Gratitude

Gratitude

I have been thinking about starting a gratitude journal it has been heavily on my mind lately. I heard that keeping a gratitude journal is a good idea and it helps with a lot. I do not know where to start but I will try it and see how it goes. I already write so that helps. I am looking for more ways to stay positive these days and someone said I should start with a gratitude journal. I have added it to my month of February goals, and I am ready and dedicated to it. I am sure it is not that hard, got to start somewhere, somehow. Hopefully, it is something I love and will continue it.

Gratitude is the quality of being thankful, readiness to show appreciation for and to return kindness.

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February!

February!

Hello everyone! Welcome to February. How was your month of January? if you follow me then you know mine has been not too good. Looking and hoping to change that this month. Praying for guidance, understanding, patience, love, and happiness. I hope your month of February brings you love, healing, happiness, guidance, and blessings. I hope that this month is better than the last. I am keeping faith and hope and keeping my head held high. Things are hectic at the moment, but I stay prayed up! Oh, a good thing is my son turns eleven this month YAYYYYY!!! February 2021 is here. What do you have planned this month? Any new goals for the month?

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Big World

Big World

Such a big world

Yet I feel so small

Finding a place to fit in

Feeling like I do not belong

Such a big world

Great possibilities, A great future

Yet too scared to take that leap

Maybe I can make it, maybe I can’t

Such a big world

Nice and friendly people, Love all around

Or so you think, there are crooks out there

Such a big world

However, a world I am scared to seek

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Whew. These last couple days….

Whew…..

Have you ever felt like you wanted to take someone’s pain away? You wish you can do more for them? That is my feelings lately. at the moment I feel helpless and I can not make the situation better. There is nothing I can do and speechless. I am praying that it gets better. I do not like feeling this way, I am not in control. Besides feeling helpless I feel lost and confused also do not know what to do. I haven’t’ really been eating or sleeping the last couple days just be up pacing and thinking since I got bad news. Heart is heavy and I have vent about it. It is too much going on right now. Praying and more praying, having faith. Lord give me strength and heal my family. My thoughts, my feelings letting it out. I thank you for reading.

Whew. Woww. BREATHE

Trapped

Trapped

I feel like I am trapped inside a nightmare

My heart is racing like crazy, thoughts swirling in my head

I am trapped

I feel like I can not move something is

Keeping me still, blank stare, tuning everything out

I am trapped

Pleading that someone wake me up

I am feeling trapped I cannot speak

Again, blank stare, wanting to say something

But cannot mouth will not move, shut closed tight

I am trapped

Feeling dizzy, full of anxiety

What the hell is going on?

I am trapped looking for a way to escape

Trapped all the way around in my mind life

I am trapped

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I Smile II

I Smile II

I smile to keep from crying

Even when too, much is going on around me

I smile to hide my true self from people

I smile it is better than a wet and sad face

I smile pretending, do not want anyone to know

I smile to try to get through the day

I smile while wanting to get away

And with all that and more

I smile!

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Not really a smile, Kisses!