I am learning to think and be more positive and patient. I used to think that if I had an idea and started working on it, things would happen fast or, as some will say, overnight. I must take my time with things to ensure they are done right. I am not rushing it, but my patience is not good. Lol, I get so anxious and then get angry. Instead of understanding that some things take time, patience is a virtue.
I am glad that I grew up and now fully understand how patience and understanding can go a long way. The same goes for being positive. At times, I used to think the worst instead of having faith that the situation would work out. To make it in life, you must grow and learn as you age.
I say I am making progress by taking the necessary steps to learn new things and, at the same time, learning more about myself. I am so proud of myself that I have come a long way. Though still an overthinker, I am working on that next. One step at a time. One day at a time. You can overcome your past and certain situations. Think positive, have faith, and have patience.
I am just thinking aloud, thinking about how I used to be compared to now. I love the results and am happy to share even though I am kind of rambling, lol. Progress and I am still learning and growing. Love to all who support.
Okay so everything was fine, and I am writing and then my mom pops up in my head. Oh man that just made me pause and just start balling. Hate this feeling and now feeling a little down. Why does this happen? Now I am going to pray then turn on some music and hopefully stop feeling this way.
UGh shake it off I’m saying to myself. Maybe I need to go to bed. Put the notebooks and pens up and rest. Maybe she is telling me something I don’t know. Whatever music and a shot of something strong, a joint, shower and the damn bed. Just want to feel numb and not think for a while. Crazy months ago, thought I would be done drinking but here I am tonight with all these damn emotions, and a damn drink in hand (SMH). And it is really past my bedtime lol have to be up at 5am (Got To Work! YAY!) plus I have a migraine on top of all this.
Whew! Just venting and a little freaked out. It’s like I am feeling her. Again, have to shake it off….. Get it together. Oh Man, WTF- My feelings tonight.
I Love and miss you mom. R.I.P.
Hope you all night is good! Have a good one.
Blessings and Love!
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