Monthly Archives: August 2021

Drunken Me

Drunken me

Shot after shot, I feel the numbness take over my body, I want more, need to feel empty inside.

Feel free, free from those who lied, used, and abused me, free from pain, free from the world

Take another shot, it is all good

Feel the sensation, feel the burn

They all do not matter, drink the damn pain away

Take another shot, damn I feel it, I am slipping

But I do not give a damn

Give me more, few more shots taken, mind gone

Laid back not feeling shit, I feel numb, empty it is what I want

Free from it all or is it just a drunken daze

Do I want to stop? Do I need more?

Whispers…Whispers…. Drink it all away

Its okay be gone for the night

And another one…….

Thank you for reading

#JustWrite *Just A Poem*

**Updated: 8/19/2021**

Pressure

Pressure

When you feel the weight of the world, of life.

Pressure

Trying to make everyone around you happy.

Pressure

Trying to make yourself happy.

Pressure

Having those bad days, struggling

Pressure

The drama and let downs.

To be perfect

Pressure

Dealing with people who are toxic to you.

Pressure

Heaviness

Too much weight

It is all around.

Damn the pressure.

Thank you for reading.

#Pressure #Poetry #JustWrite

Imperfect

Imperfect!

She is perfect in her imperfections

She is happy in her pain

Strong in her weakness

She smiles through the cries

She put on her happy face, ready to help others

Knows her weakness, and strengths

Keeps her head up no matter what

She learns from her mistakes

She is beautiful in her own way because she is herself

Yes she is perfect in her imperfections!

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Have you ever felt this way?

Have you felt this way?

Cannot get this man off my mind, damn every day I think of him. His looks, his smile, his voice, and his damn personality. We are a match. We have great chemistry, I can have a good conversation with him, he makes me laugh, and we also can be serious too. It is just something about him. I avoid talking to him because I have strong feelings and do not know how to show it or how to tell him (my scared ass, LOL). I am so guarded and been hurt too many damn times. But for real, I just do not know what to do. Then I worry about if he feels the same way. I do not want to put my feelings out there and he do not feel the same way I do. And that will constantly bother me. What if he does not respond or never talk to me again. I probably sound crazy, but it is how I am feeling and can not shake it. Right now, I want him next to me, us talking and vibing, I want his touch, his eyes on me. Then again, I do not want to look stupid and get hurt. My emotions are everywhere tonight, and I am dinking a little and it is making it worse. Maybe it is bedtime for me because my mind is going miles and I am so over this, maybe because I know the truth. 

I guess it is what it is. Just my thoughts and feelings tonight. I really want him, like seriously, whatever.

Thank you for reading.

**More from Ray’Elaine**

Self-Love

Self-Love

Self-love is loving yourself within

You are content with who you were, who you are, and who you will become

Selflove is being there for yourself and taking care of yourself

Making sure you have what you need and want, go for it

Selflove is knowing your worth, knowing your strength, your weakness

You will not settle for less, at all

Self-love is being at your best, being your best self, happy

You look great and you feel fantastic

You are ready to take on the world

Self-love is powerful, strong, caring, independent, worthy

Self-love is loving the skin you are in, beautiful

Self-love begins with self, with You, cherish yourself, love yourself

Thank you for reading!

*Remember to love yourself through it all!*

#JustWrite

Relationships!!!

Relationship Talk! #JustWrite

I am Not an expert. Just my feelings

Hay people I want to talk about two of the biggest things in a relationship that I have to have. Number one is communication; this is a big deal for me especially going foreword with my life. I want a person I can be able to talk to and after talking have a clear understanding on whatever that was discussed. Communication is big in a relationship, it is good if you and your partner can communicate very well, when I say this I mean about any and everything. You and your partner can sit and talk and express how you feel. Communication was one of the reasons my last relationship of 11 years did not work out. I got tired of repeating myself and trying to express what was on my mind the other person never wanted to talk or want to hear me and it was so stressful and irritating. You should be able to talk to the one you love and hope that they understand you. Listen to each other and have each other’s back.

Number two is trust which is a must. I know some will understand me on this. In a relationship you must trust your partner and believe in them. I do not see how you can have a relationship without trust and that is for any relationship type. You must trust a person with your heart, with your feelings, judgement, skills, and financial situations, and wat they tell you. You must trust that between the two it will work out putting your all into someone that you feel have your best interest at heart and that is a big thing to trust. It is not easy. Not talking about just cheating everything above and trusting that they can do the basic responsibilities in life. Can that person keep they word? Can they be who they say they are?. So much to consider and again it is hard especially when meeting a new person.  If you have relationships based on lies it will not work, you must have foundation built on love, trust, communication, understanding, strength, faith and patience. Yes, it can be hard finding this but have faith. You have to work at it, relationships are hard work. I pray everyone find love, have faith and love with your all. What do you need in a relationship? What is a deal breaker for you? #JustWrite.

Thanks for reading. Please share your thoughts.

updated 8*13*2021

Understanding it

This is a post I wrote a while ago and wanted to share it again!

Hope you like it.

Understanding things helps. Understand it and make good decisions

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Understanding It

To those who needs these words:

Give yourself time to understand and deal with a situation do not give up hope. We often lose hope and some people often give up. Please do not, see your worth and move forward. Have the courage to break through the pain, push through. You have to do it for yourself. You can do it be strong. Try to understand what’s going with you get to the real issues and fix it I been through it, so I know it’s hard, damn hard, but with faith and good and loving support around you it will get better. For anyone going through tough times and darkness and depression please get help, you are not alone.

Wishing the best, Prayers and love to those in need and do not forget to love those around you and of course yourself. Love and Happiness Love…

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