Hurting

Hurting

Have you ever felt unhappy, filled with rage? You just want those who hurt you to hurt also.  You want them to suffer and feel all the pain you feel plus more. Past pain, relationships, anybody. Sometimes I think of revenge, wanting to inflict torture and pain, to see them squirm, see them feel helpless, powerless, weak, lost, and scared. I want them to feel it all. That is how I am feeling at the moment I know some people can relate and some can’t **Shrugs**. Payback.

It is crazy how they are out living there lives, they suffered no consequences, out and free. And me I feel I am still trapped in that time in that pain. Replaying the shit that was done and it still feels like no time has passed. Crazy world I feel this way and must deal with it every day. Yes, I have been trying to forget it all it is hard some days are way harder than other days. I feel this way towards anyone who brought harm my way no matter who it was or is. I want them to feel what I feel sometimes. Venting like I do and sitting and thinking why they got away with it and why am I still suffering.

Am I the only one who feels this way towards a person or towards people who hurt you? Want to get pass it. And no, I do not understand it at all. Still hurting, forever hurting.

My thoughts tonight people. Hope you have a great one. Please feel free to like, comment, and share. Thank you for reading.

Love This song by Saint Bodhi named hurt like me wanted to share the video. Match the mood I am in tonight Again thank you for reading. Again just my thoughts for the night!

Saint Bodhi – Hurt Like Me (Official Video) – YouTube

Pain Pain, Go Away

Pain Pain, Go Away!


Just do not understand, why? why me. The pain that is in my heart

It seems to be too much, The hurt in my voice, the hurt on my face

Please make it stop, I am hurting, I am weak

I cannot take it

My mind, my body and spirit are in pain

Life is dark, and I do not care any longer

Just want the pain to go away

Cannot live like this

Why? why? why?

This damn pain it is too much

Pain pain go away

Thank you for reading.

#JustWrite

***A Poem***

Letting it all out

Letting it out…

My heart and mind are heavy, my heart hurts. I feel broken and I have been trying to remain positive and pray about my life and the feelings I have. I have made post about being positive and taking care of self, but lately nothing is working for me. I feel so empty and lost. Since my mom has passed away it seems that everything in my life, the past has surfaced. I am constantly thinking of the bad, cruel, and all the shitty things that has happened to me since I was a child hate this feeling and I do not know why everything is coming to mind and heart. I try to keep busy, so I do not think about stuff, but no matter what it happens, I’m thinking and sad and crying. Another thing is the nightmares which that right there is scary some things happened to me, and I still have nightmares about it and also nightmares of me seeing my mom’s lifeless body. That is why I have not been sleeping really. I see my mom and her condition before she passed. I was taking care of her while she was in hospice care from home and watching her day-by-day change and watching her body fail and seeing her take her last breath the look on her face and all, that is what I see when I am trying to sleep. It was so hard to see and horrible going through it. It is still hard for me it has been four months and I’m not over it at all. I do not know what to do. Yes, I am not going to lie I am mad, mad at the world, and mad at myself. I have been feeling like I do not want to be here on this earth. Like, why cannot I shake these feelings, I do not like feeling this way, all I do lately is cry, cry, cry, cry. Why is it so hard? I have been too much in my mind and in the past for some weeks now, and it has me all messed up, very emotional.

Damn what is going on with me? For those who has lost someone how do you go on? How to you heal?

It is hard and I feel very lonely and scared ad mainly scared of myself. Again, trying to make it through the days but it seems my life is spiraling. Sigh, what to do? Letting it all out tonight. My feelings, my thoughts sorry to those who feel it is a dark and negative blog entry. I am my true self and I express my true. Just going through a lot and emotional and need to vent. Thank you for reading.

Pain Pain, Go Away

Pain Pain, Go Away!


Just do not understand, why? why me. The pain that is in my heart

It seems to be too much, The hurt in my voice, the hurt on my face

Please make it stop, I am hurting, I am weak

I cannot take it

My mind, my body and spirit are in pain

Life is dark, and I do not care any longer

Just want the pain to go away

Cannot live like this

Why? why? why?

This damn pain it is too much

Pain pain go away

Thank you for reading.

#JustWrite

***A Poem***

Love this Sunday Night!

Sending love to all

Hello everyone, hope you Sunday is going okay. Tonight, I just want to send love to those who are going through stuff, hurting, in pain at the moment. I pray that you are able to heal from the hurts, the pains, all the bad that is going on in your life. I want to let you all know that you are not alone. Today my mom was on my mind heavy and I had to pray about it and take some deep breaths. I know the healing process is not easy, but man it gets so hard on some days. I know the best thing for me to do is pray.

Again, I want to send love, and faith and hope your way and let you know again you are not alone. Wishing you all a great night. Wishing peace, love, happiness, and blessings to you and yours. 🖤💙💚💛🧡❤💜🤎🤍💕💔

Thank you for reading.

Little Girl Lost

Lost Little Girl

Little lost girl

Fighting to find her way

Lost with no direction

Sad eyes, heart hurting, mind racing

Wounds open, flesh

Lost little girl

Thrown to the wolves, the sharks, the bad

The ugly, clowns, death

Raging to get free

Surrounded by the unknown, Dark

Lost little girl

Scared, shocked, afraid

Alone, cold, wondering

Mad, darkness, raged, shaking

Lost in a world, no clue

She is lost, no soul, no nothing

Lost little girl

Can she be found???

Thank You For Reading.

****Just A Poem!!****

Imperfect — Just Write

***Repost***

Good Afternoon everyone!

I love this poem I wrote and had to read it today. I am imperfect!

I shared it and hope you enjoy it. Thank You.

Imperfect! She is perfect in her imperfections She is happy in her pain Strong in her weakness She smiles through the cries She put on her happy face, ready to help others Knows her weakness, and strengths Keeps her head up no matter what She learns from her mistakes She is beautiful in her own […]

Imperfect — Just Write

Oh man…

Ugh this night is not going good. I am emotional and lonely. Wish I had someone to hold me tight right now. Just really want love right now. Mind is going miles. So much inside ugh. No one to talk to about it. I feel hopeless and scared and ALONE. I try not to think about certain stuff but it happens. It happens at weird times and I just cry. This night is bad and tomorrow marks one month since mom passed. Super emotional tonight. Ugh. Help. Oh man..... BREATHE, BREATHE, BREATHE

Hopefully rest will help. Hope you all are having a great night and weekend. Praying for all. Going to pray through these feelings and though times. Sorry for a sad post I'm getting my thoughts out! I have to be strong, I have too. Wishing you all Love, Peace, Happiness, and Blessings! 💙💙🖤🖤

This lonely night.....😧

Thank you for reading.

She is trying!

Shocked….

Shock.....

Been three days and I am still in shock. I feel like I am coming and going. I am lost and hurting right now and I know it will take some time to heal. Such a beautiful person gone so soon. I love you mom and you will be missed. Again I am still shocked and haven't been in the mood to do anything. I just really want to be alone I am taking this hard and wish I could stop thinking so much. Feelings at the moment: Shocked, Lost, Hurt, Sad, Raged, Alone, Depressed, and more. Got to take this one day at a time and I know it will not be easy.

Praying for strength, guidance, understanding, patience wisdom, and healing for me and my family. Praying that things will get better with time. Venting and getting out how I feel right now and writing this took time. My thoughts, My Feelings. Just Write!

I thank you for reading.