Sometimes I wish I could be a people pleaser. Forever. Be what everyone wants me to be at all times. Sometimes I feel that way. On the other hand, I am tired of it. At my age and how I have been feeling these days I want to focus on my kids and myself. I feel like I have spent half of my life doing for others no matter what and have nothing to show for it. Nobody has or is doing the same for me. 50/50. Some people want you to jump and be there for them whenever, and they can care less about what is going on with you or how you are doing. It is all about what they can get out of you. Again, I am so tired of it. Feeling like if it is not about my kids or anything for them it is not for me. They are my main focus no matter what. At my age, I do need to get back to loving myself and doing better. 50/50. Sometimes I do wish life could be all about me, myself, and I. my wants and needs. There are times when I feel like I do not know who I am and what I really like when it comes to certain things. I have always been wrapped in other people’s lives and problems and what they needed. Here i am thinking life has passed me by, it’s all a blur and I am constantly trying to make things clearer. 50/50. The 50 percent of my life that was mine and the other 50 percent that was not. It is a 50/50 thing. 

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Blessings and Love! 

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