This Day….

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This Day..Trying

Today I woke up at 4 in the morning screaming and crying out for my mom. Felt scared and lonely. I miss her so much. Wishing I can give her a call I so bad want to hear her voice. I miss her beautiful smile and being around her. Today is so emotional besides missing and thinking about my mom, I am thinking about 9-11 what happened on this day 20 years ago. I still remember where I was at and what I was doing. So, devastating, I remember that was on my mind for months. So much lost and pain that day. It is a day I feel will always be remembered. Again, today has been emotional and I have been trying to do different things to keep my mind off things. It has been hard and as of right now my hear is heavy and all I want to do is drink the pain away. Just a sad day. Maybe try more writing this evening. I don’t know cannot shake this feeling. Venting and feelings out.

Hope you all are doing okay and having a good day. Praying for us all.

Love, Peace, Happiness, and Blessings

Thank you for reading.

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Letting it all out

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Sharing Again. Let it Out

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Letting it out…

My heart and mind are heavy, my heart hurts. I feel broken and I have been trying to remain positive and pray about my life and the feelings I have. I have made post about being positive and taking care of self, but lately nothing is working for me. I feel so empty and lost. Since my mom has passed away it seems that everything in my life, the past has surfaced. I am constantly thinking of the bad, cruel, and all the shitty things that has happened to me since I was a child hate this feeling and I do not know why everything is coming to mind and heart. I try to keep busy, so I do not think about stuff, but no matter what it happens, I’m thinking and sad and crying. Another thing is the nightmares which that right there is scary some…

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Nerves

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Nerves lol

Chaotic day and stressed day for me well not really lol it is all in my freaking head. I say stressed because my feelings and emotions have been everywhere having damn anxiety all day. I know the reason is me missing and worrying about my kids. Panic and full of nerves. I stated in a previous post that the weekend was my kids first time going out of town without me even though they are with their father, and I trust him my nerves are still bad.  Also, they were supposed to be back today but had car trouble and crazy I know because I had got pissed about it knowing that these things can sometimes happen. Need a damn drink or 3 lol I know they are doing okay and having fun I have been talking to them since they left. Why am I like this? I annoy myself by worrying all the time. Feel out of control and that can be why anxiety is in play. My kids seem like they are enjoying themselves and seem like they don’t even miss me lol.

I know its just me with my trust and control issues. Seriously need to calm down, maybe a joint or a drink will do and of course writing, get my mind off it all. A little venting tonight about nothing really lol. Have a good one all.

Happy writing!

Love, Peace, Happiness, and Blessings

Thank you for reading.

September

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New Month

Hello all it is the first day of September. August just flew by here and I am ok with that. Time for new goals for this new month, and fresh starts. Kids start school next week, so I am re doing a schedule for us, hoping to start the month off right. So today I will try not to complain and be grateful and be positive think happy thoughts. Make any necessary changes that need to be made. Overall hoping for the best. Work and writing today also writing out new goals for the weekend and the rest of the month. Happy Wednesday! Happy Writing!

How is your day going so far? Ready for the weekend already? Hope it’s a good day for you all.

Love, Peace, Happiness, and Blessings

Thank you for reading.

Little Girl Lost

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I wrote this some months ago. It is one of my favorites!!! Wanted to share again. Enjoy, thank you.

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Lost Little Girl

Little lost girl

Fighting to find her way

Lost with no direction

Sad eyes, heart hurting, mind racing

Wounds open, flesh

Lost little girl

Thrown to the wolves, the sharks, the bad

The ugly, clowns, death

Raging to get free

Surrounded by the unknown, Dark

Lost little girl

Scared, shocked, afraid

Alone, cold, wondering

Mad, darkness, raged, shaking

Lost in a world, no clue

She is lost, no soul, no nothing

Lost little girl

Can she be found???

Thank You For Reading.

****Just A Poem!!****

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Happy Thursday!

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Thursday!

Happy Thursday! people. Wishing you love and blessings this beautiful day. I hope you succeed in what you want to accomplish today. Get that to do list done, make time for your self and try to have a relaxed day and yes trust I know that can be hard if you have a lot going on or work is stressful, just breathe through it and pray. Just want to send love and a positive message today.

It’s almost Friday Yay! Have a great day. please feel to like, comment, and share. thank you for reading.

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Back to school!

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Back to school!!

Morning all, how is it going?

So excited at the moment and yes, a little nervous. My son will be starting middle school, the sixth grade in a week. Today he has a half a day for orientation. Do not know why I am very nervous, but I am even though it is just orientation lol. I cannot believe that I have a child in middle school. Time is going by fast, and they are growing, something that I can’t stop lol. It is a beautiful yet scary thing for me. Crazy. Maybe I am that parent that will not be able to let go.

Even though I feel anxious I am happy for my son. Starting a new grade and at a new school is exciting and a new experience. I am sure he will do great. My daughter will start fifth grade and she is excited also to start the new school year. My kids are growing up and love it (And Scared).

Shout out to all parents who are homeschooling or sending their kids back to school. It is not easy especially with everything going on in this world, but we do what we must for our children. No matter what! Praying for our children that they are safe and praying for strength and guidance.

Are you ready for back to school? Do you feel it is challenging this year? Hope you all have a good day. Blessings! 💙🖤

Thank you for reading.

Stuck

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Stuck

Stuck here in the same spot

Stuck fighting

Figuring it out

Stuck

All alone

Stuck in a bubble

Want to break free

Scared, nervous

Stuck feeling the weight of the world

Pushing, shoving, reaching

Nothing happens

Stuck in life

Stuck in a shell

Trying to overcome it all

Stuck

Facing fears

Don’t want to

Stuck

Want to be heard

Stuck

Suffer in silence

Stuck

No change, give up

Stuck

Where’s light

Where is Love

I am stuck here and now

Trying to breathe

Get out of it, Climb

Man, man, man

I am just

Stuck

Thank you for reading.

**Just A Poem**

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Pressure

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Pressure

When you feel the weight of the world, of life.

Pressure

Trying to make everyone around you happy.

Pressure

Trying to make yourself happy.

Pressure

Having those bad days, struggling

Pressure

The drama and let downs.

To be perfect

Pressure

Dealing with people who are toxic to you.

Pressure

Heaviness

Too much weight

It is all around.

Damn the pressure.

Thank you for reading.

#Pressure #Poetry #JustWrite

Understanding it

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This is a post I wrote a while ago and wanted to share it again!

Hope you like it.

Understanding things helps. Understand it and make good decisions

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Understanding It

To those who needs these words:

Give yourself time to understand and deal with a situation do not give up hope. We often lose hope and some people often give up. Please do not, see your worth and move forward. Have the courage to break through the pain, push through. You have to do it for yourself. You can do it be strong. Try to understand what’s going with you get to the real issues and fix it I been through it, so I know it’s hard, damn hard, but with faith and good and loving support around you it will get better. For anyone going through tough times and darkness and depression please get help, you are not alone.

Wishing the best, Prayers and love to those in need and do not forget to love those around you and of course yourself. Love and Happiness Love…

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