Hay, how’s it going my blog peeps? My night is going ok. Just coming through with some of my thinking out loud thoughts.
Tonight, I am having those why did I moments. Thoughts. the last few months a lot has been going on and I have been super busy with work, home life, and writing. Don’t know why I added a longer shift to my busy schedule. It has been having me drained. I knew it was going to be hard to juggle. Like why did I do that? Early mornings are kicking my ass lol. Another moment or thought is me writing multiple books at the same time. Whew hard work again why did I do that? Tried to make a deadline for each of them but that is not looking too good. Been trying to write every day and dedicate some time to each but after a full day I be so tired.
I really had to sit and think about how much I have going on and need to lighten my load a little. I guess it is the over achiever in me. Also been feeling like I need to stay busy all the time. Have you ever felt that way? I know you guys have those moment when you question yourself and the decisions you made.
Maybe need to put some projects on pause for now and take a breather. Been thinking about having a weekend to myself with no work, no kids, no household duties, no social media, and no phone. You know have a peaceful moment alone. Silence and positive vibes. Breathe and relax
Just another night. T.O.L- why do I? decisions I have made in my life, that I am still trying to figure out. Sharing my thoughts tonight…..
Y’all know that feeling. The feeling of being in love or you think you are. Your in the stage of feeling all the emotions like all of them. You don’t like them, or their ways, everything irritate you. You question everything wondering if you made the right decision or is it LUST. Is it real or are they using you or, you using them what is it? You love them, you hate them sometimes need space from each other. I call it the test phase where both parties like to test each other and push buttons and get reactions.
Smh but that’s what happens when you really not sure if it’s love or lust or if it’s the person you really want. Sometimes it can be just sex that keep two people together, there is no real love between them. Some might think so but NO. Why do we put ourselves in situations like this? If it is real love it will not hurt you, make you feel low and sad, or have you second guessing yourself. I’m just saying this love thang can be Crazy. Seriously 😂
Am I the only to think so? I get there will be ups and downs in relationships but, if it is constant and you feel stuck or it’s too much to deal with, or feel like you both can not get on better terms LEAVE. I feel a person should not settle or put up with BS just to not be or feel alone. What do you guys think? Do you choose love or lust?
Blessings All Thank you for reading.
Not a expert. Just my thoughts please feel free to like, comment, and share
I don’t understand why sometimes I just cannot relax or get a good night’s sleep. I do this all the time, knowing I’m tired, but still want to get so much done. Then I complain and cuss myself in the mornings because I’m still tired and have no energy. Like tonight, I have been working on editing my book for the last two weeks, and tonight that is what I am doing, and I know I have to be up at 5 am for work. But my crazy self wants to continue editing for at least another two hours and post for my blog. So determined and wanting to get it all done fast that it’s cutting into my relaxation and sleep schedule. Why? I always question myself. LOL. I guess tonight; I will have to force myself to bed. Luckily, I work early morning and part-time hours tomorrow, so after work, I am back at it and work on some book covers.
Is anybody else like this? It is kind of weird. LOL. Well, just a little thinking out loud. Blabbing. Time for bed. Homegirl is really tired! Have a goodnight all.
Have you ever thought about unplugging for a while? What I mean by that is turning off all devices, cutting off people who are not there for you, and just relaxing and having a quiet moment. I am feeling like that is what I need to do unplug from the world and all the chaos and focus on my mental health, physical health and just come out refreshed. Take a minute to really think about my future and what I really want for my family. Maybe a digital detox for a couple of weeks might help. Just thinking of ways to detox and learn to relax a little more. Trying to remain calm in chaotic situations. Going to do some research and see what I come up with and try some new things.
Just having a thinking out loud moment worrying about my mental and future. I am still a work in progress. Any advice for me? Have you been in a situation where you needed to step back and meditate for a while? How did you overcome the situation?
Sometimes I wonder where all this overthinking gets me. I do not like it and tonight my mind is in overboard, elevated level, overload, just going miles. So much is on my mind, tried to keep busy with writing, then tried watching tv but that did not last long. Ugh, need to go to bed seriously praying tomorrow is a better day. Just thinking out loud. And I hate being emotional. What a day. What a night.
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