Tag Archives: Control

Push Away…

My shadows deep and whispers low, I tread a path so lone

Where echoes of my footsteps keep a rhythm, soft, monotone

Around me, souls reach out in hope, their warmth a fleeting day

Yet, in this dance, I falter and choose instead to push away

The world is a tapestry of bonds, threads intertwining tight

Each stitch a promise, colored bright, against the fall of night

But fear, like frost, creeps in my heart, turning warmest gold to gray

And in my chill, I draw the veil and gently push away

Why do I guard this fortress, keep its gates so closely drawn?

Why do I fear the touch of dawn, the light before the morning?

Perhaps in solitude, I find bittersweet dismay

For, in the end, it’s me I’ve lost each time I push away

Yet, in the quiet hope whispers, a tender, fragile strain

Maybe bridges can be built where only walls remain

With cautious steps, could I reach out, let in the light of day?

Or will I wander, evermore, a soul that pushes away?

-Push Away-

Blessings and Love!

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Overachiever!

Excellence is the aim 

I strive for greatness never settling for less 

With every task I play the ambitious game 

Pushing boundaries embracing each new stress 

No challenge too great no goal too excessive 

I chase success with passion in my soul 

My drive and determination taking control 

As an overachiever I reach for the sky 

In this pursuit of greatness, I will never be shy 

In the journey I find my truest role 

-Overachiever- 

Blessings and Love! 

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Control Freak! II 

In the labyrinth of my mind, I hold sway 

A puppeteer of thoughts, emotions, and will 

Control, my companion day after day 

Dictating each moment, a thirst to fulfill 

Like a tempest in a teacup, I reign 

Over every detail, every single choice 

Fearful of losing power, going insane 

Ignoring the whispers of my inner voice 

But in the quiet moments of the night 

When shadows dance and silence fill the air 

I glimpse a truth shimmering in the light 

That control is an illusion, a snare 

But 

I am a control freak 

Power, control, my destiny 

Always in my hand 

-Control Freak II- 

Blessings and Love! 

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In Charge

This beauty here has to

Be in charge

I take charge and lead

In charge here

I run things

Sharp with wit

Grit and steady

In charge here

No testing me

Price will be

Steep

In charge

Ms. Bossy

Ms. Get it done

No time for nonsense

Get it right or

Get gone

In charge

And love it

If you don’t like it

BYE

And please understand

That I am, she is

In Charge!

Blessings and Love

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Control Freak! 

I dig and dig, with a shovel in hand 
Searching for ways to take command 
In every aspect of my life 
For me, no need for a co-pilot 

I want the power, I want the say 
I want control in every way 
The smallest detail to the grandest scheme 
I’ll be the one who’s pulling the strings 

But as I dig, I start to see 
That control is not the key to being free 
For every moment that I try to hold 
I miss the beauty that could unfold 

I put down my shovel, I let go 
And suddenly, my world starts to glow 
I can’t control everything, that’s true 
But I can control how I see it through 

Blessings and Love! 

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Caution! (Her)

Caution! (Her)

I say caution, please proceed with caution.

She is still trying to find herself.

Caution

Loving her will not be easy, it will not happen overnight.

Caution

Be gentle with her, her heart is fragile.

Caution

Her heart has been misguided.

Caution, please proceed with caution.

She does not know what real love is.

Caution, please proceed with caution when getting to know her.

Caution

Be aware, be alert when loving her.

I say caution please proceed with caution!

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Control

Control

When you think of control what does it mean to you?

Control to me is having a say over any and everything. Have to be up close and have a hand in everything that is going on around you. Including control over people.

Man, man, man I hate when things are out of my control. I am a Leo and yes sometimes I am bossy and must control everything around me. When something is out of my control, I feel lost, nervous, my body shakes I feel anxious, and I get easily irritated. Anybody else like that? I be a nervous wreck and constantly questioning everything. Then I am overthinking and worrying, crazy huh?

Some people say to me that its ok to let go of having control over everything and relax. It is hard to do that thought. I have been thinking about it lately and maybe I should let go a little, take it one day at a time, relax, do not go overboard, and try to run people lives. I mean how hard can it be? Where do I start? Are there any other control freaks out there? Help lol

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Nerves

Nerves lol

Chaotic day and stressed day for me well not really lol it is all in my freaking head. I say stressed because my feelings and emotions have been everywhere having damn anxiety all day. I know the reason is me missing and worrying about my kids. Panic and full of nerves. I stated in a previous post that the weekend was my kids first time going out of town without me even though they are with their father, and I trust him my nerves are still bad.  Also, they were supposed to be back today but had car trouble and crazy I know because I had got pissed about it knowing that these things can sometimes happen. Need a damn drink or 3 lol I know they are doing okay and having fun I have been talking to them since they left. Why am I like this? I annoy myself by worrying all the time. Feel out of control and that can be why anxiety is in play. My kids seem like they are enjoying themselves and seem like they don’t even miss me lol.

I know its just me with my trust and control issues. Seriously need to calm down, maybe a joint or a drink will do and of course writing, get my mind off it all. A little venting tonight about nothing really lol. Have a good one all.

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