Yes, I have had a few surgeries. I have had two C-Sections. I also had my gallstones removed, and there was a stone stuck in my lungs (Scary) so I had to have back-to-back surgery for that. I still have the picture of it (EWE) It happened in 2012 a week after giving birth to my daughter which was my second C-Section. So yes, I was in so much pain and had to be in recovery for weeks. That was the last time I had surgery. Thankfully.
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Are you a person who can easily walk away from challenging situations? Are you a person who can easily forgive? Easily forget the negative.
I am not that person. I worry too much and think about the past way too much. Something I do not like about myself. I am always on edge, and thinking about my past makes it worse, and then anxiety kicks in. Wish it were easy for me to forget stuff, to forgive, and to trust more. Want to easily walk away with no wounds. Wishful thinking huh? Yeah, it is annoying at times, and wish I could just leave the negative shit in the past. I worry too much it is crazy. Again, wish I can easily walk away from all the bad. Worrying a lot is stressful.
Ugh, too much on my mind right now, and I want to get away. Head spinning and mind racing fast. Have you ever had one of those days? Praying for it as always. Just writing to get my thoughts and feelings and vent out. Sometimes I have to whether it is a negative post or not. I just want to be able to forgive and forget. I am me, and right now, I am worrying and having anxiety, I must admit writing does help as it calms me for a moment. Praying for all of those having those bad days. Breathe and pray about it. Have faith.
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Cut Deep
The pain cuts deep, a wound unseen
Lost and hurt, I try to glean
A way forward, to heal and mend
But the ache persists, it does not end
I mourn the loss of what once was
A love that’s gone, now just because
Of things unsaid, or left undone
I wish I could go back, and be someone
Who knew how to love, and how to care
Who could have saved us, from this despair
Now all that’s left, is this elegy
A tribute to what once was, but now must be
Laid to rest, and let go of
The pain and hurt, that once was love
May we find peace, in the memories we keep
And solace in the knowledge, that love runs deep.
While being deep in cuts of pain.
-Cuts Of Pain-
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Want to say Happy Heavenly Birthday to my mom. Even though I am sad and still hurt that she is not here I am going to be strong today. Do my writing like I know she wants me to continue to do. Really wish I can hear her voice but again I am going to make it through this day with happy memories of her. Missing her so much and still praying for healing and strength. I love and miss you, mom. Just Showing love to my mom. And know strength is needed badly. Prayers going up
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Cold like the wind
Heart chilled, cool, cold
Shut off from me, you, the world
Standing still, stiff body, damn cold
Pitch black, where am I, nothing around
Iciness, trembling body, I’m cold
What is going on? Damn, freezing
Am I coming or going?
Maybe So…….
Damn I am cold
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L.I.G.- Let It Go!
That's Right!
Let it all go and heal
Get better not for anyone else, do it for yourself
Let it all go, pain, hurt, rejection, fears let it all go
Breathe.....It will get better with time
Just Breathe..........
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Hello All,
I wrote this a couple years ago. It is one of my favorites!!! Wanted to share again. hope you like and enjoy it.
Lost Little Girl
Little lost girl
Fighting to find her way
Lost with no direction
Sad eyes, heart hurting, mind racing
Wounds open, flesh
Lost little girl
Thrown to the wolves, the sharks, the bad
The ugly, clowns, death
Raging to get free
Surrounded by the unknown, Dark
Lost little girl
Scared, shocked, afraid
Alone, cold, wondering
Mad, darkness, raged, shaking
Lost in a world, no clue
She is lost, no soul, no nothing
Lost little girl
Can she be found???
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****A Poem!!****
Hello to you
The past
Memories good and bad
Along with those tough decisions
The past
Many hopes and dreams
Many setbacks lost dreams
Loveless, trustless from loves that didn’t last
The past
Down and out, that lost feeling
Not feeling yourself, have mixed emotions
Brighter days to come
Faith steps in and it’s time for healing
The past
Unleash all that’s in my bag
Unleash all the bad
Overflowing
They say pain doesn’t last forever
The past makes me think otherwise
The past
Must let go, no longer holding baggage
Started with a hello
Now its ends with
Goodbye to you
The past.
Blessings and Love
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When you are down and out and have lost everything. Lose people or anything that is close to you. Lose your house, car, and job. Losing your sanity. That lost and confused feeling comes. You have to start over. When this happens, you fear the unknown because you feel down and feel like your world is at the end. Your emotions are everywhere. Sometimes panic sets in. You have to take those deep breaths and have faith that in the end, it will work out.
The feeling of starting over. Reset your life and try again. Taking it one step at a time. Through the tears and struggles to get back to your normal self and normal way of life before you lost it all. Get back to a happy place. That feeling of questioning yourself and what’s around you, feeling that you are not worthy because of what you go through. That feeling of being scared and not understanding what’s going on in your life. You keep telling yourself to think positive
Starting over. It is a process and something you will not be able to rush. Starting over can be scary and something you will not want to deal with. The feeling of starting over it is draining. But you can heal and get your joy back. The feeling of knowing that it will be okay and that it’s not the end of the world. You are grateful that things are falling into place. The feeling of having to start all over is no more. Still continue to have faith and move with strength and guidance. Sometimes starting over can be a good thing. Pray and Be thankful no matter what.
Just thinking out loud!
Blessings and Love!
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Rage in my heart, beats like thunder
A tempest raging deep within
My thoughts, a wild and fearsome wonder
A storm that’s set to never end
My anger rises like a fire
A burning flame that knows no end
My soul consumed by its desire
To lash out, to break and bend
Ripping apart my peace
Anger boiling deep within
Grinding teeth and shaking fists
Explosive fury taking over
Blood boiling
Over and over
Damn this rage inside of me…
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