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This Day….

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This Day..Trying

Today I woke up at 4 in the morning screaming and crying out for my mom. Felt scared and lonely. I miss her so much. Wishing I can give her a call I so bad want to hear her voice. I miss her beautiful smile and being around her. Today is so emotional besides missing and thinking about my mom, I am thinking about 9-11 what happened on this day 20 years ago. I still remember where I was at and what I was doing. So, devastating, I remember that was on my mind for months. So much lost and pain that day. It is a day I feel will always be remembered. Again, today has been emotional and I have been trying to do different things to keep my mind off things. It has been hard and as of right now my hear is heavy and all I want to do is drink the pain away. Just a sad day. Maybe try more writing this evening. I don’t know cannot shake this feeling. Venting and feelings out.

Hope you all are doing okay and having a good day. Praying for us all.

Love, Peace, Happiness, and Blessings

Thank you for reading.

***More by Ray’Elaine***

Shocked….
https://writeblg.com/2021/01/06/prayers-healing-for-all/
Feeling of Life
https://writeblg.com/2021/07/03/bottom-of-the-bottle-2/

Failing/Failure

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Failure…

Hello all,

When you hear the word failure what does it mean to you? To me failure is letting yourself down over and over, not doing what is necessary to succeed, or having things happen in the process of doing what you need or want, and not following your goals or dreams. Yeah, sometimes life steps in and stuff happens that you can not control, it is all about how you recover.

From time to time, I feel like I am failing in life and feel like a loser or failure. When I don’t complete some goals, I feel that I am letting myself down and being lazy even when I’m sick or just feeling down or lazy that day, and when I am not in the mood to write. Feeling like a failure is not okay to me maybe because I tend to be a perfectionist in everything I do. I want everything to be perfect and get pissed when it is not to my standards. Not good. I question myself when failing happens and think about the situation all the time. And of course, I get angry, sad, feel lost, feel like nothing. Always been this way yes even as a child. My parents use to say that I am my own enemy and I hold my own self back. My dad says it constantly and it something that I am very aware of. I know that in life their will be times you will fail, you must keep it moving

I just do not like it, losing, failing, none of it. Is it just me? Failure is not an option is a saying that constantly replays in my mind. Failure is not an option, you get knocked down, brush it off and keep your head up (I tell myself) Simple right?

What do you think? Have a good one! Please feel free to like, comment, and share your thoughts about failure. Love peace, happiness, and blessings all.

Thank you for reading.

Nerves

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Nerves lol

Chaotic day and stressed day for me well not really lol it is all in my freaking head. I say stressed because my feelings and emotions have been everywhere having damn anxiety all day. I know the reason is me missing and worrying about my kids. Panic and full of nerves. I stated in a previous post that the weekend was my kids first time going out of town without me even though they are with their father, and I trust him my nerves are still bad.  Also, they were supposed to be back today but had car trouble and crazy I know because I had got pissed about it knowing that these things can sometimes happen. Need a damn drink or 3 lol I know they are doing okay and having fun I have been talking to them since they left. Why am I like this? I annoy myself by worrying all the time. Feel out of control and that can be why anxiety is in play. My kids seem like they are enjoying themselves and seem like they don’t even miss me lol.

I know its just me with my trust and control issues. Seriously need to calm down, maybe a joint or a drink will do and of course writing, get my mind off it all. A little venting tonight about nothing really lol. Have a good one all.

Happy writing!

Love, Peace, Happiness, and Blessings

Thank you for reading.

September

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New Month

Hello all it is the first day of September. August just flew by here and I am ok with that. Time for new goals for this new month, and fresh starts. Kids start school next week, so I am re doing a schedule for us, hoping to start the month off right. So today I will try not to complain and be grateful and be positive think happy thoughts. Make any necessary changes that need to be made. Overall hoping for the best. Work and writing today also writing out new goals for the weekend and the rest of the month. Happy Wednesday! Happy Writing!

How is your day going so far? Ready for the weekend already? Hope it’s a good day for you all.

Love, Peace, Happiness, and Blessings

Thank you for reading.

Happy Thursday!

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Thursday!

Happy Thursday! people. Wishing you love and blessings this beautiful day. I hope you succeed in what you want to accomplish today. Get that to do list done, make time for your self and try to have a relaxed day and yes trust I know that can be hard if you have a lot going on or work is stressful, just breathe through it and pray. Just want to send love and a positive message today.

It’s almost Friday Yay! Have a great day. please feel to like, comment, and share. thank you for reading.

More from Ray’Elaine! Just Write and Be You!

Strong – Just Write (writeblg.com)

I Smile – Just Write (writeblg.com)

I Smile II – Just Write (writeblg.com)

Love That…! – Just Write (writeblg.com)

#JustWrite

Back to school!

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Back to school!!

Morning all, how is it going?

So excited at the moment and yes, a little nervous. My son will be starting middle school, the sixth grade in a week. Today he has a half a day for orientation. Do not know why I am very nervous, but I am even though it is just orientation lol. I cannot believe that I have a child in middle school. Time is going by fast, and they are growing, something that I can’t stop lol. It is a beautiful yet scary thing for me. Crazy. Maybe I am that parent that will not be able to let go.

Even though I feel anxious I am happy for my son. Starting a new grade and at a new school is exciting and a new experience. I am sure he will do great. My daughter will start fifth grade and she is excited also to start the new school year. My kids are growing up and love it (And Scared).

Shout out to all parents who are homeschooling or sending their kids back to school. It is not easy especially with everything going on in this world, but we do what we must for our children. No matter what! Praying for our children that they are safe and praying for strength and guidance.

Are you ready for back to school? Do you feel it is challenging this year? Hope you all have a good day. Blessings! 💙🖤

Thank you for reading.

Stuck

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Stuck

Stuck here in the same spot

Stuck fighting

Figuring it out

Stuck

All alone

Stuck in a bubble

Want to break free

Scared, nervous

Stuck feeling the weight of the world

Pushing, shoving, reaching

Nothing happens

Stuck in life

Stuck in a shell

Trying to overcome it all

Stuck

Facing fears

Don’t want to

Stuck

Want to be heard

Stuck

Suffer in silence

Stuck

No change, give up

Stuck

Where’s light

Where is Love

I am stuck here and now

Trying to breathe

Get out of it, Climb

Man, man, man

I am just

Stuck

Thank you for reading.

**Just A Poem**

More By Ray’Elaine Just Write!

https://writeblg.com/2021/07/18/content/
Relaxing!
https://writeblg.com/2021/08/09/writing/

Pressure

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Pressure

When you feel the weight of the world, of life.

Pressure

Trying to make everyone around you happy.

Pressure

Trying to make yourself happy.

Pressure

Having those bad days, struggling

Pressure

The drama and let downs.

To be perfect

Pressure

Dealing with people who are toxic to you.

Pressure

Heaviness

Too much weight

It is all around.

Damn the pressure.

Thank you for reading.

#Pressure #Poetry #JustWrite

Numb… — Just Write

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At this point I feel helpless, hopeless, soul less. Feel numb to it all my days and nights are a blur. I am constantly pacing and can not focus. Music helps a little. Heart is steadily racing and thinking the worst. It is really bad cause I don’t have anyone to talk to and I […]

Numb… — Just Write

The feeling of this tonight. Praying on it……. And more praying!

What A Day. Hope yours was better. Blessings!

Have a goodnight everyone!!!

Thank you

https://writeblg.com/2020/12/10/rage/
I Smile II

Morning!!!

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Wednesday Morning!!!!!

Every morning no matter how I feel I tell myself that I am loved, I am strong, I am beautiful and I am worth it.

Even if someone else does not see my worth I do. I teach this to my daughter and my nieces I tell them to always love their selves. Loving yourself and believing in your self comes from within.

Good Morning People this is how I get ready in the morning happy face or sad face I have to remind myself how far I have come and I am still going. Remember to always love yourself through it all. Hope you all have a great day and do not let the troubles of the day get you down and yes I know it can be hard, but do your best and think positive. I wish you all a good day, love, peace, happiness, and blessings.

Thank you for reading.

Happy Hump Day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!