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Damn Tears…

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Damn Tears…

Sometimes these tears come when I am happy, content

But mostly when I am hurt and sad

Damn that’s often, damn tears

I often wonder why, why I shed so many tears, not the only one. Damn

Tears at night when I sleep

Tears of the past, just thinking about it, why can’t I get over it?

Tears when I am alone, pain too much to deal with

Damn tears

These tears I try not to have…. hold it in

But damn they keep coming

Tears to make it all go away

Tears to make it clear

Damn. Why these tears?

Tears in the night when nobody is there

Because, in this world, this reality, who really cares about my damn tears?

Damn, Damn, Damn Tears…..

Thank you for reading!

#Cries

Just A Poem!

Updated*3/28/2021

Memories

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Memories

Memories the good and the bad. Mostly the good ones though, just sitting here thinking. I am thinking of the good moments and memories me, my kids, and my mom has shared. It has been 23 days since my mom has passed and it seems unreal still. I sometimes still grab my phone ready to call her. This is so hard. Now all I have left is the great memories of her. She always had a beautiful smile on her face. These memories I will hold onto forever. Thinking of the good times sometimes helps when I am down. I love all our great memories and missing you mom. My mom My lil GLO, my Gloria your memory lives on. I will always have you in my heart.

Let it all out. Hope you all are having a better night.

Thank you for reading. Love, Peace, Happiness, and Blessings

Rainy Days

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Rainy Day

Just sitting here watching the rain fall and thinking

This rainy day has got me in my feelings

Watching the rain and trying to figure out why

Looking and hearing the rain trying to hide and hold back the tears

This rainy day gloomy and dark out matching the mood I am in plus I am mad and raged

Rainy day makes me want to stay in bed, I feel lazy

Trap myself inside and hide from it all

Rainy days sometimes I need a glass of wine or five

Rainy days it is hard but, on these days, I try to see the sunshine, keep calm

Rainy days has me down but not for long, this will past

Rainy days full of teary moments and sadness

Maybe I should keep a smile on my face no matter what on these

Rainy Days!!

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Shocked….

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Shock.....

Been three days and I am still in shock. I feel like I am coming and going. I am lost and hurting right now and I know it will take some time to heal. Such a beautiful person gone so soon. I love you mom and you will be missed. Again I am still shocked and haven't been in the mood to do anything. I just really want to be alone I am taking this hard and wish I could stop thinking so much. Feelings at the moment: Shocked, Lost, Hurt, Sad, Raged, Alone, Depressed, and more. Got to take this one day at a time and I know it will not be easy.

Praying for strength, guidance, understanding, patience wisdom, and healing for me and my family. Praying that things will get better with time. Venting and getting out how I feel right now and writing this took time. My thoughts, My Feelings. Just Write!

I thank you for reading.

Numb…

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At this point I feel helpless, hopeless, soul less. Feel numb to it all my days and nights are a blur. I am constantly pacing and can not focus. Music helps a little. Heart is steadily racing and thinking the worst. It is really bad cause I don’t have anyone to talk to and I have to put on a happy face through all the pain I’m going through. Damn this feeling I freaking hate it. Emotions are up and down, feel like I am losing it. Only way I feel a little calm is when I am writing and the last couple days that has been hard to do. Knowing that you are losing someone is a lot to deal with and I am not taking it well at all, on top of the daily struggles and taking care of a family. Anxiety been at a high just craziness. Ugh calm down and breathe. Sorry people it’s how I feel right now got to let it out, forever venting, my feelings, my thoughts, my life. Just Write about it. Thank you for reading.

Overwhelmed😫

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Overwhelmed...

This is so true but very hard to do. Anyone else?

and being very overwhelmed by it. Annoying

Are you someone who smiles through it all even though you are so stressed out with everything around you. You feel like it is too much to handle. Not going to lie I AM. Ugh again ANNOYING

Breathe....

Being overwhelmed feels like ton of pressure (well to me) on you. And I get crazy anxiety so I really be feeling all types of ways. Man it freaking sucks. But we got this. Right?

Yeah we do.

Breathe....

Just a lot of thinking this Early Morning..... I feel overwhelmed now and should go to bed. Wanted to share some quotes and how I feel about being overwhelmed. Thank you!!!