Control

Control

When you think of control what does it mean to you?

Control to me is having a say over any and everything. Have to be up close and have a hand in everything that is going on around you. Including control over people.

Man, man, man I hate when things are out of my control. I am a Leo and yes sometimes I am bossy and must control everything around me. When something is out of my control, I feel lost, nervous, my body shakes I feel anxious and I get easily irritated. Anybody else like that? I be a nervous wreck and constantly questioning everything. Then I am overthinking and worrying, crazy huh?

Some people say to me that its ok to let go of having control over everything and relax. It is hard to do that thought. I have been thinking about it lately and maybe I should let go a little, take it one day at a time, relax, do not go overboard, and try to run people lives. I mean how hard can it be? Where do I start? Are there any other control freaks out there? Help lol

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Temptation

So it’s here

Right in front of me

The sensation I crave, I need

Damn temptation

Pacing, heavy breathing

I need it. I’ll be okay

Right?

Damn temptation

Following me

Screaming at me

Pulling me

That direction

Temptation

I’m quiet

Deep thinking

Still pacing

Just tonight, I say

Damn temptation

No, no no

I am not thinking straight

Shake the feeling, I say

Temptation

Walk away, get out of there

Fast

Damn temptation

So, it is here

Right in front of me

The sensations I want

Or do I?

Damn temptation

Strength says take

Deep breaths

The feeling would pass

Again, deep thinking

Damn temptation

Will I become a victim?

To temptation from a person, place, or thing…..

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Defender

I am a defender

A defender to me

I protect me, myself, and I

Defender

Fighting those who

Threatens me

Defender

On guard of course

Protective gear

I am a defender

A defender to me, to my family

Watch closely

Listen and I am alert

Fighting anything that comes close

Defender

Everything on lock

No one gets through

Nope

Defender

Stand tall

Confident

Strong

I am a defender

A defender of

ME…

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The Past

Hello to you

The past

Memories good and bad

Along with those tough decisions

The past

Many hopes and dreams

Many setbacks lost dreams

Loveless, trustless from loves that didn’t last

The past

Down and out, that lost feeling

Not feeling yourself, have mixed emotions

Brighter days to come

Faith steps in and it’s time for healing

The past

Unleash all that’s in my bag

Unleash all the bad

Overflowing

They say pain doesn’t last forever

The past makes me think otherwise

The past

Must let go, no longer holding baggage

Started with a hello

Now its ends with

Goodbye to you

The past.

Blessings and Love

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Too Good to be TRUE..

Too good to be true…

So tonight, I am sitting and thinking. And of course, this damn dude is on my mind. Like what the fuck, why? My emotions are everywhere and yes, I am a little tipsy and besides what I am dealing with I am thinking of him. Again why? Oh, my yall I am irritating my damn self at the moment. Cannot help but to think is this real? Does he really feel the same way I do, shit does he really like me? Here I go feeling young-minded and questioning myself and the situation instead of letting it all go and that is not good. Just feel confused and out of it, maybe I should just walk away and forget it all thought it was what I wanted but I do not know now. I have mixed emotions and we are both dealing with things. That is why I do not like putting my feelings out there I feel dumb and used it to benefit them talk and texting on their time. Thinking yeah it is too good to be true. Just wish I could find realness, real love besides what I can offer. Ugh it's

too good to be true and I am pissed off. I really need a friend and love I feel dumb and stupid and I am thinking why me why I cannot get what I give. Venting, thinking, and letting it all out, I am rambling, ugh irritated though.

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Strong

Strong

I am strong it is all in my walk

I am strong it is all in my talk

I am strong head held high

I am strong and confident

I am strong during the good

I am strong during the bad

I am strong: Self-assured, thoughtful, realistic, one of a kind, never failing and grateful

I am strong!

S- Self Assured

T- Thoughtful

R- Realistic

O- One of a kind

N- Never Failing

G- Grateful

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