I am learning day by day that it is okay for me to let things go, let go and be free
Let go of the anger
Let go of the lies
Let go of the pain
Let go of those who are toxic to you and your well being
Let go of it all
Let go and open your mind
Let go and open your heart, let go and let God
Let go and welcome sunshine into your life
Let it all go
It is okay and I am learning to move on and continue to love me and have a happy life. Let go of the things that I can not control and take it for what it is. I love the feeling of being happy and at peace. I am letting it all go. I am happy and content!
Writing session going on. Nice music and pen flowing. My goal for the night is to get maybe 2-3 chapters done and that can be challenging. I am up for it though. Ideas are coming and I am loving it after being stuck on a chapter for days having writer’s block. So today is going well. Writing and watching the game and of course, music is going. Yes, multitask! Just Chill and Write.
Enjoyable day so far, keeping my mind positive today!
Wow, I cannot believe that tomorrow is Christmas. To me, it just does not seem like it is the holidays. Just seems like another day. Maybe because so much is going on in the world that it can be hard to get in the Christmas spirit, hard to focus or be happy. I am just sitting here thinking of memories from when I was a kid and me and my siblings could not wait till Christmas. We used to stay up all night days before Christmas and talk about what we thought our gifts were. There were some nights where we just stared at the tree and were overly excited ready for Christmas day. I miss the old days and how things used to be. Since I got older it has never been the same. Does anybody else feel like this? Again, I am sitting here going down memory lane and thinking heavy. On the other hand, I cannot wait to see my kid’s faces light up when they open their gifts. I am trying to get in the spirit.
Are you ready for Christmas? How are you dealing with everything?
Have you been in a situation where you have to walk away from someone love because you knew in your heart that the two you would not have worked out? I am just sitting here thinking of that person and I miss him. Been feeling so lonely lately and thinking and missing him is making me feel worse because that is who I want. Badly. I miss the way he used to look at me, our conversations, our silliness, our vibe, the compliments, and him always being real with me. We had to walk away from each other, and it still hurts. I want him in my life, and I still feel that it would not work out for me due to me knowing this person well the way they think, and their personality. Sometimes it annoys me wondering about what if. What would happen if we did have a relationship? What if we try now? Wondering if I made a mistake when I had to walkway from him. Hate feeling this way and again feel lonely and want him next to me even if not in a relationship with me just to talk to each other would be good. I need to find something to do because he is too much on my mind. SMH, I do not like it. He probably does not still feel the same way. Should I reach out or just leave it alone? Maybe too much time has passed.
Have you ever had a person in your life that could not let go? Did all the wrong things in the relationship and you endured a lot and decided to leave but they just will not let you go. Dealing with that currently. Yeah, today I am dealing with a lot got someone who wants me but I don’t want them I feel I tried so hard for years and got hurt and I am over it. Haven’t been with this person for years and they won’t let up. Yeah, fucking annoying. And then I want someone who probably does not want me or thinking about me at all, the difference is I am not bugging the other person or begging them to want me. Constantly calling or texting them. It is the want what I cannot have syndrome we both got I guess lol. Emotions are everywhere though
Damn, can I catch a break…. LOL a little too much at the moment.
That damn feeling of wanting what you cannot have……
Hello, people yay it is Thursday closer to the weekend. Yes yes yes. I am feeling a little better them migraines can keep you down, whew. Having a good day so far thinking about what to do after work. Thinking about doing some reading so I will be looking up some books to read. Any suggestions? Of course, I will get some writing done later tonight, hope you all are having a good day.