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Back Then

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Back Then…

Remembering back when I was eleven, twelve years old I was just a young smart, shy, innocent girl. My favorite thing to do besides writing yes been writing for years was to be around my grandma. She always made me happy no matter what. At that age I was always talking to her on the phone and wanted to go anywhere she went and would be so excited when I got to spend time with her. I also at that time wanted to live with her. We had a special bond. She used to write too and sometimes she would read her poetry to me. I would smile big and was ready to listen (oh I miss it). My grandma taught me so much, to cook and to always be respectful and responsible. She was my everything, she has been gone for about 20 years and I still miss her and think about her a lot. Even though it has been this long I do not think that I have ever gotten over losing my grandma. Just thinking about her when I woke up this morning made me want to write about it, my heart is heavy, but I know I will get through it. Just want to vent and talk about back then before I turned into a different person. She passed when I was thirteen years old it broke my heart; it broke my world. My grandma and mom are on my mind today. Whew okay had to let that out, on my venting and thinking ish today.

Hope you all have a good one!

Blessings and Love!

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T.O.L-SN

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Venting….I really am trying to keep my faith and belief. I try to have patience and not think negatively. But when so much is going on in your life, and shit happens back-to-back it is hard to think positive. I feel like I am in a trance a bad one. I am just not okay today and trying to pray, trying to write, hoping that things will get better. I am at a loss right now thinking about my mom and grandpa and of course my day-to-day struggles and dealing with other people’s shit. My non-exitant love life. Feelings/ emotions are everywhere tonight. Seriously!

Ugh, what a day, what a night. Trying my hardest to not overthink. Just keep writing and keep busy…Hate when this happens but will make it through. Breathe and relax I say to myself.

Push through it no matter what. Venting a little sorry. Mind is just going right now. Hope you all are having a good weekend and making those goals. And having a fun-filled weekend. Tomorrow is a new day to begin fresh.

Blessings and Love all!

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Music!

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Music!!

Hi there today I am relaxing and listening to music and thinking. I am thinking about music. Music is everything to me, it does not matter what mood I am in music helps. I feel like music in a way is my therapy, I get lost in the songs. Anybody else feel this way? Or just me? I listen to music before I write, while cleaning up, while I am sad and crying, when I am up and happy, while having fun and more. I like to put music on and let it take me away for a while. I like to listen to old school R&B and Rap. I love songs that the lyrics speaks to me and makes me feel good. Mary J. Blige and Usher are artists that I can listen in any mood. Music helps sometimes just clearing your head jamming to the beat and/or lyrics. Of course, when with family and friends it is fun dancing and partying and connecting through music. Music can bring people together, well that is what I think.

How do you feel about music? What is your favorite genre? Who is your favorite artist?

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#Music #JustWrite

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T.N.T-Tuesday Thought

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Sorry Not Sorry

Thinking, maybe overthinking……..

I want to talk about how irritated it is when someone constantly tells me that they are sorry for something that they do repeatedly. I do not get it at all. Does anybody else get annoyed with this? I mean why say you are sorry when you really are not. It is not hard to be upfront and real with a person, instead of lying and saying you are sorry for it. That irritates me like seriously do not tell me you are sorry, and you do not mean it or just telling me that to send me off. Or don’t keep repeating the same messed-up behaviors and saying sorry for it time and time again. If you have to constantly lie to me then please choose to move on and not be around me, not too much to ask for.

Ugh okay just thinking out loud tonight, some people are so insensitive. Am I the only one?

Blessings and Love!

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Tonight’s plans/goals

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Today has been kind of draining and the weather makes it no better. Even with that, I’m getting ready to write and get some editing done. Also working on my poetry book from the title to designing the book and other ideas I have. I got dinner going for the kids and when that is done and they are settled writing it is, no excuses tonight. NO EXCUSES… I am on it and want to get these books done ASAP. She is focused and ready. Writing and Vibing tonight!

Those are my goals for the night and hopefully, before the night is over, I will have some stuff done so tomorrow I can concentrate on goals for that day. Hoping for me to finish chapters ten-12 in my book. And the layout of the poetry book. Goals Goals, Goals. Dreams, Dreams, Dreams!!!

How is the night going for you guys? Are you getting your goals done? Working on any projects tonight? Hope it’s great!!

Blessings and Love!

Thank you for reading.