Monthly Archives: September 2024

Want What You Cannot Have!

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Want it, Can’t Have it…..

Have you been in a situation where you have to walk away from someone love because you knew in your heart that the two you would not have worked out? I am just sitting here thinking of that person and I miss him. Been feeling so lonely lately and thinking and missing him is making me feel worse because that is who I want. Badly. I miss the way he used to look at me, our conversations, our silliness, our vibe, the compliments, and him always being real with me. We had to walk away from each other, and it still hurts. I want him in my life, and I still feel that it would not work out for me due to me knowing this person well the way they think, and their personality. Sometimes it annoys me wondering about what if. What would happen if we did have a relationship? What if we try now? Wondering if I made a mistake when I had to walkway from him. Hate feeling this way and again feel lonely and want him next to me even if not in a relationship with me just to talk to each other would be good. I need to find something to do because he is too much on my mind. SMH, I do not like it. He probably does not still feel the same way. Should I reach out or just leave it alone? Maybe too much time has passed.

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Have you ever had a person in your life that could not let go? Did all the wrong things in the relationship and you endured a lot and decided to leave but they just will not let you go. Dealing with that currently. Yeah, today I am dealing with a lot got someone who wants me but I don’t want them I feel I tried so hard for years and got hurt and I am over it. Haven’t been with this person for years and they won’t let up. Yeah, fucking annoying. And then I want someone who probably does not want me or thinking about me at all, the difference is I am not bugging the other person or begging them to want me. Constantly calling or texting them. It is the want what I cannot have syndrome we both got I guess lol. Emotions are everywhere though

Damn, can I catch a break…. LOL a little too much at the moment.

That damn feeling of wanting what you cannot have……

Blessings and Love! 🖤🤎💙💛💚💗🧡🤍❤💜

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Forget…

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Forget

Want to let it all go

Forget the past, forget the humiliation

Forget the hurt, forget it all

Forget the people who played a part in my hurt

Forget those who knew but did not help, looked away

Forget those who said they care, but really do not

Forget the feelings I had, forget my tears

Forget get being a child, forget all of my childhood

Damn

Forget having too much weight on my shoulders

Forget getting over shit alone and afraid

Damn yall

I just want to forget

Forget it all…

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Hobbies!

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Daily writing prompt
What is your favorite hobby or pastime?
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My favorite hobbies are writing, of course, dancing and cooking, watching documentaries, and playing video games.

I am an author, so writing is something I do all the time. I love music and dancing and could put music on and dance away for hours. I am also a foodie and love to cook, especially baking, it is relaxing for me. I love watching documentaries on all types of subjects, mainly animal docs. Lastly, I like to play video games. My favorite games to play are Jeopardy, Tetris, Madden, and Wheel of Fortune. These are things I love to do especially if I am really bored and feel there is absolutely nothing else to do. When I am playing video games, I would have my music going and tuning everything out. I just like to vibe!

What is your hobby/hobbies?

Blessings and Love!

Thank you for reading!

Sabotage.

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In my mind, a constant battle waged

A war between reason and impulse, uncaged

I knew what was right, what I should do

Yet self-sabotage always seemed to ensue.

Hurting those I loved, leaving them in tears

My actions driven by my deepest fears

I couldn’t seem to break free of this curse

My inner demons, my own worst enemy, perverse.

I pushed away those who wanted to help

My stubbornness, my pride, my greatest yelp

But deep down inside, I knew the truth

That I was the cause of my own abuse.

It took time and effort to turn things around

To break free of the chains that had me bound

Apologies were made, amends were sought

And slowly but surely, my life was re-wrought.

It’s not easy to face the harm we’ve caused

To admit our faults, to remove the gauze

But in doing so, we can find redemption

And learn to love ourselves without exception.

But damn sometimes it’s the

Self sabotage

That gets us!

Blessings and Love

Thank you for reading.

Grief and Pain 

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Gone are the days of joy and light 

Replaced by shadows endless night 

Every breath is a heavy weight 

Every moment filled with ache 

Fragments of a shattered soul 

Pierced by sorrow never whole 

The agony that knows no end 

Invisible wounds that time won’t mend 

Never-ending silent cries 

Echoing through endless skies 

Tears that fall like summer rain 

Searing heartache endless pain 

-Grief and Pain-

Blessings and Love! 

Thank you for reading.

Fully Open!

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To Fully be open

Let my story show

Express my feelings, thoughts and

The realness of me

To be fully open

To new opportunities, businesses, life

Live free

To fully be open and

Put myself out there

Take risks be open to

New friends, new love, relationships

Fully be open

Express all of me

Learning daily how to

Fully open up and

Just go for what I want

To be open

Fear free

Finally living for me

To fully be open

Something I am

Working on

Most definitely!

-Fully Open!-

Blessings and Love!

Thank you for reading.

Prompt 2!

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Write about your approach to budgeting.

Write about your approach to budgeting.

I am not that good at budgeting money. It is something I need to work on.  Sometimes I can be reckless with spending money, especially with stuff for my kids. There are times when I try to keep a budget and keep up with all my spending, but it never goes well. I don’t know why but I need to change that. Trying to save to buy a house so some of my spending habits have to stop.

So, no approach here really just goes with the flow. Do you budget out everything?  Any tips?

Have good one

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Pink Dahlia

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In the garden where the sunbeams play

A pink dahlia stands in a bright array

Petals soft as twilight’s gentle sigh

Whispers of beauty beneath the sky

A blush of dawn on each delicate fold

Stories of summers in hues so bold

With a heart of gold, it sways in grace

A tender smile on nature’s face

Pink dahlia, bloom so fair

A song of love in the light air

In your beauty, the world finds cheer

A fleeting moment, forever dear

-Pink Dahlia-

Blessings and Love

Thank you for reading.

Optimistic! 

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In a world of shadows, I stand tall 

Optimism is my guiding light, never to fall 

Through trials and tribulations, I find my way 

Cool and collected, come what may 

With a heart full of hope and a mind so bright 

I embrace each challenge, ready to fight 

In every storm, I see a silver lining 

A chance for growth, a new beginning 

So here I am, an optimistic soul 

Cool and calm, achieving my goal 

For in positivity, I find my power 

To navigate life’s journey, hour by hour 

-Optimistic- 

Blessings and Love! 

Thank you for reading.