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Memories

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Memories

Memories the good and the bad. Mostly the good ones though, just sitting here thinking. I am thinking of the good moments and memories me, my kids, and my mom has shared. It has been 23 days since my mom has passed and it seems unreal still. I sometimes still grab my phone ready to call her. This is so hard. Now all I have left is the great memories of her. She always had a beautiful smile on her face. These memories I will hold onto forever. Thinking of the good times sometimes helps when I am down. I love all our great memories and missing you mom. My mom My lil GLO, my Gloria your memory lives on. I will always have you in my heart.

Let it all out. Hope you all are having a better night.

Thank you for reading. Love, Peace, Happiness, and Blessings

Prayers!

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Prayers

Today I want to pray for those who are dealing with this bad weather and the snowstorms and ice storms all over. I am in Minnesota so somewhat used to this weather, but I have heard that states like Texas who is getting hit with this weather and this is new for them. Just praying for those who do not know what to do and who are facing challenges due to what is going on. Also want to pray for those who is dealing with a loved one or their self-due to covid-19. Praying for love and healing for this world. It seems so much is going on. Sending love and prayers to everyone. Remember to love yourself and those around especially during the hard times, things are a little crazy at the moment. Also praying for my family, the situation with my mom is not getting better. I am scared and lost, lately the days has been a blur. Praying for better days for us all. Just venting letting it out, prayers going up. Hope you have Peace, Love, Happiness, Blessings.

Thank for supporting me and thank you for reading.

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Hay Happy Wednesday

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Hello people! Happy Wednesday!

It has been some days and I haven’t been writing, but here I am back at it. Last week was a crazy week and my weekend was busy. Went on a trip with my family and did not get a chance to write. How are you all doing today? Want to talk about the trip and my thought and feeling of course.

Weekend Trip

So, on Saturday morning my mom, my sister, and my brothers myself and our kids drove to Kansas City Missouri, a 6- 8-hour drive. Yeah, we lost the Super Bowl this past Sunday, but it’s still GO Chiefs!! Okay back to it lol the reason for our trip was for our mom to see her family she really wanted to see her dad. It was a nice trip although it was a short one. I was happy to see my grandpa it has been about 5 years since I last seen him so that was cool. Also seeing my cousins who I have not seen in over 10 years (Crazy) even though we didn’t get a chance to hangout seeing their faces and talking to them for a little bit was great. Even though the long drive with kids had my anxiety at a high I enjoyed the trip. I was happy that my mom got to see her family and her home so overall it was cool.

My emotions are still everywhere but I am dealing with it. Taking it one day at a time and doing my breathing exercises. Like I stated above I have not been writing, so I am going to try to write an entry for my gratitude journal, and then write and focus on my book. I have been slacking too much lately and I need to get back into my groove. Still stuck on a chapter for the book but I will push through and make it happen. Also going over my monthly goals and probably add more and make some adjustments. Due to what is going on and me thinking about the unknown I am trying to keep busy and not think too much. What are your plans for the day? Remember to love yourself always and love those close to you. Wish you all Love, Peace, Happiness, and Blessings.

Thank you for reading.

Idea, Business, Panic (LOL)

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My Ideas, I panic sometimes!

So, a while back I wrote about me being an overthinker, over analyzer feeling that was this moment. Within the last week new ideas came to mind and I have been thinking like crazy. Also was thinking about starting a small business while trying to finish my book. I have no type of business plan set up or wrote out. Me and my ideas are all over the place. Wow needs to take a deep breath and think clear. I should be more worried about my book. I admit that I have been slacking a little the week before. I hope I can focus on one thing at a time because I just over think and really come up with some crazy stuff. I also so think that I can do it all at once and by myself at that. Slow down lady lol. Whew I do too much. Good thing is I said I was going to write more, try to everyday and get my book done. During all this I am trying my hardest not to panic…. Take it a day at a time… Breath…. You got it!

Thank You For Reading!

Rage II

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Rage II

This fire, this hurt, this pain, sadness built up

I just want to let it out

My body, my mind wants bloody revenge

Rage inside and I do not care who I hurt, do not care of the outcome

Rage roaring if you are in my view, tears will be cried, blood will be shed

Rage causing me to lose focus, I cannot see, its darkness

Rage want me to react

Rage got me drowning, drinking constantly

Rage inside of me ready to burst

Flames everywhere

Hurt, pain everywhere

Rage rage rage as it continues to build

Damn rage inside of me

Thank you reading.

Ray’Elaine

Walking Away!

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Walking Away...

Walking away, this ish, man why is it hard to do. Even when you know you should, you know it is for the best. You know that you have tried your best. You took them back over and over no matter what. You constantly forgave them, even though you were hurting. You disregarded your feelings to make or keep them happy and for what? To get hurt, to be always crying. You see with your own damn eyes that nothing is getting better, it is a damn cycle that you are going through and yet it is still hard to walk away. When those around you also fee like the two of you should not be together, you do not hear them you still try. Even when that person shows you the real them, that they are all about self, they do not care at all. They do not want to change. Walking away is hard, and then you start to think about the few good times the two of you had, and you think maybe there is hope. In the back of your mind, you know you need to end it. Walking away can be a struggle people love hard and do not like to let go. Also feeling like you would never find a person to love you the right way, you stay and continue to deal with the drama it brings. That damn walking away takes time, it can be easy sometimes not texting or calling, and then there are times when you want that person near you. You want their touch, smell, their voice ugh its annoying. Walking away is necessary sometimes though there is no use in dragging on a relationship or situation, and that goes for anybody family relationship, romantic relationships, and friendships. Walking away from anybody or anything that you love or loved will always be a challenge. Man it is so hard.

Can you deal with it? How? Thank you for reading, please feel free to leave feedback.

You got it. If you need to Do it!

Love Cycle!

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  • Meet each other
  • Get to know each other- Months to years- depend on the people!
  • Dates- How many? Who knows? People sometimes skip this
  • The talks- First couple of months all sweet talk on both ends. The I miss you, cannot wait to talk or see you. Shit everything is all fine and dandy at the beginning. the sweet nothings hell everything even intimacy if that is the case
    • The lying, the half-truths. The I am not telling them this or that. the battle with each other. Can get crazy at times……. Oh well you live and learn……. NEXT
  • Strong- Whatever Phase, I going to do me no matter what…… (It is this way sometimes)
  • Both of us will not back down……Fighting and more fighting just damn drama
  • Is it love? should I give up? Is he playing me? Is she playing me? Is this real…. Nah I am tripping it cannot be…. Why I feel this way? Should I express my true self? Question to ask!
  • The DOUBTING yourself and each other……..Damn, the struggle to not call, to not text, why? At this point you question everything the good, the bad. How he feels, how she feels, sometimes outside influences like damn sometimes it is too damn much……OKAY
  • Time to self…… Self-reflect, constantly thinking what if, thinking for the future. is it this person or no should I try again or NO…..Damn think about self-right now. and at this time there might still be doubt but then you like hell why NOT….OKAY Let us try……see where it goes, we let it flow!
  • THE COMEBACK-IF its love!
  • Talking again- more often, more topics in depth, talking about goals, what each other want, how you can make it work with each other
  • Dating again-More communication, No lies, Trust, Commitment, NO Games- AGAIN IF ITS LOVE
  • Caution- Girl back up, Man Back up- He is mine/Or she is mine very territorial making plans with each other. No one can get the way. NO ONE! LOVE IS STRONG! It is all about us. POSWER of LOVE
  • MOVING IN- THIS IS THE BIG TEST—–WHEW- We go through the motions as we really get to know each other. What we like, what we dislike, how we like this, how we like that, Privacy, Cleaning, Cooking, Eating, Intimacy, damn all of it- AGAIN if true love is in the picture you will work things out. Fighting and oh believe me you will have the dumbest fights, control. This is a tough battle. are you throwing in the towel? Are you up to it….?
  • More Communication. More Bonding, More love. We love Strong!
  • What’s Next? Marriage or more trying? What you think?