All posts by Ray'Elaine

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About Ray'Elaine

I am a author I love to write/blog and be myself. I have so many great ideas can't wait to share!

Tomorrow

Holiday

Wow I cannot believe that tomorrow is Christmas. To me it just does not seem like it is the holidays. Just seems like another day. Maybe because so much is going on in the world that it can be hard to get in the Christmas spirit, hard to focus or be happy. I am just sitting here thinking of memories from when I was a kid and me and my siblings could not wait till Christmas. We used to stay up all night days before Christmas and talk about what we think our gifts were. There were some nights were we just stared at the tree and was overly excited ready for Christmas day. I miss the old days and how things used to be. Since I got older it has never been the same. Does anybody else feel like this? Again, I am sitting here going down memory lane and thinking heavy. On the other hand, I cannot wait to see my kids faces light up when they open their gifts. I am trying to get in the spirit. Are you ready for Christmas? How are you dealing with everything?

Thank you for reading.

#Christmas #JustWrite

Rage II

Poems, Short Stories

Rage II

This fire, this hurt, this pain, sadness built up

I just want to let it out

My body, my mind wants bloody revenge

Rage inside and I do not care who I hurt, do not care of the outcome

Rage roaring if you are in my view, tears will be cried, blood will be shed

Rage causing me to lose focus, I cannot see, its darkness

Rage want me to react

Rage got me drowning, drinking constantly

Rage inside of me ready to burst

Flames everywhere

Hurt, pain everywhere

Rage rage rage as it continues to build

Damn rage inside of me

Thank you reading.

#JustWrite #Poetry #Rage

Ray’Elaine

I Am Enough

Poems, ,

I Am Enough

I look in the mirror and I know that

I am enough

Strong, beautiful

Independent and vibrant

I am enough

Smart, amazing, fabulous, creative, and funny

No one can hold me down

I am enough

Even if you do not agree, even if you do not like me

I am enough

Standing tall, confident in me

I am me the lover, the fighter, the go getter, all business, the Queen

I am enough

I look in the mirror and know the person starring back is strong and she is enough

Ray’Elaine

Thank you for reading!

#JustWrite #SelfLove #Love #IAmEnough

This feeling again, UGH

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This feeling again, damn maybe I just need to talk to this man and let my feeling be known. another damn night I am spending with him on my mind. It has been like this for days and do not know why. This man probably does not even think about me or care about me but here my stupid self is just in my feelings about him. Sometimes I think I should pickup the phone and call him to hear his voice, I really want him beside me, but oh well. Wish I can get him off my mind, like seriously. Thinking out loud and very emotional, man getting attached and getting your feelings involved sucks. Yes, I hate that I feel this way I feel like I cannot focus I just see him, I can not help it. I just wanted to let this out and I need to learn to keep my feelings in check. Damn, damn, damn this man, I think I am in love (OH MY). I am rambling, need help. What should I do?

Ugh this damn feeling again. Thank you for reading

#JustWrite #Love

In Your Arms!

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In Your Arms!

Your arms

Baby we are one

Laying in your arms is life

Laying in your arms without a care in the world

No one else matters, it is just us baby

Being with you makes my heart smile

Makes me feel hopeful, joyful, and happy

Laying in your arms starring in your eyes

I see love, our dreams, our world

Baby we are one

Our souls together forever, we got each other

Laying in your arms is all I want

I love being with you

Laying in your arms, I am me, my fullself

My love, my heart, my soul, my mind is

Forever in your arms!

Thank You For Reading.

Christmas Shopping!

Holiday

Christmas Shopping!

Hi, So I am doing some Christmas shopping and I thought I had it figured out but nope I do not lol. I thought I would find everything I need from decorations, food, and toys clothing, accessories and more . Some stores do not really have anything even when looking online. Does anyone have this same problem now? I think I should have started way early then I did. So now I am redoing some of my list and hopefully I can get the person something they like. That is the hard part about shopping for me, sometimes I feel I must get exactly what they want. Even though it is the thought that counts some people do not see it that way, so I try to get the things they want. I know other people would not care as long as they got a gift. Anyways I am ranting about to continue to look online and shop more and hopefully things will come together and I find what I want. Thanks for reading! #My thoughts #JUSTWRITE

Good Day/Night

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Today was a great day, I got some daily goals done. Did a little writing and played on my PS4 for a while. Now I am tired and it is bedtime. Just want to send love to everyone and hope your day was good and hope you have a good night. Short Post it’s all love! Remember to love yourself always and those around you. Goodnight. Thanks for reading. LOVE LOVE LOVE #LOVE

Walking Away!

Poems, Short Stories, Uncategorized,

Walking Away...

Walking away, this ish, man why is it hard to do. Even when you know you should, you know it is for the best. You know that you have tried your best. You took them back over and over no matter what. You constantly forgave them, even though you were hurting. You disregarded your feelings to make or keep them happy and for what? To get hurt, to be always crying. You see with your own damn eyes that nothing is getting better, it is a damn cycle that you are going through and yet it is still hard to walk away. When those around you also fee like the two of you should not be together, you do not hear them you still try. Even when that person shows you the real them, that they are all about self, they do not care at all. They do not want to change. Walking away is hard, and then you start to think about the few good times the two of you had, and you think maybe there is hope. In the back of your mind, you know you need to end it. Walking away can be a struggle people love hard and do not like to let go. Also feeling like you would never find a person to love you the right way, you stay and continue to deal with the drama it brings. That damn walking away takes time, it can be easy sometimes not texting or calling, and then there are times when you want that person near you. You want their touch, smell, their voice ugh its annoying. Walking away is necessary sometimes though there is no use in dragging on a relationship or situation, and that goes for anybody family relationship, romantic relationships, and friendships. Walking away from anybody or anything that you love or loved will always be a challenge. Man it is so hard.

Can you deal with it? How? Thank you for reading, please feel free to leave feedback.

You got it. If you need to Do it!

#JustWrite