast. Have you ever had one of those days? Praying for it as always. Just writing to get my thoughts and feelings and vent out. Sometimes I have to whether it is a negative post or not. I just want to be able to forgive and forget. I am me, and right now, I am worrying and having anxiety, I must admit writing does help as it calms me for a moment. Praying for all of those having those bad days. Breathe and pray about it. Have faith.

Blessings and Love!

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Storms…

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Storms…

There will be bad days, good days, and days where it’s up and down. I know it will be a process, and I will not feel better overnight. This process, this storm I am in, will not last long. Strong winds, heavy rain, hail, lightning, and thunder will not keep me down.

The storm is strong and raging, and I am thankful I am not at the moment. As the storms continue, I will continue to be strong—stronger than the winds, stronger than my battles. I will survive this storm; it is the only way.

I will be calm; I will not rage with the storm. Yes, I am better than that. One day at a time, I tell myself I got this. And I do strength, guidance, and with God.

This storm again will not me down. Strong Black Woman. I Got This!

I survive storms!

Blessings and Love!

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Emptiness 

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I feel empty inside 

Like a hollow shell 

Nothing fills the void 

No joy, no love, no hope 

I wander through the days 

Like a ghost in the crowd 

No one sees me, no one hears me 

No one knows I exist 

I wonder why I’m here 

What is the purpose of my life 

Is there a reason, is there a meaning 

Or am I just wasting time 

I wish I could feel something 

Anything at all 

A spark, a flame, a passion 

To light up my soul 

Damn 

I’m Empty Inside…… 

-Emptiness- 

Blessings and Love 

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