How it started and when it started

This feeling on being unwanted

Abandoned

As a child, as a teen

As an adult

Being told at a young age

I’m not special enough

Cute enough

Smart enough

That I am nothing at all

Left alone

Abandoned

By those who said they love me

Would always be there

But you see they are

Gone, nowhere to be found

Abandoned

Searching for answers

Feeling of being alone

Closed in, nowhere to turn, fearful

Can’t speak, Afraid

My voice does not matter

Abandonment

Got me feeling no one cares

Abandonment

Screaming out for help

Being left, being unheard

Being let down constantly

Abandoned

Even by myself

I let me down too

Abandoned

Feeling of being ashamed

Of my pain, my scars

The fucked up past

Lifeless

Why though?

Being abandoned so young

Made me grow into darkness

Abandonment

Something I still try to get over

Abandoned

Feeling lost

Unwanted

Unloved

It is too much of a feeling

This sad, and fucked up feeling of

A nobody

Lost soul

Feelings of and truth of..

Abandoned

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