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Thinking…Halloween!

Thinking. Halloween!!

Hello all how is it going tonight?

Tonight, Halloween is on my mind. Are you into Halloween? My kids have been talking about it a lot lately and it is getting me in the Halloween sprit. I am not actually into this holiday, but I do not know this year I want to do different things. I want to dress up and go to haunted houses. Also want to start some fun and spooky craft projects. Been looking up some ideas on what the project this weekend will be. Any spooky ideas? I am thinking pranks too, scare my kids a little lol. As far as dressing up there is so many costume ideas floating in my head, mainly want to do a 90’s superstar, or maybe a character from Mortal Kombat yes I am everywhere with this. Hopefully, I figure it out soon. My kids want to be characters from the movie Adams Family cannot wait!!! Oh, and YES Thanksgiving on my mind too, this early lol

Besides thinking Halloween for some minutes, I am also doing some writing and editing, and details with character development. Writing and making changes that I must make. It is a process. WHEW! Letting this pen do the work. Happy Writing!

Are you excited about Halloween? Any Craft Projects in the works? Are you dressing up?

Goodnight and Blessings All 💙🖤💚💛🧡❤🤎💜

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October!

It is a new month. Yay October the months are going fast. New goals, new beginnings. Ready for this month and ready to finish my books and do exciting things. And of course, Holidays coming up so excited about that. Again, New Month and so much to do. Have a good one.

Happy New Month.

 Are you excited? Any new goals? Any finished projects? Halloween Plans?

Of course, Happy Writing and Blessings to All

Thank You

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In the night

In the night!

In the night when all is still

I am up and my mind is awake

Racing with thoughts good and bad

In the night when its hard to sleep

In the night is when I write

Letting it all flow together

In the night, my heart is free, free to be me

In the night I see clear

In the night, my imagination is wild

In the night, my mind is wild

In the night I write freely, freely me

And it is Night! Time to write

Thanks for reading.

#InTheNight #JustWrite

A Day

Good Morning all how is it going?

My morning…….

Man, man man what a Morning it has been. One child sick and another one suspended from school and its chaos here. LOL. Patience and strength are needed seriously. Will not be working today so maybe writing when things calm down. It is going to be a long and maybe stressful day and I have a damn migraine also so there’s that. Need a BIG cup of coffee lol. It’s one of those days today, I guess. Maybe try to do some editing or just watch tv and be lazy I rather be working but it is what it is. What to do????

What are your plans for the day? Any writing goals? Work goals?

Hope you all have a great day and enjoy it.  Yay Friday tomorrow

Love, Peace, Happiness, and Blessings All

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My Heart Guarded

Heart Guarded

Sometimes I hate that I am so guarded, and I keep everything in. emotions are bottled up and I do not show that side of me. I do not fully put my feelings out there because I have feelings of being wronged and hurt. I do not like to love and be vulnerable, people will use that against you. That is why I guard my mind and my heart. It is true that I can be afraid of rejection. I do not trust easily either I have major trust issues and I know that is holding me back, but I cannot just fully put my trust in others. I am also guarded because I feel like people have negative motives, and I do not like that shit. I am guarded because I have not healed from my past, I need to let go and move on. Is it bad that I cannot let my guard down? Working on changing that, maybe just do not want to get hurt anymore I’ so freaking over it. I am just thinking out loud, my crazy thoughts. SMH it how I am feeling though. My heart is guarded. I need help!

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#HeartGuarded #Mythoughts #JustWrite

Rough Day…..

Rough day yesterday!

Yesterday was a hard day for me. I had to take a moment for myself. I sat on my bed rocking back and forth and taking deep breaths. Minutes before that I was in attack mode. I felt hurt and just rage and wanted to do damage to that person. Ugh I do not like having this feeling and I am glad I walked away because the way I was feeling was madness and did not want to do anything stupid. So, I had to take some deep breaths and put on some music to calm myself. I hate that I let someone get the best of me and got me out of control for a minute. I also had to pray for strength, I was a different person and had to check myself really quick. Right now, I am still a little upset, but happy the situation is over and nothing bad happened. I kept it cool. Very thankful and proud of myself for having the strength to walk away.

I will continue to pray for strength and guidance. Really trying to have peace, get to my happiness. Have you ever been in a scary situation before? How did you deal with it?

Thank you for reading.

#JustWrite

This feeling again, UGH

Feeling this Again…..

This feeling again, damn maybe I just need to talk to this man and let my feeling be known. another damn night I am spending with him on my mind. It has been like this for days and do not know why. This man probably does not even think about me or care about me but here my stupid self is just in my feelings about him. Sometimes I think I should pickup the phone and call him to hear his voice, I really want him beside me, but oh well. Wish I can get him off my mind, like seriously. Thinking out loud and very emotional, man getting attached and getting your feelings involved sucks. Yes, I hate that I feel this way I feel like I cannot focus I just see him, I can not help it. I just wanted to let this out and I need to learn to keep my feelings in check. Damn, damn, damn this man, I think I am in love (OH MY). I am rambling, need help. What should I do?

Ugh this damn feeling again.

Thank you for reading.

#JustWrite #Love

In My Heart

In My Heart

In my heart I will remember your love

In my heart I will always see and feel your smile

In my heart I will keep your voice, your words

In my heart I will always see and feel you

In my heart I will keep your memories

In my heart, in my mind you will

Forever be missed

In my heart you will always be

I love you always mom

Sill in my heart

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This Day….

This Day..Trying

Today I woke up at 4 in the morning screaming and crying out for my mom. Felt scared and lonely. I miss her so much. Wishing I can give her a call I so bad want to hear her voice. I miss her beautiful smile and being around her. Today is so emotional besides missing and thinking about my mom, I am thinking about 9-11 what happened on this day 20 years ago. I still remember where I was at and what I was doing. So, devastating, I remember that was on my mind for months. So much lost and pain that day. It is a day I feel will always be remembered. Again, today has been emotional and I have been trying to do different things to keep my mind off things. It has been hard and as of right now my hear is heavy and all I want to do is drink the pain away. Just a sad day. Maybe try more writing this evening. I don’t know cannot shake this feeling. Venting and feelings out.

Hope you all are doing okay and having a good day. Praying for us all.

Love, Peace, Happiness, and Blessings

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