Just to be with you, around you, knowing you are there for me
I feel safe and secure. Everything from my mind, my heart, and my body it all feels secure with you
The feelings you give me, makes me light up, I get excited
My inner thoughts, my peace, my life is secure with you. I know that I can talk to you about anything, I can come to you for anything, you will not judge me
Secure in your embrace, I do not want it to end, feel secure with each other
How is everyone’s day? Any plans, or fun activities for the day? For me, no plans today it is just me, my pen, and my notebook. Had some writer’s block early in the day, but of course, I am back at it with writing. Also trying to make up some writing goals that I had set at the beginning of the month. I have been slacking off lately and that is not a good thing.
So today I am focused on writing and planning on staying up tonight a little longer and later than normal to get some stuff done. Feel like it is taking me forever to get this book done. There are days when I am able to write away with no problem and some days, I just do not feel like being bothered with it at all. I need to be more consistent and make it happen. This month so far, I have done nothing and been in my own little world. But from this day on I am going to be on top of everything, I think I sometimes get in my own way and stop my success from happening. I am really working on that. A work in progress here. Does anyone else like this? Does anyone else sometimes feel stuck in life? Sometimes it is a damn struggle, but I will not give up.
I encourage everyone to follow their dreams no matter how long it takes or what needs to be done. Never give up on yourself and what you want out of life. And yes, I do follow my own advice lol. Been working on two books for almost a year and I am still going and willing to finish and publish them. Please follow your gut. Please follow your dreams. Be strong and know you can do it.
Well, okay I am rambling and being random lol. I hope this Sunday is what you wanted it to be, and you enjoyed fun with family and friends. Again, happy Sunday and Happy Easter. Have a good one all.
Remembering back when I was eleven, twelve years old I was just a young smart, shy, innocent girl. My favorite thing to do besides writing yes been writing for years was to be around my grandma. She always made me happy no matter what. At that age I was always talking to her on the phone and wanted to go anywhere she went and would be so excited when I got to spend time with her. I also at that time wanted to live with her. We had a special bond. She used to write too and sometimes she would read her poetry to me. I would smile big and was ready to listen (oh I miss it). My grandma taught me so much, to cook and to always be respectful and responsible. She was my everything, she has been gone for about 20 years and I still miss her and think about her a lot. Even though it has been this long I do not think that I have ever gotten over losing my grandma. Just thinking about her when I woke up this morning made me want to write about it, my heart is heavy, but I know I will get through it. Just want to vent and talk about back then before I turned into a different person. She passed when I was thirteen years old it broke my heart; it broke my world. My grandma and mom are on my mind today. Whew okay had to let that out, on my venting and thinking ish today.
Venting….I really am trying to keep my faith and belief. I try to have patience and not think negatively. But when so much is going on in your life, and shit happens back-to-back it is hard to think positive. I feel like I am in a trance a bad one. I am just not okay today and trying to pray, trying to write, hoping that things will get better. I am at a loss right now thinking about my mom and grandpa and of course my day-to-day struggles and dealing with other people’s shit. My non-exitant love life. Feelings/ emotions are everywhere tonight. Seriously!
Ugh, what a day, what a night. Trying my hardest to not overthink. Just keep writing and keep busy…Hate when this happens but will make it through. Breathe and relax I say to myself.
Push through it no matter what. Venting a little sorry. Mind is just going right now. Hope you all are having a good weekend and making those goals. And having a fun-filled weekend. Tomorrow is a new day to begin fresh.
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