Face of seriousness
As I face life everyday
Hidden Smile
From a Stolen Soul
A lifeless mind
Life challenges
Hidden Smile
From a Heartless Soul
A stolen mind
Hidden Smile
My Smile
No one should see
Darkness all over me
Stay away
I say
Hidden Smile
Been this way for a while
Numbness of life
Hidden Smile
From a stolen soul and lifeless mind
-Hidden Smile-
Blessings and Love!
Thank you for reading
Cut Deep
The pain cuts deep, a wound unseen
Lost and hurt, I try to glean
A way forward, to heal and mend
But the ache persists, it does not end
I mourn the loss of what once was
A love that’s gone, now just because
Of things unsaid, or left undone
I wish I could go back, and be someone
Who knew how to love, and how to care
Who could have saved us, from this despair
Now all that’s left, is this elegy
A tribute to what once was, but now must be
Laid to rest, and let go of
The pain and hurt, that once was love
May we find peace, in the memories we keep
And solace in the knowledge, that love runs deep.
While being deep in cuts of pain.
-Cuts Of Pain-
Blessings and Love!
Thank you for reading
As I look in the mirror, I see
A face that’s lost and filled with grief
I thought I knew just who I’d be
But now I’m lost and feel naive
I had such high hopes and grandiose dreams
But they fell flat, or so it seems
I thought I’d make a bigger mark
But now I’m struggling in the dark
I’m disappointed in myself
For not achieving all my goals
I put my dreams up on the shelf
And now I’m paying heavy tolls
I wish that I could find my way
And be the person I once dreamed
But now I’m lost, with nothing to say
Silent, at a stand still
And all my hopes are coming undone at the seams
So here I stand, with heavy heart
And wonder where I’ll go from here
I hope that I can find a start
And overcome this crippling fear.
Just so disappointment in me, myself, and I
Blessings and Love!
Thank you for reading.
Hello All,
Man, tonight is not a good night. I have been trying to have a positive outlook, and thoughts about life and have been encouraging others to do the same. But me being honest lately it has been hard to do. Especially today. Tonight, my thoughts are dark, and I have been drinking for hours, which I am not supposed to be doing. Without a damn care in the world. Honestly right now my feelings are numb. I do not care about shit right now, and yeah maybe it is the liquor or maybe my wicked thought’s, how I feel about myself at the moment. I want to unleash. Fight mode. Hurting. All day I have being giving myself pep talks and trying to rise above this dark feeling.
But I am tired. Tired of being there for people who can’t help me with shit. It is only so much a person can take. People who I cannot call on to even talk to. Tired of it all. All I do is give to others, while I am suffering through a lot. Help them always in their time of need. But who is there for me. And yes, I know you should not help others and look for something in return, but damn people I help sometimes I wish I can call them and need them.
Often, I feel like my feelings do not matter at all. It is all about what a person can get out of me. SAD but it is a truth in my life. You’ll think I will be use to it by now. Same shit different day…
So here I am writing in my notebook and my blog and about to tune everything out. Phone is off, tv is off. Just drinking and thinking (SMH) hopefully this would pass, been here before and it is not good.
Venting and letting it out as always, no matter what it is. If you think this is too dark or not for you. MOVE ON. VENT SESSION
Just rambling on and venting. Just wish I had a person for me to talk to about anything. Yes I am guarded but still haven’t met a person who I trust enough to let them in and be vulnerable with them. Sill working on it,
Anyways back to my fucked-up night. Writing and music take me away.
Hope you all night is better!
My misery does not like company! Even though I go through a lot I do not wish it on others.
She just being HONEST. Tired of it ALL
Have a good one.
Blessings and Love
Thank you for reading.
Demons live inside
Quiet and kept
Some I can hide
Some I cannot
Quiet and shy
Demons inside
Living rent free
Enjoying the ride
Demons inside
I try to get rid of
At least contain them
But some days
My demons
Want to be let out
Cause hurt
Damage and chaos are
In tow
My demons
Now
Loud and at surface
My thoughts tease them
My rage feeds them
Demons inside
Loud and in my face
Nowhere to hide
Deal with them Now
Demons inside
Leaves behind
Nightmares
Damn
Bad days and uncertainty
Demons inside
Those dark days
Brings an unsober mind
I’m in a shell
Demons inside
I’m not myself
Some I can hide
Some I cannot
Damn demons deep within
My demons
Taking over.
-Demons-
Blessings and Love!
Thank you for reading.
#Poet #DarkPoetry #Life #JustWrite
Lost in a maze with no escape in sight,
Down and out, trapped in endless night
Madness creeping, clawing at my mind
No hope to find, no way to unwind.
Futile searching for a glimmer of light
But darkness reigns, an eternal blight
No path to follow, no guide to lead
Alone in my despair, consumed by need.
Trapped in a prison of my own device
No key to freedom, no chance to rise
Suffocating in a world of doubt
Seeing no way out, I scream and shout
Blessings and Love!
Thank you for reading.
Sometimes being alone
In the darkness
No light
Me and my thoughts
Sometimes thinking
Sinister thoughts
Darkness
Keeps me up
Wondering
What is next
Darkness
All I see
Lashing out
At anybody
I see
The darkness
It pulls me in
There is no
Apologies
I don’t care
Darkness is me
I is darkness
With the feelings
Of loving it here
This darkness
It takes over
I can no longer see
Clear
Down under
Deep
In this
Darkness
I’m along for the ride
Inside this
Darkness
I still can
Not hide.
Damn
All around
There is Darkness
Thank you for reading.
Just Write 