Today I have been doing some thinking about my future and was asking myself a few questions about my career and what I need to do to get further in my writing process, and the process after my book is done. One thing I am constantly thinking about is publishing my book. Sometimes I think that I should get a publisher and other times I want to try and self-publish. Also trying to figure out if I want to fully edit myself or hire someone and that goes for the cover for my book too. I know that I should get help with everything but of course I feel like I can do it all. I know one reason could be my trust issues and not trusting that someone else can get the result that I desire. It has been annoying trying to figure it out and I know that in the end, I will do my best to make the right decision. Another thing on my mind is getting out of my shell and trying to open up more. I need to be able to do interviews and speak to others about my work. That will be hard because I have never liked public speaking and am not very good at networking lol and in interviews, I get nervous and don’t want to do it. Seriously need to get out of this. Push me harder and give myself those pep talks. I tell myself that me getting out talking to people and getting my name, brand, and book out there that I must do the work and promote myself and be good at it. No nervousness, shyness, or awkwardness when I do interviews. I need to be confident in myself and my passion, my craft. I tell myself to take those chances, and risks and just do it. I try to hype myself up. I just want my career to be good and one that I can manage and be confident in. If I want more, I have to do the work and do more.
A little venting lol. Thinking out loud. Just thinking about how to change a lot and be great. I know the change will not happen overnight, but I am so ready for it. Ready for something new and that starts with me changing some things.
Have you ever felt like this? Scared to fully put yourself or your projects out in the world? Are you scared to take risks or scared of change? What do you think?
Do you have a place inside your mind that you escape to when so much is going on when you are stressed, a place you just want to be alone? A place you wish you can go to for real it can be any place you want it to be whether it is to a family or friend’s house, a library, a park, a different country, or state, wherever you want it to be, and be peaceful. Or is there a show or movie, or a game that helps keep your mind off the stresses of life?
That place for me inside my mind is a place that is calm and has great scenery like a waterfall, an aquarium, or the ocean where I can watch what happens underwater, the beauty of it all, and love the color of the ocean and watching the water. It brings me peace and I am also interested in learning about the several types of fish and other sea creatures. Watching it and learning at the same time is my escape. That is why I like watching tv shows based on the ocean and animal life. I have noticed that when I am watching those shows I get lost in them at that moment my mind is focused on learning new things, and it is fascinating. I also want to visit places with waterfalls they are so beautiful, and a scene one can get lost in. waterfalls are cool and I would love to visit some and take a lot of pictures of them.
When I am going through a lot it is music sometimes and other times it is my mind watching the ocean and thinking peaceful thoughts or thinking of animals in the sea. Might be weird to others but that is my escape. What is yours? Where does your mind take you? What place would you want to visit that has great scenery? Have you felt like you wanted to escape life?
I think some people need those places in their head/mind to make it through their day. Do you agree with that?
So, it is a writing and editing night and I already had a migraine when I started but wanted to get some work done, and this editing is making it worse LOL. Editing can be a pain sometimes, but it must be done. I feel like pulling out my hair. Yeah, time for bed was going to do some poetry tonight but I am too tired and a little emotional, so I am going to call it a night take a nice hot shower and hopefully find a good movie and hit the bed. Glad that I did get some stuff done and out the way and will continue tomorrow and hopefully I am in a better mood.
Still have a goal that I must reach for writing and I am on it. This night is not going to keep me down. I hate having migraines they seem to take over and it is annoying. Hope yall day was good and hope you have a good night. Keep working on your goals and dreams and have faith.
Never say what you can not do. Never say your dreams can not come true.
Train yourself, train your mind to know and understand that you can do anything you set your mind to. Work hard and have faith. Take the necessary steps that are needed to fulfill your wants in life and pursue your dreams. Yes, sometimes it can be scary putting yourself out there and taking risks, but if you do not do that then you will never know what could have happened. You must believe in yourself, believe in the process because getting to your dreams may not be an easy road. Have people who love you and who are there to help and support you and you do the same for them. Having support is important whether it is for personal or business it’s great to have a loving person around. Put the work in and work hard for what is yours. You are the one who holds the key to your success. I have in the past got in my own m way and had to learn to trust and have believe in myself, build me up. I have also learned that stuff does not happen overnight you have to have patience. Motivated is another part of wanting your dream to be motivated every day and ready to make it happen, be dedicated. If you are not motivated to do this it will not work out. Practice your craft, over and over if need be feeling it, breathing it, and claiming it. Prove it to yourself first then the world. Live your life live your dream. You can do it. Always believe in your dream always believe in yourself.