Tag Archives: Feelings

Captivated

The way I see him

I am

Captivated

Wrapped in his

Vortex, this

Whirlwind

I am

Captivated

Needing and wanting

More

Of him, his

Lusty eyes

Locking in on me

Captivated

The way he sees

Me, beauty

He is captivated

Wanting nothing more

Than to be

Wrapped together

In love

In forever

Energy between us

Unmatched

Again wanting

More

Needing him

On all levels

Cannot stop

This whirlwind

You ask why?

Because, bond, lust, love

I am

Captivated.

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Have you ever felt this way?

Have you felt this way?

Cannot get this man off my mind, damn every day I think of him. His looks, his smile, his voice, and his damn personality. We are a match. We have great chemistry, I can have a good conversation with him, he makes me laugh, and we also can be serious too. It is just something about him. I avoid talking to him because I have strong feelings and do not know how to show it or how to tell him (my scared ass, LOL). I am so guarded and been hurt too many damn times. But for real, I just do not know what to do. Then I worry about if he feels the same way. I do not want to put my feelings out there and he do not feel the same way I do. And that will constantly bother me. What if he does not respond or never talk to me again. I probably sound crazy, but it is how I am feeling and can not shake it. Right now, I want him next to me, us talking and vibing, I want his touch, his eyes on me. Then again, I do not want to look stupid and get hurt. My emotions are everywhere tonight, and I am dinking a little and it is making it worse. Maybe it is bedtime for me because my mind is going miles and I am so over this, maybe because I know the truth. 

I guess it is what it is. Just my thoughts and feelings tonight. I really want him, like seriously, whatever.

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**More from Ray’Elaine**

https://writeblg.com/2021/02/22/love-that/

https://writeblg.com/2021/01/09/i-surrender/

https://writeblg.com/2021/07/09/lust/

Beast Mode

Creative juices flowing

Like electricity through her

Music got me gone, she is in

Beast mode

Laser-focused, nothing else matters

But her craft

That pen in her hand and

Her imaginative mind

Beast mode

She goes hard

At anything she does

Fast pace, she is in

Beast mode

No stopping

See it through

She can taste success

The beast in her

The pen and notebook keep her sane

Ideas so insane

In a good way, she is

Getting there

No matter the weather

Beast mode

Let my work speak

Creative juices are flowing

Blowing through my writings

cheerful, in a zone

My own world

Calm and cool

In

Boss mode!

Beast mode!

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Parenting…..

Parenting

This thing called parenting. Whew can be challenging work at times. I feel like from time to time it is a big challenge. Being a parent, you must always be alert and aware of anything and or anyone around your kids. You have to have those eyes and ears wide open. As a parent you are first a safeguard, a protector loving and caring. Second a provider yes kids are not cheap lol. You have to be a protector and be able to take care of and give your kids the necessities needed in life. Third, you are a teacher as they get older it is the parent’s job to teach their kids the rights and wrongs of the world. Teach them to be respectful, smart. It is the parent’s job to help their child with education needs. Keeping them learning new things, keep them engaged. Fourth the parent is a therapist hearing and seeing what our kids go through it is up to us the parents to steer them in the right direction. Give them loving and encouraging words of wisdom, letting them know you love them. Kids have to know that they can come to their parents with any problem and feel comfortable that the parent will be there and help. Fifth you are a chef and a housekeeper lol. Feeding them and supplying food and clothing and of course from time to time the toys and extra things that they need. Also supplying a way to pay for everything including education. Cleaning up after them until they can for themself and sometimes you still will be doing it as life goes on. Sixth you are somewhat of a punching bag; I don’t mean physical beating or anything violent. I mean that the parent takes on all problems and have no choice but to. Dealing with our kids’ attitudes and sometimes behavioral problems. It is up to us to help our children along the way and sometimes that means we the parents are the bad guys. Kids often feel we are too strict or needy but of course, we want nothing but the best for them. Especially those teenage years. Lol, demanding work I tell you. My son is in sixth grade and his thing is the class clown phase which is challenging because it gets him in trouble. Like I have said above parents are all six things plus more. Most important job, I think.

It can be hard from day to day. As a parent sometimes there is no downtime, time for us with working, cooking, cleaning, and making sure the kids are good we are tapped out. Even with the challenges, the troubled times it is something that I will not change. I feel like becoming a parent has changed me for the good. It is hard because they are of course my first concern, and I cannot easily make decisions like I use to. It puts you on high guard. Parenting keeps you on your toes and with your kids being upfront and honest with you it can be kind of chaotic, yeah sometimes they think they are grown lol. Still will not change it. Parenting is a job that is never-ending.

To all parents out there stay strong no matter what. Hold on to those precious moments and memories, try your hardest to always talk to your kids, and understand how they are feeling, what they are going through. Parents often want to shelter their kids keep them close by not sharing with them the ways of the world. I feel as kids grow it is important for parents to be honest with them, teach them well. This thing called parenting is sometimes easy and sometimes hard. Shout out again to the parents keep your head up and be strong during those challenging times. Our kids are sometimes all we have and vice versa.

My feelings tonight just staring at my kids thinking they are growing too fast lol. I love every minute of it. Thankful and grateful. How do you feel about Parenting? Do you like kids? Do you feel it is a challenge raising kids?

Blessings and Love!

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My Night of Darkness

Night of darkness….I Think!!!

My mind is hazy my eyes are watered I am confused as I look down at the object in my hand, I could not have, no this is not happening. As I look around me and see all the damage that was done, I start panicking and screaming the mess before me was a terrifying scene.

I ran to the bathroom and the face before me was not mine. Who is this person what have they done with the old me?

Then I look down at my bloody hands trying to figure what has happened I try washing the blood from my hands and arm I am scrubbing hard and screaming the word no over and over. Then there was pain all through my body, then DARKNESS………… WTF

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Truth

Truth is being honest

Is not for everyone

Why lie?

Especially to my face

To yourself

Truth is not in your soul

Why?

The truth from some

So hard to come by

Is it really

The truth hurts

Don’t think you are

Doing a favor

By hiding anything from me

Truth

What I want

Truth

What I deserve

For me

Truth sets one free

From all the BS

Damn is it really

That hard

To tell the

Truth???

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T.O.L.-Reflection

Be a reflection of what you would like to receive in life

If you want respect, you give respect

If you want good to come to you, be good to others

If you want honesty, be honest

If you want love, you give love

If you want truth, you give trust and be truthful

What you give out will return

A thought…. Thinking out loud

Blessings!

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