This is a good question. Though I was uncertain about writing and sharing this, I decided to just do it. So here goes. I feel like this is also a confession post. 

So, about 17/18 years ago when I was 18 and 19 years old, I felt that I was in the wrong body. I felt like I was not myself and didn’t like that feeling at all. I then started to think about transitioning into a man. Yes, I was thinking about being a transgender male. When I was a teenager, my mom would have a fit about me wanting to shop in the boys’ section. My brothers would be mad at me for stealing their clothes, lol. Seriously, boxers, jeans, etc. 

When I say this was on my mind constantly, it was. I was always doing research about it at the time. Looking up different surgeries to have and what types of hormone pills I would have to take. I also was looking into therapy about the whole thing. Of course, the cost of it all. 

I think about this a lot now days because it was something that I strongly wanted to do. There was fear in place at the time, thinking of the negatives about the matter and what my family would think. I think about the what-ifs of the matter if I would have gone through with it. 

Sometimes, I still feel like I am in the wrong body and wish I had gone through with it. Now, I just accept that I didn’t and try to be okay with my decision, though I really am not. 

Well, that is something people do not know about me…..Confessions lol 

I had to get that off my chest. It has really been on my mind lately like crazy. Questioning myself like should I have done it or not? Well, that’s it. Have a good one! 

Of course, a little vent session with a great writing prompt. 

Do you have any regrets? What is something most people don’t know about you? Care to share? 

Blessings and Love! 

Thank you for reading. 

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