Sometimes having a listening ear to vent is everything. A friend who is always there
Well too bad I have neither. Well, my notebook lol
My fellow bloggers/readers yall know I am always in my feelings though it is a reason for it
Given the month it is and the month coming up. No doubt I will need the strength to make it through. Days coming up will be hard and a struggle and I am going to try my hardest to get through it. I just know emotions, memories, and everything will come back up. Missing mom and trying to keep it all together. And lonely. Feel like rainy days ahead
Tonight, I am wishing I had a friend just need someone right now I guess, and with me, that does not happen often. I usually tend to vent here and my notebook and my sister, but no one else face to face. Or I sometimes keep the worst inside and not speak a word about it. Maybe I am a damn difficult person. Thankful for this blog and support. Just like to vent and let it out of course and wish it was more people in my life that genuinely care. Again just need a friend and a listening ear right now. Okay! Breathe… Can’t believe I am rambling on about not having friends. LOL Crazy!! Then again, it’s how I feel tonight. Have a good one.
How has the weekend been to you? Ready for the week ahead?
Have you ever been in a situation where your feelings are deep for someone, yet you cannot explain it to them. You are too much in your head and in a way, you are a walking contradiction. What do I mean? I am glad yall asked. I say walking contradiction because I want one thing but act and say another thing.
An example, I always say that communication is key in any type of relationship, and I like open communication. I like for people to be able to come and talk to me about anything. On the other hand, I do not like to talk all the time and indeed be in my head. I shut down and do not want to talk to anyone about anything. I just cut people off until I feel like I am ready to talk to them again. That is contradiction number one. Another example is I also have a problem with accountability. I want someone to own up to the shit they have done and own up to the crazy ways they acted. I try to get them to understand the way they acted. On the other hand, sometimes, I feel like I said what I said, did what I did and that is that. I expect a person to deal with it. Or I try to avoid talking about it. Not with everything but from time to time I get like this. I know that it is not right. That is contradiction number two. Another one is being open minded, that is what I want from others but me, myself, is really not open minded, I try to be, but I am so closed off and sometimes I am not open to new things. Damn. Contradiction number three. Control is a big one…. I do not like people who are super controlling, yet I can be. I like to be in control over everything I do. If I am not in control I feel out of place and full of anxiety. Contradiction number four.
I know these are not good traits I have, and I have been working on all of them!
Again, I am a walking contradiction, and I can be honest about it. Always real with myself above the rest.
Anybody else like this? What are some contradictions you face?
Blessings and Love
Thank you for reading,
**My inner thoughts/venting** Homegirl Just Being Honest!
I know when to unwind, and unplug when my body starts speaking. When I get weak I sometimes have migraines. I know then that I need to unplug for a while. Sometimes when I feel like I have been doing, working too much for so long I get really stressed and restless.
To unplug, on some days I will turn off all electronics, sometimes sit in peace and try not to think so much, or relax with a good book, maybe some cocktails. Then there are times when I relax with TV shows or movies and of course writing. Depends on the type of day.
When you hear about love languages, what to do you think about them?
Some people show different types of way that they love some can be called love languages. It can be a way they love or what they want from others. Love languages is for all types of relationships and what people want out of each other. There are five types of love languages that people have and can have multiple ones.
Affirmation is a love language in which a person would like to hear words that affirm how you feel about them, also they want to hear that they are loved. This love language is verbal and emotional. Some people need words of affirmation, and it helps them feel loved.
Physical touch a love language where people like to be connected by touch. Weather it is a simple touch, hugging, kissing and more. They want that physical touch. Some people show love by their physical touch and some want physical touch to feel love.
Quality time is a love language where you want to spend time with a love one. You want to share the day with them and feel connected trough bonding with one another. Quality time is a good way to show you love someone by wanting to be around them weather it’s a laid-back day or a fun day. You enjoy their company. This is a good love language.
Acts of service is a love language in which a person wants to show their love by doing anything they can to help you when in need and sometimes when you are not, they do it because they enjoy it. Some people like to show this, and some would like to have it.
Gifting is a love language that can be both giving and receiving. Giving gifts to put a smile on someone’s face and wanting to have something from you, your heart is good. There are some that likes to gift to show love and appreciation. And there are some who likes to receive gifts.
I do believe that there can be many more ways to show love of course. Many types of love languages.
For me, my love language is quality time. Weather it is with my family or an intimate relationship. I like to spend time with loved ones. Fun and games, movie nights, good conversations. I feel quality times is important in any relationship. Another love language I have is physical touch and this is in an intimate relationship I like to show a person affection by touch.
Do you have one of more of these love languages? Which One?
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