Today, I just want to say hi and wish everyone a happy day. Remember to love yourself even through the hard times. It can be hard, I know, but have faith. Love those around you, those who are there for and care for you, and be kind. Sending happiness and love on this Sunday. Praying for all, of course. Be safe, and have a great day. Again, I just want to send LOVE💙❤🧡💛💚🤎🖤🤍
Have A Great One!!!!
Wishing you Peace, Love, Happiness, and Blessings!!!
Content at the moment Not sad, Not happy Content Content at the moment Relaxed, Chilled, Calm Content Content at the moment In a zone, really not seeing much Content In my little world Not speaking, Not thinking This night I am just Content…..
My heart and mind are heavy, my heart hurts. I feel broken and I have been trying to remain positive and pray about my life and the feelings I have. I have made post about being positive and taking care of self, but lately nothing is working for me. I feel so empty and lost. Since my mom has passed away it seems that everything in my life, the past has surfaced. I am constantly thinking of the bad, cruel, and all the shitty things that has happened to me since I was a child hate this feeling and I do not know why everything is coming to mind and heart. I try to keep busy, so I do not think about stuff, but no matter what it happens, I’m thinking and sad and crying. Another thing is the nightmares which that right there is scary some things happened to me, and I still have nightmares about it and also nightmares of me seeing my mom’s lifeless body. That is why I have not been sleeping really. I see my mom and her condition before she passed. I was taking care of her while she was in hospice care from home and watching her day-by-day change and watching her body fail and seeing her take her last breath the look on her face and all, that is what I see when I am trying to sleep. It was so hard to see and horrible going through it. It is still hard for me it has been four months and I’m not over it at all. I do not know what to do. Yes, I am not going to lie I am mad, mad at the world, and mad at myself. I have been feeling like I do not want to be here on this earth. Like, why cannot I shake these feelings, I do not like feeling this way, all I do lately is cry, cry, cry, cry. Why is it so hard? I have been too much in my mind and in the past for some weeks now, and it has me all messed up, and very emotional.
Damn, what is going on with me? For those who have lost someone, how do you go on? How to you heal?
It is hard and I feel very lonely and scared ad mainly scared of myself. Again, trying to make it through the days but it seems my life is spiraling. Sigh, what to do? Letting it all out tonight. My feelings, my thoughts sorry to those who feel it is a dark and negative blog entry. I am my true self and I express my true. Just going through a lot and emotional and need to vent. Thank you for reading.
Sending love to all this Sunday morning. I hope all is well! Have a great day people. Short workday so It’s a chill day for me after. Enjoy the day with family and friends or get those goals completed or have a relaxing day just enjoying yourself. You deserve it.
Practice self-love today and be gentle with yourself! 🖤💙💛🧡🤎💜💚🤍💗