Tag Archives: Faith

Want What You Cannot Have.

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Want it, Can’t Have it…..

Have you been in a situation where you have to walk away from someone love because you knew in your heart that the two you would not have worked out? I am just sitting here thinking of that person and I miss him. Been feeling so lonely lately and thinking and missing him is making me feel worse because that is who I want. Badly. I miss the way he used to look at me, our conversations, our silliness, our vibe, the compliments, and him always being real with me. We had to walk away from each other, and it still hurts. I want him in my life, and I still feel that it would not work out for me due to me knowing this person well the way they think, and their personality. Sometimes it annoys me wondering about what if. What would happen if we did have a relationship? What if we try now? Wondering if I made a mistake when I had to walkway from him. Hate feeling this way and again feel lonely and want him next to me even if not in a relationship with me just to talk to each other would be good. I need to find something to do because he is too much on my mind. SMH, I do not like it. He probably does not still feel the same way. Should I reach out or just leave it alone? Maybe too much time has passed.

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Have you ever had a person in your life that could not let go? Did all the wrong things in the relationship and you endured a lot and decided to leave but they just will not let you go. Dealing with that currently. Yeah, today I am dealing with a lot got someone who wants me but I don’t want them I feel I tried so hard for years and got hurt and I am over it. Haven’t been with this person for years and they won’t let up. Yeah, fucking annoying. And then I want someone who probably does not want me or thinking about me at all, the difference is I am not bugging the other person or begging them to want me. Constantly calling or texting them. It is the want what I cannot have syndrome we both got I guess lol. Emotions are everywhere though

Damn, can I catch a break…. LOL a little too much at the moment.

That damn feeling of wanting what you cannot have……

Blessings and Love!

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Embrace

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In this life, it is important that you embrace yourself to the fullest. It is good to take the time to celebrate you. Embrace all that you have and love yourself to the fullest. Embrace the good times as well as the hard times, that is what makes you wiser and stronger. Embrace your healing process and be gentle with your mind, body, and spirit. Embrace your inner happiness and peace. Yes, life happens but always be true to yourself. Embrace yourself, embrace life….

All of it! Just Saying!!

Blessings and Love!

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***This post was inspired by my daughter, also a writer. She thought that I should write about embracing yourself. Big shout out to her, got to love her***

I, Self-Aware

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I am a force, self-sufficient and strong

Independent in my choices all day long

Love is my fuel, my passion, and drive

I thrive on it, and it keeps me alive.

My heart beats with a rhythm of its own

Guiding me as I walk life’s unknowns

I am tough, resilient, and unbreakable

My spirit unwavering and unshakable.

I love myself most, but I love others too

For love is the bond that makes us all new

I stand tall, proud, and free

My independence is a testament to me.

-I, Self-Aware-

Blessings and Love! 🖤🤎💙💛💗💚🧡❤🤍💜

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A Purpose II

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In the deepness of discomfort

I wandered aimlessly

Lost and confused, unsure of my destiny

I searched high and low for a reason to be

To find my place in this world, to finally be free

I sought out love in every shape and form

In hopes that it would calm the raging storm

But with every heartbreak, my spirit was torn

And the search for love left me feeling dejected

Climbing mountains and swimming in the sea

But still, my purpose evaded me

I longed for a sign, a glimpse of clarity

To guide me towards my true destiny

But amidst the confusion

I found a glimmer of hope

A light in the darkness, a way to cope

I realized that the search itself was my goal

To embrace the journey and let my purpose unfold

I continue to search with an open heart and mind

To discover my purpose and the love I long to find

For I know that with patience and perseverance combined

My destiny will reveal itself in due time

-A Purpose II-

Blessings and Love!

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T.O.L-Heal/Hurt

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Healing the hurt

If you don’t heal what hurt, you

Heal what lost you

Heal your mind

Body

Soul

You will bleed on people

Who did not cut you

Who tries to be there

For you

Who loves you

That is why healing and becoming one

With self is important.

Heal and let all the hurt go

Can be easier said than done

Can be a long process

You should still try!

Just Heal!

Thinking out loud.  

Blessings and Love!

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I am Healing!
Heal (Trying)

Process of Healing! 

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In the midst of life’s ups and downs 
I find myself with a smile that knows no bounds 
My heart sings a melody of joy 
As I embrace the healing process, oh boy! 

There’s something magical about being upbeat 
It’s like a light that shines so bright and sweet 
No matter what life throws my way 
I know that happiness will always stay 

I dance to the rhythm of my heart 
And let peace and love be my guiding art 
With each passing day, I heal and grow 
And my soul radiates a beautiful glow 

Here’s to the journey of life 
To the highs and lows that make it so flush 
I choose to be upbeat, happy, and free 
And let the healing process set me free 

-Process of Healing- 

Blessings and Love. 

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Unhealthy Habits II

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I made a blog about unhealthy habits 3 years ago. Sadly, not so many changes were made. Here I am again in 2025, still needing to change these unhealthy habits. I want and need to start with stopping the smoking of cigarettes. This very unhealthy habit is one I really need to change. Damn unhealthy habits.

It has been on my mind heavily lately, so I know for sure that it is something I need to do. I am turning 38 in a month, and I’m in need of a few changes. I can keep doing the stuff I have been doing. I am proud of myself for getting my diabetes under control, but now I have hypertension, and smoking is bad for both conditions. Bad for my overall health. Ugh, unhealthy habits.

I will be starting the process of quitting cigarettes soon, and I know it will not be easy (though I wish it were). I am willing to put in the work to make this change and this awful unhealthy habit. These unhealthy habits need to be gone. I am thinking about keeping a journal during this process. I want to document both the positive and negative aspects throughout this process. I got this. I need to find new hobbies and need to stay busy. I also need a new way of thinking. Damn unhealthy habits.

Have you tried to stop something you were use to? How did you cope? Any advice for me?

-Unhealthy Habits II-

Blessings and Love!

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Unhealthy Habits.

Slow

Level-Headed

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In the chaos of the stormy sea

A beacon shines so bright and free

Calm amidst the swirling tide

A steady heart where peace resides

When tempests rage and thunder roars

The level head it calmly soars

Guiding through the darkest night

With clarity, it’s guiding light

In heated moments, tempers flare

But wisdom finds the cooler air

A balanced mind, a tranquil soul

In every challenge, it plays its role

So be the rock, unshaken, strong

Where understanding lingers long

In every trial, be steadfast

Level heads will always last

-Level Head-

Blessings and Love!

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Forget…

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Forget

Want to let it all go

Forget the past, forget the humiliation

Forget the hurt, forget it all

Forget the people who played a part in my hurt

Forget those who knew but did not help, looked away

Forget those who said they care, but really do not

Forget the feelings I had, forget my tears

Forget being a child, forget all of my childhood

Damn

Forget having too much weight on my shoulders

Forget getting over shit alone and afraid

Damn yall

I just want to forget

Forget it all…

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