Today I have been doing some thinking about my future and was asking myself a few questions about my career and what I need to do to get further in my writing process, and the process after my book is done. One thing I am constantly thinking about is publishing my book. Sometimes I think that I should get a publisher and other times I want to try and self-publish. Also trying to figure out if I want to fully edit myself or hire someone and that goes for the cover for my book too. I know that I should get help with everything but of course I feel like I can do it all. I know one reason could be my trust issues and not trusting that someone else can get the result that I desire. It has been annoying trying to figure it out and I know that in the end, I will do my best to make the right decision. Another thing on my mind is getting out of my shell and trying to open up more. I need to be able to do interviews and speak to others about my work. That will be hard because I have never liked public speaking and am not very good at networking lol and in interviews, I get nervous and don’t want to do it. Seriously need to get out of this. Push me harder and give myself those pep talks. I tell myself that me getting out talking to people and getting my name, brand, and book out there that I must do the work and promote myself and be good at it. No nervousness, shyness, or awkwardness when I do interviews. I need to be confident in myself and my passion, my craft. I tell myself to take those chances, and risks and just do it. I try to hype myself up. I just want my career to be good and one that I can manage and be confident in. If I want more, I have to do the work and do more.
A little venting lol. Thinking out loud. Just thinking about how to change a lot and be great. I know the change will not happen overnight, but I am so ready for it. Ready for something new and that starts with me changing some things.
Have you ever felt like this? Scared to fully put yourself or your projects out in the world? Are you scared to take risks or scared of change? What do you think?
Have a good one. Blessings and Love.
Thank you for reading.