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Boxed In

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Inside the box

That they want you in

Feel funny

Not right

You not you

They not really who they say

They are

Chaos

All around

In this box

Cornered

Scared

Hopeless

You not you

They not what they say

In this little box

I suffer

I am quiet

Do what they want

It is their show

In this box

Sit still

No movement

Mind constantly going

Closed in

What is to come

In this box

Afraid

Lost

Find a way out

Screaming in this box

Let me out

You not you

They are not who they say

What to do in

This box

Let it be

Not say a word

Silence

Do not Speak

Keep it hush

You, not you

They are not who they say

Can I trust me

Can I trust them

This box

I

Am in

Will it be

My life

My sanity

This box

Take ownership

All on me

Pain, hurt, brainwashed

Happy pretending

Will I let them get away?

Do they win?

In this box

Alone

Or

Will I fight

Fight to

Get out this

Box

Confined

Struggling

Speaking but not heard

Will be weak no more

Awake

Ready

Scream, fight shout

My way

Out this

Box.

You, not you

They are not who they say

This box

Me in it

Will go away.

I say think above it all

I say fuck that box

I survive,

That box can suck it!

Blessings and Love!

Thank you for reading.

**A Poem**

Boxed in… No Thanks

Trusting.

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Trusting

Hello everyone. How is your Tuesday night going? I want to talk about trust/trusting. I bring this up because I have been wanting to reach out to someone about my life, to talk and sort things out, but I do not know if I can trust another person with so much information about me. Maybe I am being weird about it, but I do not trust easily. I want to let everything out and move on; I just do not know who that person can be. Even with professionals, I am still iffy about it. Trust, trust, trust, man. I need to learn how to open up more and let people in; that is hard, though. Wrote poems and blogs about it. TRUST…

I have been thinking about counseling or maybe reaching out to a life coach. Nowadays, I have been trying to balance everything out and learn new techniques. Sometimes, I feel I need help with that. But of course, it is the trust thing.

I told myself that I would try to be trusting and let things flow if I decided to talk with someone. I would give them a try, fill them out, and see if we could move forward. I know putting your trust in others or anything can be risky because you never know what their true intent can be, and that is my opinion. Trusting others can be tricky or hard, again, in my opinion.

Have you experienced this before? Should I say forget it and just do it? I have to really make my mind up. Man, these trust issues of mine are not good. Yes, I need a little help lol. I have a hard time trusting anything.

Blessings and Love

Thank you for reading..

**More from Ray’Elaine**

Trust Issues… | Just Write (writeblg.com)

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My Heart Guarded II

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This heart is guarded,

Afraid to give and receive love

Scared to open up

To expose these vulnerabilities.

The fear of being hurt

Of being left broken and shattered

Dismissed, unwanted

It holds me back from taking risks

From letting someone in.

Yet deep down

There is a longing for connection

For a love that is pure and true

A love that can heal and mend.

So, this heart is guarded

Continues to search and yearn

Hoping one day I will find

The courage to take the leap

And give and receive love fearlessly

But, Damn

My heart is still guarded……

Blessings and Love! 🖤🤎💙💛💗💚🧡💜🤍❤️

Thank you for reading.

My Heart Guarded

Forgetting/Forgiving

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Forgetting/Forgiving

I know you are supposed to forgive people and move on with life. Yeah, that is hard to do, well for me it is. Why? Because all I think about is how a person did me wrong or harmed me, and then I do not know why they did it. I am left feeling lost and confused. I have a hard time forgetting the past and forgiving those in my past, I mean all of it, all the bad, and that is probably my biggest problem. I feel like I still live in the past, and that is not cool. I try to forget about it, but pain and anger will not let me, I do not know why I am still this way. I try to not think about stuff. This is something I am working on I need to let it all go and really move on with my life. Try not to seek revenge and be happy with my life. Try to forgive those who have brought harm my way.

I heard that forgiving a person helps. Holding on to hurt can release the emotions it can bring and help with built-up anger. You are not doing any good by holding on to the hurt. I pray that I can forgive people because this feeling of holding on or wanting to hurt back is not good. I am learning how to forgive day by day.

Have you felt like you could not forgive someone? Was it hard to forgive? What do you think?

Thank you for reading.

Release

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Take that step and

Be ready to

Release what’s holding onto you

Or inside of you

Release those strong holdings

Release what is built up

Release it all

Start anew

Release that doubt in your mind

Release that not good enough feeling

Release those who say that you can’t

Release it all

Build anew

Release that fear

Release bad energy

Release your toxic thoughts and/or ways

Release the tension

Release it all

Be a new you, better you

Release the anger, scaredness, and sadness

Release that old version of you

It is time for new beginnings

Release it all

And become the newer You!

Blessings and Love

Thank you for reading.

Radiance 

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Radiant beauty, so gentle and pure 

A sight to behold, of that I am sure 

Soft and serene, like a summer breeze 

It dances in my heart and puts me at ease 

The world around me fades away 

When I see this beauty on display 

In every flower, every blade of grass 

I see the wonder of this world en masse 

From the mountains high to the oceans deep 

Radiant beauty is all we need to keep 

A gentle reminder of all that’s good 

In a world that can be misunderstood 

I am going to cherish this beauty so true 

And let it guide me in all that I do 

For in its gentle embrace, I can find 

A love and peace that’s genuinely divine 

-Radiance- 

Blessings and Love! 

Thank you for reading. 

T.O.L- 2P’s

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Patient, Positive

I am learning to think and be more positive and patient. I used to think that if I had an idea and started working on it, things would happen fast or, as some will say, overnight. I must take my time with things to ensure they are done right. I am not rushing it, but my patience is not good. Lol, I get so anxious and then get angry. Instead of understanding that some things take time, patience is a virtue.

I am glad that I grew up and now fully understand how patience and understanding can go a long way. The same goes for being positive. At times, I used to think the worst instead of having faith that the situation would work out. To make it in life, you must grow and learn as you age.

I say I am making progress by taking the necessary steps to learn new things and, at the same time, learning more about myself. I am so proud of myself that I have come a long way. Though still an overthinker, I am working on that next. One step at a time. One day at a time. You can overcome your past and certain situations. Think positive, have faith, and have patience.

I am just thinking aloud, thinking about how I used to be compared to now. I love the results and am happy to share even though I am kind of rambling, lol. Progress and I am still learning and growing. Love to all who support.

Love, Peace, Happiness, and Blessings

Thank you for reading.