Just sitting here thinking about the old me. Well back when things were great, and I was happy. I am feeling nostalgic right now. Memories are flooding me. Just thinking and asking myself how I get back there, to my happy self. I feel like I am trying but I am not there yet.  

Constantly questioning what am I doing right and what am I doing wrong. Thinking of ways to fix me, I feel like a burden to those around me due to my unhappiness, and feeling down, depressed, and constantly shutting down. I try to hide it and not mention how I am really feeling. But indeed, I am trying to figure it out. I do not know what is going on with me, I pray I get out of this, I pray I get back to the real me. 

I want to feel alive again. Just be free and me. Happy and at peace. 

Has anyone else felt like this? Do you sometimes feel out of place? Like you do not belong because you are different?  

I do not know I am rambling and of course thinking aloud. Maybe Ray’Elaine is in her feelings. 

 I am still working on me. Always a work in progress. Always room for improvement. 

-Sigh- I need me again! Real Shit! 

Blessings and Love! 

Thank you for.