It is confession time and yes, I am sharing this and honestly, I don’t know if I should be embarrassed about this or not lol. Share and Confess
So, I am 36 years old, and next August, I will be the big 37, and guess what? I still do not know how to drive. Yeah, crazy, right. I have a fear of driving and also being in cars, traffic period. My sister recently asked me why and what the problem is she feels me not driving is an issue. And honestly, it is kind of is I do have 2 kids and have to get around more easily. To get around, I take buses and Lyfts/cabs, and even in those, I am scared. She says that I am putting my life in others’ hands instead of driving myself. I feel even if you drive yourself, you are still in others’ hands because you do not know how a person will be on the road. The fear started when I was a teenager, I had gotten into a couple of wrecks, and since then, I had just been scared. I have tried only twice. The first time, I was 26 years old and drove around the block twice and was like I am done. And the second time, it was just down the street, and I stopped myself and didn’t want to finish. Want to get over this fear and take those steps to learn how to drive and be confident in it. Try to tell myself to just do it but it is not easy for me. I probably get made fun of it due to my age and not being able to get anywhere I want. My kids even tell me I need to drive. It is so frustrating having this fear and I don’t know what to do about it. Want to be able to drive so I can take my kids places without paying extra for cabs and waiting for them. I am going to do some research on how I can calm myself and my mind and not think negatively when it comes to driving and cars. I kind of hate that it is this way and constantly question myself on why not just try. Why not get in a car and freaking drive ugghh? I annoy myself, I tell you lol.
I wanted to write this because lately, with a new year coming up, it has been on my mind. I would love to be able to move around more freely and want to get it done, stop being scared and a baby about it. Maybe I should take a driving class or some type of therapy. I don’t know. I must figure it out seriously. HELP!
Is anybody else struggling to face their fears? Care to share those fears? Any tips for me?
I am learning to think and be more positive and patient. I used to think that if I had an idea and started working on it, things would happen fast or, as some will say, overnight. I must take my time with things to ensure they are done right. I am not rushing it, but my patience is not good. Lol, I get so anxious and then get angry. Instead of understanding that some things take time, patience is a virtue.
I am glad that I grew up and now fully understand how patience and understanding can go a long way. The same goes for being positive. At times, I used to think the worst instead of having faith that the situation would work out. To make it in life, you must grow and learn as you age.
I say I am making progress by taking the necessary steps to learn new things and, at the same time, learning more about myself. I am so proud of myself that I have come a long way. Though still an overthinker, I am working on that next. One step at a time. One day at a time. You can overcome your past and certain situations. Think positive, have faith, and have patience.
I am just thinking aloud, thinking about how I used to be compared to now. I love the results and am happy to share even though I am kind of rambling, lol. Progress and I am still learning and growing. Love to all who support.
Tonight, yes, I am focused but feeling a little bit drained. Trying to get so much done tonight. I am editing and doing my book cover tonight. I will probably be up for a while. But that is okay. I am chasing my dreams. I say get it done no matter what. Though this writing journey has been hard, I wish to be a full-time writer. Some days, I work 10-12 hours and am a full-time mother, and I still feel I need to be productive with my passion for writing. Basically, I am struggling to keep a balance. Ugh, well, you know I have to vent a little, lol. Besides trying to juggle everything, I have to say things have been going great for me. Well, homegirl needs to get back to it. Had to stop by and drop my feelings and thoughts. Just Write Be You!!! Remember SELF-LOVE 🖤💙💛💚💜🧡🤎