My lonely Why
Lonely days with nothing but these thoughts, bad ones, negative ones oh man. Sitting in the dark trying to block out everything wondering why. That is what is mostly on my mind all the time, all the bad that has gone on again I ask why? Why me? Lonely nights sitting in the dark with a bottle of liquor in my hands drowning in the liquor trying to drink all the pain away, yes still in the dark its better this way. No reflection of myself and nobody looking this way, good do not want any to see me, just drowning. The past is what brings me here always like why? Why this? Why that? Lonely days and nights turn into darkness, depression, anxiety, pain, despair, and sadness. Lonely with tears in my eyes as I ask myself why. A question to my past. Always lonely and in the dark trying to climb out my own head away from the negative thoughts, climb out my depression, away from my past, away from the madness, and from my lonely why.
Thanks for reading.
Tonight yes, I am focused but feeling a little bit drained. Trying to get so much done tonight. I am editing and doing my book cover tonight. I will probably be up for a while. But that is okay I am chasing my dreams. I say get it done no matter what. Though this writing journey has been hard, wish I could be a full-time writer. Some days I work 10-12 hours and am a full-time mother, and still feel I need to be productive with my passion for writing. Basically, I am struggling to keep a balance. Ugh, well, you know I have to vent a little, lol. I have to say things have been going great for me besides trying to juggle everything. Well, homegirl needs to get back to it. Had to stop by and drop my feelings and thoughts. Just Write Be You!!! Remember SELF-LOVE 🖤💙💛💚💜🧡🤎
Blessings and Love!
Have a good one. Thanks for all the support!
If you love yourself, you love everybody else as you do yourself.
If you love another person less than you, you will not succeed in loving yourself.
If you love alike including you, you will love those as one.
That person is both god and man.
He is a great righteous person who loving himself, he loves all equally
***Just sitting and thinking***
I think love is complicated
Love is hard to get out of you. Can be annoying at times but
Hay love is a challenge
Love, what is it about love
Love is like
Love is easy
Love is hard
Impossible to forget
Tonight, My Saturday
So today was an okay day. I have the weekend to myself, some good ol me time before my kids head back to school. My kids went out of town for the weekend to meet family and have a fun weekend. I had to check my nerves because I was so nervous about them going out of town without me. Anxious and nervous and of course praying. I am going to use this time wisely and pray they are having fun.
So besides that, I have been writing and editing and it was going great for hours then BOOM my mind went blank and I couldn’t think, focus, or write. Just was staring at my notebook for some minutes waiting for something to come to mind. It’s crazy how I was writing and flowing and then can’t focus, can you say annoyed? Guess it is time for a break or be done for the night. Had some writing goals for this weekend and was hoping to get farther than what I did in my book today. Whew let me take a breather do not want to force anything nothing good comes out of that. Maybe I will read a book or find a good movie to watch do not know yet kind of overthinking it and pissed I just got stuck like that after writing for hours today. Try harder tomorrow. Happy writing all
How was your day? What to do for writer’s block? Does that happen to you often? Do you have any writing goals and are they challenging? Yes, many questions tonight from Ms. Overthinker.
Well, that is my Saturday. Have a good one. Love, Peace, Happiness, and Blessings
Thank you for reading.
This Saturday thought:
Do not strangulate your passion
By hiding it from the world try it and go for it and work for it.
Love your passion. Just Write and Be You!!!!
Thank you, Have a good one