Today I woke up at 4 in the morning screaming and crying out for my mom. Felt scared and lonely. I miss her so much. Wishing I can give her a call I so bad want to hear her voice. I miss her beautiful smile and being around her. Today is so emotional besides missing and thinking about my mom, I am thinking about 9-11 what happened on this day 20 years ago. I still remember where I was at and what I was doing. So, devastating, I remember that was on my mind for months. So much lost and pain that day. It is a day I feel will always be remembered. Again, today has been emotional and I have been trying to do different things to keep my mind off things. It has been hard and as of right now my hear is heavy and all I want to do is drink the pain away. Just a sad day. Maybe try more writing this evening. I don’t know cannot shake this feeling. Venting and feelings out.
Hope you all are doing okay and having a good day. Praying for us all.
Ugh this night is not going good. I am emotional and lonely. Wish I had someone to hold me tight right now. Just really want love right now. Mind is going miles. So much inside ugh. No one to talk to about it. I feel hopeless and scared and ALONE. I try not to think about certain stuff but it happens. It happens at weird times and I just cry. This night is bad and tomorrow marks one month since mom passed. Super emotional tonight. Ugh. Help. Oh man..... BREATHE, BREATHE, BREATHE
Hopefully rest will help. Hope you all are having a great night and weekend. Praying for all. Going to pray through these feelings and though times. Sorry for a sad post I'm getting my thoughts out! I have to be strong, I have too. Wishing you all Love, Peace, Happiness, and Blessings! 💙💙🖤🖤