Doesn’t it just suck when we want what we can not have. Wanting someone or something when you know its wrong it just sucks. Damn this guy from my past has been on my mind lately and I do not know why. I know he is no good for me. We have never been in a relationship or together like that, but I know that he is seriously bad news. But why in the hell do I think about him or want him? Damn crazy and I try not to think about him. Sometimes I think about what could be or what a relationship between the two of us would look like. I just see his sexy face and sexy voice oh my oh my. I seriously need to stop; can you say annoyed lol. But he is serious on my mind, and he do not know how I feel SMH. Oh Boy! My feelings at the moment, I vent…..
Have you ever felt unhappy, filled with rage? You just want those who hurt you to hurt also. You want them to suffer and feel all the pain you feel plus more. Past pain, relationships, anybody. Sometimes I think of revenge, wanting to inflict torture and pain, to see them squirm, see them feel helpless, powerless, weak, lost, and scared. I want them to feel it all. That is how I am feeling at the moment I know some people can relate and some can’t **Shrugs**. Payback.
It is crazy how they are out living there lives, they suffered no consequences, out and free. And me I feel I am still trapped in that time in that pain. Replaying the shit that was done and it still feels like no time has passed. Crazy world I feel this way and must deal with it every day. Yes, I have been trying to forget it all it is hard some days are way harder than other days. I feel this way towards anyone who brought harm my way no matter who it was or is. I want them to feel what I feel sometimes. Venting like I do and sitting and thinking why they got away with it and why am I still suffering.
Am I the only one who feels this way towards a person or towards people who hurt you? Want to get pass it. And no, I do not understand it at all. Still hurting, forever hurting.
My thoughts tonight people. Hope you have a great one. Please feel free to like, comment, and share. Thank you for reading.
Love This song by Saint Bodhi named hurt like me wanted to share the video. Match the mood I am in tonight Again thank you for reading. Again just my thoughts for the night!
Hello all. This night, Just sitting here letting the pen do the work. Letting these word flow freely. I have so much on my mind and want to let out somethings tonight. It has been kind of hectic lately and I am trying to figure things out and get grip on life, and when I am stressed, I write. Hopefully the rest of the night I can stop overthinking about the small stuff. Also hopefully I can get some sleep tonight, the last couple days I have not been able to get a goodnight rest. Been very stressed though. Wish I had some sleepy time tea right now but whatever(I'll just have to deal with it). Going to get a little more done now. Kids are in bed so I will be going to bed soon.....Hopefully lol
So that is my night writing and relaxing. How is your Monday night going? What are you doing? What do you do to relive stress? Happy writing writers/bloggers! Hope you all are having a good night. Love, Peace, Happiness and Blessings. Remember to love yourself always and those around you. Self-love is key. Have a good night.