Tag Archives: Feelings

Lonely

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Lonely Tonight

Times when I am down and I am not feeling myself, I hate being lonely. Sometimes I wish there were someone here to love me, talk to me, to hold me and tell me everything will be okay. Yes, I am strong on my own, I get lonely sometimes. These last couple of weeks I have been feeling very lonely and been sad about it. Honestly, I wish the guy I talked about in a previous post was here with me, like damn I really want that man bad. And of course, as I stated before he is probably not thinking about me at all. I am just lonely and thinking. There has been so much going on in my life lately and I just want real love, real friendships, just realness in my life. Anyways, I am going to get over it hopefully soon, me thinking this way, I sometimes irritate myself like seriously lol, but it is what it is. Miss lonely speaking tonight. Hope you all are doing okay and having a good night. Remember to love yourself and those around you. Love, peace, happiness, and Blessings!

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My Feelings: Whew lol

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My feelings-why I feel this way?

Its funny or crazy how I am feeling about this situation I got myself into. On one hand it is what I want, what I being wanting. But on the other hand, I feel that shit is off, and something just do not seem right. Sometimes I think I am getting in my own way or thinking way too much. Maybe I am scared to take that leap. I do not know right now I am over analyzing the situation. Now I have talked about this man a lot and thought that maybe it was or who I wanted but like I said shit do not seem right. I have extraordinarily strong feelings for him, and I keep telling myself to go for it. What Is stopping me? A question I ask myself all the time. He has been checking on me lately to see if I am okay and I love that he seems like he really cares but of course I think that it is too good to be true something else I wrote about. I have to really make my mind up plan and stick with it; I do not want to get hurt and I do not want to hurt anybody feelings. I just do not know what to do, I like him and we vibe well, I like our conversations and we can talk about anything, I also feel like I and be myself around him even with this there is still some doubt. And I am not the type who worry about what others think about me or my life. When I think of me and him in a relationship, I always think about what my family will think it is weird because I usual do not care what people say or think.

Maybe it is me I got some things to decide. What will you do in this situation? Should I just say forget it all? Should I quit over thinking/analyzing?

Well, I am just venting on this Monday of course got to let it out. My feelings, My thoughts. Have a great night people and I thank you for reading. Love and Blessings

Thank You.

I am SOOO Confused

In the night

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In the night!

In the night when all is still

I am up and my mind is awake

Racing with thoughts good and bad

In the night when its hard to sleep

In the night is when I write

Letting it all flow together

In the night, my heart is free, free to be me

In the night I see clear

In the night, my imagination is wild

In the night, my mind is wild

In the night I write freely, freely me

And it is Night! Time to write

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#InTheNight #JustWrite

A Day

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Good Morning all how is it going?

My morning…….

Man, man man what a Morning it has been. One child sick and another one suspended from school and its chaos here. LOL. Patience and strength are needed seriously. Will not be working today so maybe writing when things calm down. It is going to be a long and maybe stressful day and I have a damn migraine also so there’s that. Need a BIG cup of coffee lol. It’s one of those days today, I guess. Maybe try to do some editing or just watch tv and be lazy I rather be working but it is what it is. What to do????

What are your plans for the day? Any writing goals? Work goals?

Hope you all have a great day and enjoy it.  Yay Friday tomorrow

Love, Peace, Happiness, and Blessings All

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My Heart Guarded

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Heart Guarded…

Sometimes I hate that I am so guarded, and I keep everything in. emotions are bottled up and I do not show that side of me. I do not fully put my feelings out there because I have feelings of being wronged and hurt. I do not like to love and be vulnerable, people will use that against you. That is why I guard my mind and my heart. It is true that I can be afraid of rejection. I do not trust easily either I have major trust issues and I know that is holding me back, but I cannot just fully put my trust in others. I am also guarded because I feel like people have negative motives, and I do not like that shit. I am guarded because I have not healed from my past, I need to let go and move on. Is it bad that I cannot let my guard down? Working on changing that, maybe just do not want to get hurt anymore I’ so freaking over it. I am just thinking out loud, my crazy thoughts. SMH it how I am feeling though. My heart is guarded. I need help!

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Rough Day…..

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Rough day yesterday!

Yesterday was a hard day for me. I had to take a moment for myself. I sat on my bed rocking back and forth and taking deep breaths. Minutes before that I was in attack mode. I felt hurt and just rage and wanted to do damage to that person. Ugh I do not like having this feeling and I am glad I walked away because the way I was feeling was madness and did not want to do anything stupid. So, I had to take some deep breaths and put on some music to calm myself. I hate that I let someone get the best of me and got me out of control for a minute. I also had to pray for strength, I was a different person and had to check myself really quick. Right now, I am still a little upset, but happy the situation is over and nothing bad happened. I kept it cool. Very thankful and proud of myself for having the strength to walk away.

I will continue to pray for strength and guidance. Really trying to have peace, get to my happiness. Have you ever been in a scary situation before? How did you deal with it?

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In My Heart

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In My Heart

In my heart I will remember your love

In my heart I will always see and feel your smile

In my heart I will keep your voice, your words

In my heart I will always see and feel you

In my heart I will keep your memories

In my heart, in my mind you will

Forever be missed

In my heart you will always be

I love you always mom

Sill in my heart

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This Day….

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This Day..Trying

Today I woke up at 4 in the morning screaming and crying out for my mom. Felt scared and lonely. I miss her so much. Wishing I can give her a call I so bad want to hear her voice. I miss her beautiful smile and being around her. Today is so emotional besides missing and thinking about my mom, I am thinking about 9-11 what happened on this day 20 years ago. I still remember where I was at and what I was doing. So, devastating, I remember that was on my mind for months. So much lost and pain that day. It is a day I feel will always be remembered. Again, today has been emotional and I have been trying to do different things to keep my mind off things. It has been hard and as of right now my hear is heavy and all I want to do is drink the pain away. Just a sad day. Maybe try more writing this evening. I don’t know cannot shake this feeling. Venting and feelings out.

Hope you all are doing okay and having a good day. Praying for us all.

Love, Peace, Happiness, and Blessings

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***More by Ray’Elaine***

Shocked….
https://writeblg.com/2021/01/06/prayers-healing-for-all/
Feeling of Life
https://writeblg.com/2021/07/03/bottom-of-the-bottle-2/

Let It Go

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Let It Go

I am learning day by day that it is okay for me to let things go, let go and be free

Let go of the anger

Let go of the lies

Let go of the pain

Let go of those who are toxic to you and your well being

Let go of it all

Let go and open your mind

Let go and open your heart, let go and let God

Let go and welcome sunshine into your life

Let it all go

It is okay and I am learning to move on and continue to love me and have a happy life. Let go of the things that I can not control and take it for what it is. I love the feeling of being happy and at peace. I am letting it all go. I am happy and content!

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