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Little Girl Lost

Lost Little Girl

Little lost girl

Fighting to find her way

Lost with no direction

Sad eyes, heart hurting, mind racing

Wounds open, flesh

Lost little girl

Thrown to the wolves, the sharks, the bad

The ugly, clowns, death

Raging to get free

Surrounded by the unknown, Dark

Lost little girl

Scared, shocked, afraid

Alone, cold, wondering

Mad, darkness, raged, shaking

Lost in a world, no clue

She is lost, no soul, no nothing

Lost little girl

Can she be found???

Thank You For Reading.

****Just A Poem!!****

Bond and Love!

Bond and Love!

Hello everyone, how is your night going? Tonight, I want to talk about being a parent and the bond between parent and child.

There is nothing like have a bond with your children. I look at my two children and I know that they fulfill me. I do my best and want to give them the world. The love and bond between a parent and child to me is unmatched. Yes, there will be ups and downs of course that is life. All you can do as a parent is teach them what is right, teach them leadership, discipline, talk to them and always check to see how they are feeling, build them up, teach them responsibilities, teach them finances, and pray over them and for them. Yes, a difficult task, but when you start a family it is what you signed up for it is your priority.

With my two kids I have talks with them all the time and yes, my son gets very irritated lol he is eleven years old and thinks he knows it all and think he is a man. He gets mad sometimes when I have to correct him and let him know what the right way is to do things. I have to teach them the right and wrongs and the way of the world. So, I stay on top of them, always picking their brain and giving them knowledge and teaching them the things I had to learn on my own. I am their friend too but of course I have to let them know that I am their mother first. Even with the challenges I would not change anything. I feel like my kids made me and are making me a better person as we grow together. I often think of what my life would be like if I did not have children that’s kind of scary. I am thankful that I do they have truly saved my life and I sooooo love my bond with them, even when they are getting on my nerves lol (I know I am not the only one LOL). It is still all loving no matter what. A great bond one that you pray will never break.

I am a mother who has come a long way, a mother who is learning and growing, while growing, building, and teaching her children. My little ones, my friends, my buddies, my homies, my cubs, my hearts, my everything, my strength, my life. A bond full of love.

Shoutout to all parents trust I know it is not easy, keep your head up and do your best.

Hope you all have a goodnight. Sending love, peace, happiness, faith and blessings to you and your families. Goodnight and I thank you for reading.

Thank You.

Happy Writing, Blogging!!!!!

Shocked….

Shock.....

Been three days and I am still in shock. I feel like I am coming and going. I am lost and hurting right now and I know it will take some time to heal. Such a beautiful person gone so soon. I love you mom and you will be missed. Again I am still shocked and haven't been in the mood to do anything. I just really want to be alone I am taking this hard and wish I could stop thinking so much. Feelings at the moment: Shocked, Lost, Hurt, Sad, Raged, Alone, Depressed, and more. Got to take this one day at a time and I know it will not be easy.

Praying for strength, guidance, understanding, patience wisdom, and healing for me and my family. Praying that things will get better with time. Venting and getting out how I feel right now and writing this took time. My thoughts, My Feelings. Just Write!

I thank you for reading.

Hay Happy Wednesday

Hello people! Happy Wednesday!

It has been some days and I haven’t been writing, but here I am back at it. Last week was a crazy week and my weekend was busy. Went on a trip with my family and did not get a chance to write. How are you all doing today? Want to talk about the trip and my thought and feeling of course.

Weekend Trip

So, on Saturday morning my mom, my sister, and my brothers myself and our kids drove to Kansas City Missouri, a 6- 8-hour drive. Yeah, we lost the Super Bowl this past Sunday, but it’s still GO Chiefs!! Okay back to it lol the reason for our trip was for our mom to see her family she really wanted to see her dad. It was a nice trip although it was a short one. I was happy to see my grandpa it has been about 5 years since I last seen him so that was cool. Also seeing my cousins who I have not seen in over 10 years (Crazy) even though we didn’t get a chance to hangout seeing their faces and talking to them for a little bit was great. Even though the long drive with kids had my anxiety at a high I enjoyed the trip. I was happy that my mom got to see her family and her home so overall it was cool.

My emotions are still everywhere but I am dealing with it. Taking it one day at a time and doing my breathing exercises. Like I stated above I have not been writing, so I am going to try to write an entry for my gratitude journal, and then write and focus on my book. I have been slacking too much lately and I need to get back into my groove. Still stuck on a chapter for the book but I will push through and make it happen. Also going over my monthly goals and probably add more and make some adjustments. Due to what is going on and me thinking about the unknown I am trying to keep busy and not think too much. What are your plans for the day? Remember to love yourself always and love those close to you. Wish you all Love, Peace, Happiness, and Blessings.

Thank you for reading.

Venting Tonight

Venting tonight….Ugh

So yesterday had been a long day seemed like it dragged off. The only good thing was that it was my son birthday, he turned 11 and yes, I feel old lol. I also started my gratitude journal yesterday and I told myself that I will try it for a while see how I like it. I hate that besides those two things I have been moody all day and wanted to stay in my bed. The situation with my mom’s health is taking its toll on me. Awfully bad news and I do not know how to process it all. My emotions are all over the place and I have just been down lately. Heart is heavy but praying for the best and praying for strength, guidance, understanding, healing, and patience. I know that it will be a process and it will be hard for me and my family and I have to be strong for us all. Just too much going on and I am feeling overwhelmed and just want to shut down.

Sorry if you feel like this is a negative post but I have to get my feeling out. Losing someone or knowing you are going to lose them hurts I am sad and really do not know what to do. I am so lost, hurt and confused. This is hard and wanted to vent for a while. I know some things I post might be too much for some, but I am the type to say how I really feel. My thoughts, my feelings, letting it all out. I thank you all for the support. I thank you for reading.

Whew. These last couple days….

Whew…..

Have you ever felt like you wanted to take someone’s pain away? You wish you can do more for them? That is my feelings lately. at the moment I feel helpless and I can not make the situation better. There is nothing I can do and speechless. I am praying that it gets better. I do not like feeling this way, I am not in control. Besides feeling helpless I feel lost and confused also do not know what to do. I haven’t’ really been eating or sleeping the last couple days just be up pacing and thinking since I got bad news. Heart is heavy and I have vent about it. It is too much going on right now. Praying and more praying, having faith. Lord give me strength and heal my family. My thoughts, my feelings letting it out. I thank you for reading.

Whew. Woww. BREATHE

Upfront- Deal With It!

Being up front!

Oh man you try to tell people how you really feel about them or the situation, not to be mean or cruel, but to be real and honest with them. Why do some people ignore that and be like “oh your just talking, you don’t mean what you’re saying” like really?

I am saying this because my children’s father cannot accept that I do not want to be in a relationship with him. We have not been together in four years and yes, all this time he has been trying to get back together. I just do not understand why he is like this. I want nothing from him, Nothing at all. I wish he will get it, understand it, and move the hell on with his life. Last year I tried to hook him up with someone lol that did not work. To the point where it is so annoying, I usually ignore him, but it is too much. The begging and lying about shit to get me to take him back, trying not to snap on him, but it is so hard.

I do not feel like I am wrong or doing something hurtful, I mean we were in a relationship for almost 10 years and I gave him chance after chance and tried my hardest to make it work despite how I was treated by him, (CRAZY) it is like I tried and got nothing but heartache and headache. I am so over being in a relationship with dude I just want to co- parent and enjoy my single life. Why is it so hard for him to understand? Our relationship was bad and very toxic. Yeah, I am venting about this again maybe because I really do not understand it. Thank you for reading.

To my little ones!

To my little Ones!

Hearing the little voices

Hearing the little footsteps

The reasons I must live, the reasons I love hard

My kids, my little ones

Warm hearts, joyful kisses

My loves keeping me on my feet, work is never done (lol)

Looking into their eyes, their laughs, their playing

Their smiles bring my heart happiness and joy

To my kids who are my all. Best friends and all

Love always to my kids, my little ones!

Thank you for reading!