Love the good and the bad
Have faith that it will work out for the better. Love with your all and be kind!!
Love Two Types!!
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Numb…
At this point I feel helpless, hopeless, soul less. Feel numb to it all my days and nights are a blur. I am constantly pacing and can not focus. Music helps a little. Heart is steadily racing and thinking the worst. It is really bad cause I don’t have anyone to talk to and I have to put on a happy face through all the pain I’m going through. Damn this feeling I freaking hate it. Emotions are up and down, feel like I am losing it. Only way I feel a little calm is when I am writing and the last couple days that has been hard to do. Knowing that you are losing someone is a lot to deal with and I am not taking it well at all, on top of the daily struggles and taking care of a family. Anxiety been at a high just craziness. Ugh calm down and breathe. Sorry people it’s how I feel right now got to let it out, forever venting, my feelings, my thoughts, my life. Just Write about it. Thank you for reading.
Bottom of the Bottle!
Bottom of the bottle
Bottle of liquor in hand, bottle to lips
Way gone but still going
Problems? What problems? That don’t matter to me
Bottle in hand, bottle to lips
Music taking me places, I am in a daze
My own world, My own damn rules
Bottle in hand, bottle to lips
I feel numb, nothing can touch me
Stress? What stress? Yeah, I do not care
Bottle in hand, bottle to lips
Wondering should I stop, should I care
But I do not want to feel anything, or see anything
Bottle in hand, bottle to lips
Life what fucking life? Forget all battles
To drunk to notice anything
Damn is my life at the bottom of this bottle in my hand
Should I continue to put it to my lips
Bottle in hand, bottle to lips
Drunk and gone, gone, gone gone, gone
Damn this bottle in my hand, damn the bottom of this bottle….
Thank you for reading!
***Just a Poem!!!***
Prayers!
Prayers
Today I want to pray for those who are dealing with this bad weather and the snowstorms and ice storms all over. I am in Minnesota so somewhat used to this weather, but I have heard that states like Texas who is getting hit with this weather and this is new for them. Just praying for those who do not know what to do and who are facing challenges due to what is going on. Also want to pray for those who is dealing with a loved one or their self-due to covid-19. Praying for love and healing for this world. It seems so much is going on. Sending love and prayers to everyone. Remember to love yourself and those around especially during the hard times, things are a little crazy at the moment. Also praying for my family, the situation with my mom is not getting better. I am scared and lost, lately the days has been a blur. Praying for better days for us all. Just venting letting it out, prayers going up. Hope you have Peace, Love, Happiness, Blessings.
Thank for supporting me and thank you for reading.
FLOW
FLOW!
F- Following my own lead, following my visions, my dreams, feeling powerful, facing myself
L- Learning and growing, letting go of the past, listen to my voice more often, loving myself
O- Observe everything around me, open my mind, my heart, open to new and better ideas
W- Willing to do what it takes to achieve my dream, I have wisdom, wishful, working on a better life for my kids and myself, work hard, a woman that is worthy
That is me. I go with the flow of things and wish for the best. Learning as I go!
Just go with the FLOW!!
Hope you enjoy this.
Thank you for reading.
Hay Happy Wednesday
Hello people! Happy Wednesday!
It has been some days and I haven’t been writing, but here I am back at it. Last week was a crazy week and my weekend was busy. Went on a trip with my family and did not get a chance to write. How are you all doing today? Want to talk about the trip and my thought and feeling of course.
Weekend Trip
So, on Saturday morning my mom, my sister, and my brothers myself and our kids drove to Kansas City Missouri, a 6- 8-hour drive. Yeah, we lost the Super Bowl this past Sunday, but it’s still GO Chiefs!! Okay back to it lol the reason for our trip was for our mom to see her family she really wanted to see her dad. It was a nice trip although it was a short one. I was happy to see my grandpa it has been about 5 years since I last seen him so that was cool. Also seeing my cousins who I have not seen in over 10 years (Crazy) even though we didn’t get a chance to hangout seeing their faces and talking to them for a little bit was great. Even though the long drive with kids had my anxiety at a high I enjoyed the trip. I was happy that my mom got to see her family and her home so overall it was cool.
My emotions are still everywhere but I am dealing with it. Taking it one day at a time and doing my breathing exercises. Like I stated above I have not been writing, so I am going to try to write an entry for my gratitude journal, and then write and focus on my book. I have been slacking too much lately and I need to get back into my groove. Still stuck on a chapter for the book but I will push through and make it happen. Also going over my monthly goals and probably add more and make some adjustments. Due to what is going on and me thinking about the unknown I am trying to keep busy and not think too much. What are your plans for the day? Remember to love yourself always and love those close to you. Wish you all Love, Peace, Happiness, and Blessings.
Thank you for reading.
Calm
Calm, Calm, Calm....
One of those up all night, up thinking and I know that I need to try to stay calm.
Read some good quotes and said a prayer. I really need it!
Calm down and breathe……
Breathe...
Treehouse
Treehouse!
Sitting in this big treehouse
Surrounded by nature
A natural calm
Sitting in this treehouse
Content with myself
Wine in hand
Body relaxed
In this treehouse
Stress is out
Mind not wondering
Feeling in the groove
Peace all over me
In this tree house
Is my hideout
Invisible to all
No I’m not small
In this treehouse
I like to be
In this treehouse I am me
This big ole treehouse, YES all for me
Thank You For Reading!
Venting Tonight
Venting tonight….Ugh
So yesterday had been a long day seemed like it dragged off. The only good thing was that it was my son birthday, he turned 11 and yes, I feel old lol. I also started my gratitude journal yesterday and I told myself that I will try it for a while see how I like it. I hate that besides those two things I have been moody all day and wanted to stay in my bed. The situation with my mom’s health is taking its toll on me. Awfully bad news and I do not know how to process it all. My emotions are all over the place and I have just been down lately. Heart is heavy but praying for the best and praying for strength, guidance, understanding, healing, and patience. I know that it will be a process and it will be hard for me and my family and I have to be strong for us all. Just too much going on and I am feeling overwhelmed and just want to shut down.
Sorry if you feel like this is a negative post but I have to get my feeling out. Losing someone or knowing you are going to lose them hurts I am sad and really do not know what to do. I am so lost, hurt and confused. This is hard and wanted to vent for a while. I know some things I post might be too much for some, but I am the type to say how I really feel. My thoughts, my feelings, letting it all out. I thank you all for the support. I thank you for reading.
What to do?….. — Just Write
I posted this a while ago and sharing again. This is the feeling of today. Thinking and trying to write. How is your day going? Have a good one people!
What to do? So, things have been going okay the last couple of days despite the bad that is going on and trying not to think about it. Been writing for days on and off and the ideas and dialogue were flowing great I mean I was writing and editing with no problem, getting a […]
What to do?….. — Just Write
Just Write 